#and aqua is very fucking good and deserves better idk if i can fit all my thots on aqua into one cohesive post
i finally finished bbs last night! apart from the secret episode/endings bc i didnt fuckin know you had to 100% the game on standard to get them skldfjdkkjh ANYWAY here’s some notes on ventus bc i ran out of steam to discuss the rest of the game haha, i might do terra and aqua posts later
i think bbs might be the tightest game in kh in terms of story, either this or days. everything is very cohesive, everyone’s arcs are very clear and defined. maybe that’s why i feel more critical of the things they get wrong when plenty of kh games haven’t tried going for this much narrative cohesion? but i also LOVE a ton of shit in bbs, so even with the shit i don’t like it’s really fun to engage with the whole piece critically, haha.
smth i never caught before was xehanort telling vanitas “go take what ventus owes you.” this really suggests that xehanort has been directing vanitas’ rage towards ven all this time, abusing him for years and telling him it’s ven’s fault, ven STOLE vanitas’ light and he has to get strong enough to take it back by force.
but all throughout this game vanitas has been demanding that ven join with him and together they’ll form the x-blade. not to get too vanven agenda on it but during the final ven/vanitas boss fight, vanitas’ battle quotes start sounding like marital vows: “what’s yours is mine!”, “join now with your better half.” there’s such an interesting contrast there where xehanort has clearly been training vanitas to take his rage out on ventus to try to protect himself from vanitas turning on him, but vanitas doesn’t seem to have internalised that at all.
like clearly he doesn’t fucking like ventus either lmao, and i think the novels say that vanitas inherited all of ven’s self hatred so he does actively hate ventus. but there’s such a severe leap from how xehanort has explained their relationship (ven stole vanitas’ light/wholeness) and how vanitas feels about it (ven and vanitas must join together to be whole). so maybe it’s that vanitas doesn’t see himself as a whole person, he knows he’s incomplete and empty and he’s reaching out for the only thing he thinks can fix it.
like does vanitas even want the x-blade?? does he fuckin get anything out of it?? is it literally just that he was born half and wrong and this is the only clue he has towards making himself whole? like the DRAMA, the DESPERATION, god the boys are so fucked up.
also that boss fight is my favourite fuckin fight in the game, like seeing vanitas and ventus together on the station of awakening oh my goddddddd. and they SHATTER the station, the final stage of the fight fought around the stained glass fragments in their self destruction, they’ll never be whole. and the d-link oh my FUCKING god!!!!!!!!! literally fucking gasped like we LOVE storytelling through video gameplay mechanics!!!!!!!!!!! like the meta narrative of corrupting this gameplay mechanic where you team up with your friends throughout your adventure, and now vanitas has forced his way in and you’re working TOGETHER to defeat him!!!!!!! hand in unloveable hand oh my god. it’s the most in sync ven and vanitas ever get and it’s as they’re destroying each other. and ven’s theme bleeding into the boss fight music because you the player and ven himself know that you’re killing him in this fight as well. it’s so fucking good, it’s SO fucking GOOD. might be my favourite boss fight in all of kh like the fucking LEVELS, this is so professional. maybe tetsuya nomura knows how to make a video game after all.
it’s really fucking annoying that im also rereading homestuck at the moment and babes like. kh and homestuck are unfortunately very similar, as a society we just have to come to terms with that. like ven’s arc is really reminding me of john’s, sleepy bitch disease solidarity.
anyway ventus embodies the birth by sleep theming most literally, in that he’s actually physically asleep in the end waiting for his birth by sleep and for sora to pick up all the pieces. so his narrative arc starts with him leaving home for the first time, and there’s that question the whole time of if he’s ready to leave and learn about the world, learn about his own past. ven never had a chance to ask that question himself, it was already decided by the adults in his life. he wakes up in a self discovery sense when he’s made to remember xehanort tearing him apart, and this awakening causes him physical pain like he’s screaming in agony.
so ventus has his adventure, leaving the nest for the first time and facing real dangers, and he can’t unknow this knowledge he now has. he has to fully acknowledge his mortality and ask his friends to kill him rather than allow the x-blade to be forged. he’s going on this identity quest, embracing his agency to try to save his friends, learns about these terrible truths in his past finally. just as soon as he’s learning how to be an independent person, he has to face this literal objectification where his only use is as part of a weapon. this was always his fate and he never actually had a choice, he’s been pulled along by xehanort this whole time.
