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shoutsindwarvish · 11 months

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i told my rabbi that i’d like to use a mikvah (go to a mikvah? not sure the correct verb) to mark the end of my grandma’s shloshim today and he was like “YES DO IT” and that i should go to one of the many nearby lakes

torn between the desire to go through what i think would be a cathartic ritual for me and the anxiety of religious skinnydipping

#we DO have a handful of brick-and-mortar mikvahs #but the ones closest to me are orthodox and i don’t think i’d feel comfortable with my queer nonbinary self who is also new to all this #(it could be fine! but i’d rather not. especially for my first time.)#and the one my shul uses for converts is in saint paul and appointment only #i’d also wanted to save that experience for marking my one-year practicing #re the lakes: ‘find a time when no one else is around!’#it’s summer in the twin cities and light out til 9. when would the beaches be empty.#i do know i could put on a swimsuit and take it off once i’m in deep enough water #feels like that could also take me out of the experience though.#i’ll need to decide soon #my posts #jumblr

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