#and then i joined tumblr and ive been around that 'eww men' mentality. also frankly an anti-straight mentality. | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

orcelito · 2 years

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ok ykno what I think the general online atmosphere re: Attraction To Men is very horrible & stunting. I've realized recently that I probably do have some internalized biphobia that was a big motivator for why I identified with the word gay despite not Really having a gender preference. & yea I still identify with gay but also maybe I kinda identify with bi too. Bc my gender is fluid and it really just depends on the day, but overall I am potentially attracted to men too and that doesn't take away from my non-straight identity, & it's not Unfortunate or anything either.

Yes, I'm scared of men I don't know. I'm fucking Terrified of them. But men are still just human fucking people, with as much potential for good as anyone else. The masses of people who are all like "eww who even likes men lol" or ppl feeling ashamed for liking men, like. What's the fucking point? You're making trans men feel awful, you're making gay men feel awful, & hell even cis straight men don't deserve to be put down all the time simply for being men.

So sick of all those people who Genuinely think that's okay. Like lmao get the fuck out of here.

#speculation nation #my own identity is smth im still figuring out but im working on like. not feeling bad or guilty about being attracted to men #which WHAT a reversal of the usual narrative lmfao. i was somehow lucky enough to not end up with internalized homohobia #bc no one rly talked about it when i was growing up. never really registered homosexuality existed until i was a freshman in high school #& then shortly after i realized i was into girls lol #and then i joined tumblr and ive been around that 'eww men' mentality. also frankly an anti-straight mentality.#which yes ive long been over that Straight Shit. but ppl still act so allergic to any kind of m/f pair Regardless of how else #they might be part of the community. re: trans or bi or whatever else #it made me feel ashamed of my potential attraction to men. to the point where when someone i was dating realized they were a trans dude #i let the relationship fizzle and die instead of adapting to it. bc i didnt want to be with a guy.#i still dont rly wanna date cishet guys bc theyre just. kind of Bleh in a way i dont want romantically or otherwise #that's just personal taste. hard to feel personally understood in an intimate way with them #but trans men or bi men r like. Wonderful.#aka i dont like to date anyone who's not lgbt in some way. i think that's a better way to look at it.#girls i date r automatically not straight bc i very much look like a girl lol. guys could be cis and straight tho n im not interested in it #BUT yeah. ive been more open about my feelings re: guys on here bc im working to accept that part of myself #yes i have a girlfriend. no this is not an attempt for actual Application of the attraction. i just want to embrace all of my identity #the identity still exists even if im dating someone. that's how the bi stuff works lol #i still like gay as a descriptor bc it feels like a catch all to me. but also maybe i could be bi too #this is weird gender stuff talking dont come at me for equating the two things lol i just dont know what my gender is doing #anyways peace out it's 4:20 am and i need to get tbe FUCK to sleep

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