the last choice he has, the only choice he can make, is to destroy himself to stop the x-blade coming together. and by the end of the game he’s an object again, this lifeless husk hidden away in castle oblivion waiting for other people to put his pieces back together again. he’s left where he started: asleep.
i forgot all the times they directly allude to ven being like a fairytale princess falling asleep. like i remembered that theme but i forgot the DIRECT visual parallels between him and snow white and aurora, it’s so sweet,,,,, i luv how intentional it is lmao, sometimes kh knows what it’s doing. so ventus falling asleep again would imply his personal development isn’t finished yet, he’s not ready for that transition into adulthood.
actually this is my tumblr post so i’m gonna dig up my thesis notes on classic disney and lesbians from last year, you are legally obliged to bear with me.
"In major life changes such as adolescence, for successful growth opportunities both active and quiescent periods are needed. The turning inward, which in outer appearance looks like passivity (or sleeping one's life away), happens when internal mental processes of such importance go on within the person that he has no energy for outwardly directed action. Those fairy tales which, like "The Sleeping Beauty," have the period of passivity for their central topic, permit the budding adolescent not to worry during his inactive period: he learns that things continue to evolve. The happy ending assures the child that he will not remain permanently stuck in seemingly doing nothing, even if at the moment it seems as if this period of quietude will last for a hundred years." (p.225)
Bettelheim, Bruno, 1991. The uses of enchantment: the meaning and importance of fairy tales. 3rd ed. London: Penguin Books.
this book is really interesting actually, but i think bettelheim got in trouble bc he cites his child psychiatry clients throughout the book when it turned out he didn’t have any psychiatry qualifications and never had any clients LMAO? mad bitch. he goes off the rails in parts but there’s a lot of inchresting stuff in it anyway.
ANYWAY. using fairytale signifiers, i think ven’s sleep might be a bit more hopeful than i originally thought? like the game is still a tragedy, it’s a tragic outcome. but ven is after destroying himself in his quest of learning how to be a whole ass individual, so it’s gonna take some time to recuperate from that destruction of the self again. he isn’t dead, after all; he’s asleep. he can be woken up.
there’s a lot to mull over with kh3 linking sleep and death so closely, but i’d say it’s like sleep represents a death of a sense of self and taking time to heal. we see it with sora and roxas too. and the way to reestablish a sense of self and wake up is through fwiendship :) in kh, friends carry pieces of each other in their hearts and their memories. so when someone falters and loses themselves, they can be brought back through their friends believing in them and reminding them who they are.
in any other story i’d worry that ven having to rely on another heart to fix his own after having this whole half-a-person identity crisis for a game bears some ill omens, but in kh your identity really is made of your bonds with other people. you don’t exist outside all the others who came before and all the friends you made along the way. like IF you have an identity outside of your connections with other people it just doesn’t really matter, what matters is friendship bitch.
again going back to fairytale shit, eternal sleep is woken through true love’s kiss, and i think that’s true in kh as well. like kh3′s focus on acts of true love, whether it’s platonic or familial or what as long as it’s transcendental. everyone in this series loves each other very much! what a nice video game series!!
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𝗧𝗔𝗦𝗞 𝟬𝟬𝟮 ( 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗙𝗔𝗠𝗜𝗟𝗬 ) ↝ 𝗔𝗩𝗘𝗥𝗬 𝗝𝗘𝗢𝗡𝗚
pov: your name is avery jeong and you are being kicked out of your house and family at age 18 because your sister snitched about some drunk mistake you made 2 years ago
as of right now, avery has no relationship with his parents and a minimal relationship with his sister, lilia. however, avery was always treated as the baby of the family. he was set to take over the drug ring when he got older and was given minimal information about it to shelter and protect him from anything that could potentially make his views on the family’s business turn sour. despite this, avery really had no plans to actually take over the business and was going to hand over the position to lilia once she became old enough even though he didn’t tell anyone about this. before avery got the chance to step up, lilia told their parents about how he had broken one of the main family rules by telling someone he’d just met at a party about what the jeong family really did behind the big pharm cover. their parents were absolutely livid and forced avery to move out and denounced him from the family.
