#and she gave the whole ‘you don’t act autistic you’re just smart and introverted we’re all a little autistic probably’ thing | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

asterdeer · 2 years

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i took that raads???? autism test and got a decently highish score, like the “strong suggestion of autism” range, but then i took the masking quiz and got a 150 when the average score for nonbinary neurodivergents is 122. so. is that anything

#it feels absurd actually to want to add autism to my List Of Things #but I do remember when I was in maybe high school taking autism tests and kind of tentatively fielding it to my mom #and she gave the whole ‘you don’t act autistic you’re just smart and introverted we’re all a little autistic probably’ thing #which you know. idk. it’s super likely I’m not and I don’t know what good it would be to get a diagnosis now #i don’t know!! it’s just scoring that high in the masking quiz freaked me out a little. i didn’t know this wasn’t normal #or at least more common but like. that’s pretty far above the average for actual autistic people???#again this means literally nothing. it doesn’t matter that much. i am almost 30 (fucking hell) so what good would it actually do me #to humiliate myself in front of a mental health professional trying to add one more thing to my list of things #and getting called out for just wanting to feel special and understandable instead of weird and incompetent at life #anyway.#shut up myth

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