#and even the things I've posted about on here are only about 30% of anyhting I have established so far like.. there's so much I have | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

icewindandboringhorror · 5 years

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The problem (or ONE OF the many problems ghgh) with me having any sort of social media is that I regularly cycle through phases with my hobbies, yet usually people expect like.. One Type of content and that’s it or etc.? Like I’ll do a lot of costumes for a while and get people following me for costumes or something, and then I... randomly go 7 months without doing a costume and become obsessed with worldbuilding elven religions or making sculptures or something else instead and it’s like ghghghg... Yes.. I will get back to the costumes eventually.. but I’m going to have to spend months on This Other Activity first.. The only consistent thing about me is that I will always post pictures of my cats...Hopefully nobody expects anything else of me lol

#and of course as BIg Detached Hermit pleasing strangers on the internet is not my top priority but it does feel kind of awkward sometimes #to know like 'lol abt to post smthn that has NOTHING to do w/ ANYTHING my parasocial conceptualization has heretofore been associated with'#and it's not that I keep inconsistently picking up NEW hobbies it's just.. the 12 or so solid ones I have I tend to switch between a lot ghg #i have no idea how people juggle doing actual multiple things at one time #my brain is just like 'no.. no multiple tasks in one day... ONE single task.. for one week'#like I cant write in the morning. do costumes in the afternoon. paint in the evening. it's just like.. CHOOSE ONE.. you can write.. okay..#but that has to be ALL you do for 3 months straight and any attempt to multitask will result in very poor disorganized work #... bfhbbbplease brain.. please.. may i have some Multiple Tasks In One Day juice..#right now I'm trying very hard to do a costume and work on my game but my brain is like 'HERE'S A NEW SPECIES IDEA #AND IF YOU TRY TO THINK ABOUT OR FOCUS ON ANYTHING ELSE I WILL.. dESTROY YOU'#i think additionally that's another reason I'm bad at social media because that's all I care about lol #I don't have ''niche interests'' in the sense of ''oo i like bands nobody's ever heard of and i'm so Random and Obscure'' but #it's like... i have niche interests in the sense that most of all I'm interested in is my owb projects and worldbuilding and stuff #and even the things I've posted about on here are only about 30% of anyhting I have established so far like.. there's so much I have #made up about the world that I just haven't shared with others yet or etc. even IF you were one of the maybe idk... 4 people on the #entire planet who regualrly reads worldbuilding stuff I post or etc.. you would still have no idea what the hell I'm talking about if I #mentioned a lot of things. Now I am a very opinionated person and I could ramble about ANYTHING because I have trouble organizing #my speech and am very wordy so I'm not saying that I couldn't type paragraphs upon paragraphs about any current topic or tv show (if #it's one of the few I've seen lmao.. i dont watch anything much) or etc. but it's just that I'm not passionate about that? I have an opinion #on nearly everything but merely int he way that you may have an opinion on a meal you just ate or something #it;s just casual observations in a distant way but not something you're attached to. The only thing I'm genuonely passionate about #talking about is my niche world and maybe one or two other topics so it's not like I can get Onto The Internet and like.. write #very relatable opinions about movie characters or talk about some commonly significant something or other ggh.. all I feel like #doing is just being like ''HEY i have a new idea for marriage traditions that southern elves practice. so first they dig a root #up from the ground and then they paint it and then..' and it's like GHGhg...#I've thought of trying to be more personable or relatable by talking about random opinions or things ('hey i like this song!' 'this is my fa #vorite food!' 'lol remember this fashion trend from middle school' etc.) but it's like.. I'm not passionate enough about it to go through #with it. I have an opinion but since it's so casual and Not As Important As Elves nothing else feels worth sharing to my brain #aka why I have 130+ drafts saved bc I'll type things & then be like 'eh.. i dont really care strongly abt this' then never post them ghgh #unfortunately I have Doopy Brain Disorder and that means I can only think about one thing ever.. sorry I dont make the rules ghgh

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