refer to liza’s task for more family info idk we really just hate these parents so bad
𝗣𝗔𝗥𝗘𝗡𝗧𝗦
𝗠𝗢𝗧𝗛𝗘𝗥 ↝ iris jeong
our least favorite capricorn sun gemini moon out there! god this woman is the worst! song seonmi fc, this woman is LETHAL. iris’ side of the family were the ones who started the drug ring so miss thing was seriously into it. it was her life, she grew up with it, and she took it so seriously that anyone could tell. she had extremely high expectations for avery to take over too and had originally planned to school him on family law and how the business worked as soon as he could walk, but eventually ended up babying him when it came to preparing to the position thank to her arranged husband’s influence. iris kind of let avery do his own thing growing up, made sure he was on top of his grades and was the one who suggested that he go to a specialized school just to make sure that he was reaching his top brainiac potential to be smart enough to run the show. the little that avery knew about the drug ring came from iris too, but she would always here comes the choo choo train it into his brain so it wasn’t too much for him to take. she knew her son was smart and fit to take over, but she feared him not being able to do so which was frankly her own fault. honestly receiving any sort of care from iris is out of character she literally is scary as hell. their relationship? really didn’t have one. i guarantee if you asked either of them at any point in time to name one personal fact about the other, they wouldn’t be able to come up with one. they just worked as mom and son, stood respectfully at a yard’s distance and only interacted when they needed to for the sake of the family. however, they Really interacted after lilia snitched on avery. iris was the one who came up with the idea to kick avery out and was so assured in her idea that she didn’t rest until he was out of the house and never came back that night. even though they have had no contact in the five years since avery was forced to leave, iris continues to blame every single family issues that arises on avery even if he has nothing to do with it. avery holds so much resentment for iris that it frankly makes him sick!!!!!!!!! and while he might be able to forgive lilia and his father, iris will never be on the docket.
𝗙𝗔𝗧𝗛𝗘𝗥 ↝ tobias jeong
tobs ... the tobster ... aqua sun cancer moon brain rot. this man fixed up an old jeep and made it his entire personality. ya’ll ever had one of those science teachers that couldn’t spell and always lost their glasses when they were really on their head? yeah that’s him. also a certified doormat. and maybe a kim joohun fc but like give him more bill nye wannabe looking vibes. avery and his father had a good relationship for the most part. tobias was really chill, understood maybe 1/3 of what happened in the family. he tried to stand up for avery and lilia in certain situations and understood that iris was absolute trash (even he didn’t truly want to marry her, it was more business between their families than anything), but he was so compliant that he never actually made an impact. however, tobias was the one that truly made avery’s childhood ... good. he’d pick up avery from school in that old jeep he fixed up, play some classic dad music, and drive around for a while so they didn’t have to go see iris so soon. the night avery got kicked out, tobias was the one that actually stuck up for avery. even though it was one simple statement that maybe avery should stay, it was the only time anyone stood up for avery that night. of course, tobias was quickly shut down by iris and he didn’t try to have avery stay after that however he probably feels so much regret for not doing more that night. avery truly was so angry that tobias didn’t try to do more to get him to stay, but like it’s whatever! what the fuck was tobias supposed to do! a few months after avery was kicked out, he actually called his dad at a super low point ( see this gif set ) but even then tobias wasn’t willing to fight for avery to try to come back even after hearing at how he had nothing and didn’t know what to do. avery never truly hated his dad, but he now resents him for not trying when there is so much more he could have done.
𝗦𝗜𝗕𝗟𝗜𝗡𝗚𝗦
𝗦𝗜𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗥 ↝ lilia jeong
if there was one member of the jeong family that avery truly loved, it was lilia. avery loved being her big brother. he cared for her more than anybody in his life and truly thought she was capable of so many good things which is why he never had any intentions to take over the drug ring. avery had always wanted that position to go to her because he believed that lilia was the right one to take it because she easily could have done so much better than he could’ve. growing up, avery wasn’t that much of an open book as he is now. if he had a secret though, lilia was the first one to know. he basically told her everything, from explaining some project he’d been working while they walked through an apple orchard or the biggest mistake he’d made in his life which was spilling the family secret. the last thing he was expecting was for lilia to tell their family about that, especially after so long and in a manner that seemed almost self serving after she promised to keep it a secret. even though lilia's decision to snitch literally turned his life upside down and really fucked him over, he’s never been able to see lilia as anything besides his sister. sure, he’s felt true betrayal and never thought he would get screwed over like that, but avery is always one for second or third or fourth or fifth chances even in situations like this. no matter how hard avery wanted to convince himself that he didn’t want lilia in his life, he was never able to do it. lilia always stayed his emergency contact even when they weren’t speaking and no matter how many new people avery met that were closer to new haven hospitals.
