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onwardintolight · 1 year

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So that post I reblogged earlier today about archiving our old fics from other platforms by posting them to AO3 since they’re a valuable part of fandom history apparently got to me... after years of avoiding it, I just found and reread a particular fic that I wrote when I was 13 or 14 back when I was Jedi_Arwen on TheForce.Net forums. And yeah, it’s cringey as hell, it very much feels like a love story written by a 13 or 14 year old, plus it relies on the Jedi Apprentice series which I’m not sure anyone knows or cares about anymore — but I actually think it may be salvageable? At least a tiny bit? Suddenly I feel compelled to edit/rewrite it, make the worst of the cringe a bit more palatable, and then let it loose into the world just for funsies. Am I crazy? Is this a death wish? Will it taint my name as a fic author forever? Someone stop me before I do something I regret

#star wars #sw fic #jedi apprentice #qui-gon jinn #and a love interest which I will rename bc wow 13 year old me straight up stole that from Tolkien #can't decide if I want to laugh or cry right now #the cringe is a lot but it's also kind of sweet and cute #it did have readers who appreciated it at the time #but I'm not sure if it was a matter of 'oh she's obv very young and this is cute let's encourage her'#or if they genuinely liked it #anyway this was my mary sue moment I was obsessed with Qui-Gon at the time #even though he was old enough to be my grandpa #and I wanted a Jedi character that I could pretend to be while playing Star Wars with my friends #while imagining secret Jedi whirlwind romances #oh my god I'm just making this worse aren't I #maybe this shouldn't ever see the light of day again #thoughts #fic writing

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