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aha-my-villainous-thoughts · 2 months

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ASH! There is no one like you. Your art is so BOLD and creative and genuinely awe-inspiring. I admire all the slutty, slutty things you make Ed and Stede get up to, while also making them look so pretty and colorful. So glad we have you in this fandom. 💕

I seriously don't have words 😭😭😭😭 have some memes instead 😭😭😭💖🧡💚💙💜💖

Thank you so much marianne!!! 😭💖💜💙💚💛🧡❤️💖😭

#honestly this ask might have broken me a little #i have an unhealthy amount of imposer syndrome #and a general anxiety of shyness around my mutuals and any kind of audience #I'm desperate to make things and share them and i love more than anything hearing people love the things i make as much as i do #I've been in fandom spaces for a really long time #(bitch is old)#and ive never been uplifted like i have by the ofmd fandom 💜💜💜#I've had my work stolen or traced in previous fandoms #bullied or harassed or made to feel pathetic #and more often than that I've been kinda on my own in a little corner making stuff and easy to ignore/forget #i have a lot of fear about being unwanted or discarded or upsetting people #i just love to draw and get my little rainbow brainworms out into my art #and i love sharing them #and for so long that really was enough #it truly was #but after OFMD? after this crew? after this space of warmth and excitement and growth and queer joy??#finding connections and making friends and clowning with you and drawing prompts and making memes and being in big bangs and zines?!#getting to illustrate fics and have my art inspire fics?? making friends with my mutuals who write and draw and make beautiful gifs?!#this has been the most fun ive ever had on the internet #and im so grateful #and overwhelmed #and thankful #and just everything altogether all at once #thank you so much

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