for now though, their shit is tbd! avery is too afraid to talk to lilia about everything because bringing up the past pains him and he’s also unsure of how things will work out. also, he’s most likely expecting an apology first and foremost. everyone knows they’re siblings, but the reason why they’re not close are all lies. they tell everyone that they grew apart and lilia began to tell others that avery fucked up a business deal and made the choice to leave the family which avery goes along with simply because he assumes it’s what lilia wants. sometimes he wished that they actually had just grown apart rather than having to experience all the shit that happened.
even if avery knows he’s already willing to give lilia another chance, he wants an apology and he knows he’s deserving of that at the very least. until then, you can catch avery gazing longingly into the windows of music shops at acoustic guitars that resemble the one he would always play on for lilia and had to leave behind after being kicked out. those same few songs are always stuck in his head. avery hasn’t been able to eat ripe peaches anymore because the taste reminds him of sticky handed food fights and hiding one in their parents’ closet to rot. one time he went on a date with a girl whose favorite band was the moldy peaches and he promptly left to throw up in the bathroom. every time he would enter the underground fighting ring he would try not to lose because that meant lilia might have to get the call that he wasn’t alright even though he wanted her to know if anything happened to him.
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@anonymous: what’s something you love about each of your ship partners? the muns and muses :)
Yoo this is such a nice little ask! I love to gush about my writing partners because to be honest? They all deserve it, if anything for putting up with my kicking in their door with headcanons at random times & other bs. I’m gonna talk about them all in order of exclusives > mains > other. In this essay I will
DIANA / @moonaspect.
Moon is such a darling. We talk every day over Discord & she’s become such a big part of my routine at this point. I am also a lonely fucker & am going through some stuff at the minute & she’s a great help! She’s so talented as well, I cannot comprehend how she does what she does with a canvas but here we are. Thank you so much for putting up with my bs. I could go on & on but just know that Moon has a very special place in my heart. She’s such a valuable friend & she gives me a reason to get up in the morning. . . Or afternoon, depending.
As for Diana she does a wonderful job with her. She’s written her for as long as I’ve known her & it shows —— her love & dedication to this character is so inspiring. Her Diana is exactly what you would expect her to be, & especially since I’ve seen her RP her for so long, she just feels canon to me. You can’t have Diana without angst & Moon has taken this to the next level at times but as a fellow angst lover, I love to see it.
✦ Favorite things: Moon’s voice & Diana’s resilience.
SORAKA / @starthieve.
Nix! Oh gosh I could talk about Nix for hours but I’ll try to keep it short & sweet. We also go way back, you see. Words cannot describe how much I love this woman, as we’ve been through hell & back together & even to this day she continues to be one of my best friends who always has my back. We don’t plot as much as we used to but I honestly miss that —— I miss coming up with stupid scenarios & screenshotting them to pester the rest of our friends with for eternity afterwards. We need to make more doodles together too. I love you Nix, let there never be a doubt in your mind about that.
Her Soraka is honestly a big mood. She is so loving & giving & I always just imagine Nix & Soraka to go hand in hand cause they’re both such empathetic sweethearts. I will never shut up about Nix’s writing & how beautiful & graceful it is to read. Even her headcanon posts are so well put together & even though she isn’t posting much at the minute I love to see her pop in every once in a while with a meta!
✦ Favorite things: Nix’s & Soraka’s big hearts.
ASHE / @arrowdeft.
Kirin is so talented my heart skips a beat at times when I read their writing! I don’t know much about them on a personal level other than they’ve been going through some rough times lately & I really hope that my small contributions to the ship helps, even if just a tiny bit at times. I’ve been enjoying reading their content for Kai’sa as well, though! They seem to have a very interesting & realistic take on her so far & I love me some of that. Also pretty graphics 10 / 10. My door is always open if you need anything, Kirin!
