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#and every day that im home im sruck hiding in my room so that i dont risk running inti my moyher and making her angry by existing
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#genuinely think if i dont get therapy and medical transition soon i might actually kill myself
#life is too fucking much and i cant take this shit anymore
#its unfair that i got unlucky in the genetic draw and got sruck with the stupidest most feminine body in the world
#and that being fat when i live the exact same lifestyle as thin people makes kt easier to tell that im born female
#and that even if i do all the working out in the world its not gonan fucking chnage the way my body looks and manages its distribution
#and that i have the face and mouth of every single fat comedy side character or fat villain
#and that ive lived my whole life hearing about how pretty and wonderful i look and how i look like my grandmother
#and that im short and have almost all my weight below my torso so i look like the worlds largest pear
#and that i have a naturally soft demeanor that offsets every ounce of effort i pht into my looks to be more masc
#and that i dont want to dress in baggy or sporty clothes and i dont have the budget to purchase those things even if i got desperate
#or that i get overheated too easily to use layers and that i cant mentally handle being overheated
#and its not fair that i cant for the life of me get my voice to cknsistantly be lower so i sound more maaculine
#its not fucking fair
#i cant fucking do this anymore
#but im so fucking stuck reliant on ym fucking parents for mo ey that ill never get the help i need
#and working as a teacher will never result in the money itll take to get the help i need
#and it feels like even if i could get transition when i get a job itll be too risky with clowns like desantis
#SPECIALLY as a teacher
#i cant fucking look into a fucking mirror without wanting to cry and take a knife to every slab of meat that i ditn want on my body
#and every day that im home im sruck hiding in my room so that i dont risk running inti my moyher and making her angry by existing
#and having to affirm to her that im her little girl and be called by a name that isnt mine and pronouns that make me want to stab my ears
#and be told by her that i just think im trans becuz im traumatized and dont want peole to think im attractive so they wont try to get close
#to me becuz they wont know what i am when i dont even want to have sex and she says im just making that up to
#my mental health is in shambles and has been for fucking months and its only getting worse
#i want out
#i want out so fucking bad
#im tired of being jealous of my own fucking shadow becuz it looks like more of a man to me
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