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#and now im just bitter and it hurt and i jusr want to lay down and not get up
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#i think. maybe ill go to bed before 8 tonight
#bc my brain. i can't deal with it. and im tired
#but i should not do that bc i have things i need to do
#like. theres an application due the 11th. but fuck it i might not send it bc fucking whats the point
#why has it become so impossible to function? i mean. i kno why but its still annoying
#and its like so crazy bc i just feel like im curled up on the floor with the broken pieces of my life and nothing terribles even happened
#from an outside perspective its perfectly fine and good my insides have just rottef out
#like i had to spend most of today plotting an experiment and i feel bad bc im just so. im so worried that looking after yhis thing is going
#to hurt. its going to drain away hours of my time. i dont kno how long it take to deal with every single day for 2 weeks
#ill have to water it at 7 and 5 and take measurements all day probably and im very worried about the amount of damage thats going to do
#when it already feels like i should b careful where i step. and i feel bad bc im prob such a bummer to hang around like im so sullen faced
#and i just dont care. like we had to make a decision bc we could do one thing or another and it would b answering 2 diff questions
#and my boss was like. well which do u find most interesting. and i just. i dont care im more concern with the amount of psychic damage this
#will inflict upon me so i just dont really give a fuck and that makes me so sad bc like at one point this probably would have been fun
#and now im just bitter and it hurt and i jusr want to lay down and not get up
#and im like how the fuck am i supposed to find a phd position when the enthusiasm for what i do now has completely burned thru me?
#like hi yes r u looking for a new student? im dizzy and my life is falling apart even tho everythings my brains just on fire
#but ya kno i think id b an asset to your lab! sigh... itll b fine i kno it will bc it has to b
#ill visit the school i wanna go to. hopefully not make myself look like too much of an unstable moron and then leave this place
#dragg my bleeding soul across the country to shrivel up in a different area code
#somethings gotta give but lets hope it waits a couple months ya kno
#ugh. im just tired. i should sleep. i didnt sleep enough last night. and i didnt relax on the weekend so ive got that i don't kno what day
#it is type of vertigo. but tomorrow will b better. it will bc i dont want it to b worse
#unrelated
#i just want to study things that made me feel something. y doesn't that have to b so hard?
#let me study slime. endless days alone with the green goo
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