Kirin’s Ashe is just perfection. She’s the right amount of stern & soft. She’s so stubborn & I love her for it. I can’t help but root for her honestly. & when they write for her it just. . . Everything makes sense —— why they chose Ashe as a muse & it’s so lovely seeing her come to life the way she does in Kirin's hands. You just can’t help but admire Ashe for her achievements & her overall character. When Kirin writes for her she feels so regal & composed, but also down to earth at the same time which is a wonderful combination.
✦ Favorite things: Kirin’s ideas & Ashe’s devotion.
LUX / @lightweaved.
Liv aaa ( Or Star, which is a super cute pen name by the way. ) is first of all GORGEOUS. Second of all, is someone I wish I spoke more to! But to be honest that’s on me, mostly. Thinking about it I’d actually love to get to know her more! She just seems like such a nice & warm person to be around, idk. Oh & she has a knack for making pretty graphics! I like the style a lot, it’s so clean & readable, as is her blog.
This Lux though. Is so good & so interesting. It’s so interesting to see what can be done with Elementalist Lux & I love the inclusion of Spellthief as well. It’s nice to see Lux being taken in a direction that isn’t necessarily what you’d expect for her —— that she can fend for herself so well & that she is willing to do work as a spellthief. She also has a super cute design. I have a weakness for when people personalize their canon muses to fit their portrayal better & this is no exception —— Star’s Lux is simply too pretty.
✦ Favorite things: Star’s brightness & Lux’s cheekiness.
KAYLE / @unholyshe.
Aqua hits an aesthetic that hits my heartstrings IRL & here on Tumblr. I’m always on the edge of my seat when I speak to her because in all honesty she’s hilarious as fuck & I really enjoy plotting with her. There’s just something about the way she talks that’s a perfect balance between dishing out actual plots & joking around with it that I love. God I love Aqua so much, she’s just so funny & nice to be around & I’m always excited to talk to her! I hope you feel better soon, though, cause depression sucks & I’m here if you need anything. I hope you know that!
Literally any character that Aqua touches I’m in love with. I’m excited to RP with any of them to be honest, but to stick to Kayle? I love that Aqua isn’t afraid to show off her bad sides. That she’s given her dimensions & that she feels exactly like Kayle should feel. Even though she puts Leona through hell I can’t help but love them together. What can I say, I have a weakness for characters helping each other grow as individuals!
✦ Favorite things: Aqua’s humor & Kayle’s bitchiness.
TIANNA / @ofironloyalty.
Good Grace we’re here. Insert more name jokes here. She’s snuck her way into my heart & I do consider her a good friend! I love waking up to messages from her, whether it be OOC or plotting related. It also always excites me to read her posts on my dash & I strive to maintain a spot as her #1 fan. Grace doesn’t take herself too seriously & I love that about her, it’s so nice to be around people like that. She’d rather laugh about her own shortcomings or joke about which is so, so refreshing.
I’ve said it before but Grace’s Tianna is everything you need Tianna to be. She is strong physically & mentally, steadfast, a little stuck up & of course, has the willpower of a true Demacian High Marshal. I feel very lucky that I get to ship with such a lovely muse & mun, honestly. Tianna is strict when she has to be but she is also a big softie at times when she’s allowed to be & it’s so sweet. It’s been great getting to know both mun & muse, & I hope to get to interact much more in the future!
✦ Favorite things: plotting with Grace & Tianna’s soft side.
HONORABLE MENTIONS.
& last but not least, some honorable mentions are @defyances, @foxcharmed & @blessercoeur ( Hi again Moon! ) whom I have just begun plotting / exploring ship dynamics with. I’m coming to love the dynamic that each of these pairings have & I’m so excited to explore them! Irelia & Leona is just great content all around, with a side of angst in the whole long distance thing. Ahri & Leona is such a wholesome mess of Leona teaching Ahri how to Empathy™ & them finding love in that somewhere. A’ni & Leona are just two hearts who beat to the same rhythm in multiple ways & I’m so pumped to see them interact more & getting along.
Unprompted asks / / Always accepting.
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