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feluka · 1 month
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hate that whenever i show my mom my art her immediate response is always "are you sure you have that much free time to do this?"
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spectrearia · 7 months
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double-tag time lol
got tagged in two different question things by @galactictides52 and @gonturan0 xD gonna fill both of 'em out at the same time I guess haha! thanks for the tags!!
going under a cut because there's quite a lot here haha
tagged by @galactictides52:
Last song I listened to: Follow by Survive Said the Prophet
Favorite content to watch: uhhh.. hm. depends on my mood. I usually gravitate towards let's plays or documentaries on a whole variety of topics? speedrunning, electronics, abandoned places, and critiques on a wide variety of media are some of my go-tos for documentary/commentary-style content. there's a lot more tho that I can't think of off the top of my head. I just like listening to people discuss random stuff haha.
Favorite games: Oooh, quite a few. Minecraft, Super Mario Sunshine, Luigi's Mansion, Professor Layton, Ace Attorney, Hitman (World of Assassination), and recently Hatsune Miku: Project Diva Mega Mix are some that immediately come to mind. There are so many more games I could add but I gotta keep this kinda simple xD
Favorite colors: I love all colors for various reasons but any shade of purple is my absolute fave <3
Favorite animal: CATS!!! though I'm sure that's pretty obvious, haha xD I can't help but relate to them so much lol
Favorite food: mmmm. maybe my mom's beef and potato hash? it's the ultimate comfort food to me and she doesn't make it often, but it always Hits Just Right whenever I do get to have it.
Sweet, spicy, or savory: savory all the way, baby. don't mind a bit of spice alongside the savory sometimes but it depends on what it is.
Current obsession: my own OCs (and some friends' OCs as well). I literally talk about them all the time and I could say I'm sorry but I'm really not. xD if we're talking media in general tho? I guess the Hatsune Miku game I mentioned earlier counts, lol
Last book I read: oof. I can't even remember. for published books, I want to say it was Mayday at Two Thousand Five Hundred by Frank E. Peretti? but if not, then it was probably my friend's original story draft. I hardly ever read anymore, honestly. I just write what I want to read instead.
Last thing I googled: don't use google, per se. but I think the last thing I searched online was the lyrics to King by Kanaria because I want to learn how to sing along lol
Fun facts: I always suck at these haha. can't really think of anything so I might just have to leave this as-is, rip ><;;
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tagged by @gonturan0:
3 ships: lol I don't do ships so I don't have much to put here xD I guess I kinda "shipped" some characters when I was younger (like Mario and Peach or whatever), but not? to an extreme degree or anything? was never my focus. still isn't. Honorable mention does go out to Kim Possible and Ron Stoppable, though. I felt their relationship was handled really well, even though I typically really don't like romance in kids' media at all.
first ever ship: idk probably Mickey and Minnie when I was like 5??? haha
last song: (see #1 in previous list)
Last movie: oof, memory is bad. it's been a while. the Mario movie???? in theaters??? i think. I can't remember. I don't watch movies as often as I used to tbh
currently reading: nothing right now, unless you count this list ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
currently watching: not "currently" but I'll probably watch the newest update of a Voices of the Void let's play that I'm keeping up with sometime later tonight :0
currently consuming: waterrr. stay hydrated, my dudes~
currently craving: sushi;;; specifically my Fave Big Roll with shrimp tempura, crab, cucumber, and a bunch of other good stuff (also SPICY MAYO, my beloved) <33
ayyyy, that's all, folks! I don't really know who to tag with this so i guess if anyone sees it and wants to fill it out, u can just say I tagged you xD I don't mind, haha!
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navstuffs · 1 year
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I posted 3,492 times in 2022
That's 3,492 more posts than 2021!
134 posts created (4%)
3,358 posts reblogged (96%)
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I tagged 449 of my posts in 2022
#asks - 36 posts
#adrian chase - 29 posts
#adrian chase x reader - 25 posts
#adrian chase x you - 23 posts
#vigilante x reader - 23 posts
#vigilante x you - 23 posts
#peacemaker - 22 posts
#peacemaker fanfics - 22 posts
#vigilante - 22 posts
#omg - 20 posts
Longest Tag: 121 characters
#i love the idea of taking him in cute dates and having fun and watching his face get all red when he sees you enjoying it
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
Temporary annoyance
REQUESTS ARE OPEN
Pairing: Robert Pattinson x Female Famous!Reader
Summary: "hi! i don’t c any rob fics so could u do a robert pattinson x female¡ famous reader where she does an interview with another famous actor and he ends up getting a little bit jealous but she reassures him that she only loves him? thank you <33"
Warnings: none, comfort and fluffiness
Authors Note: Thank you so much for this request anon. this will be my first fanfic for Rob so i hope you like it! i hope you don't mind i chose Chris Evans
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Robert met (Y/N) during a party after the Oscars. They were introduced by Tom Holland that made sure to talk about Robert's crush on her. When Tom finally left them alone, (Y/N) shared timidly she also had a crush on him since Harry Potter. They exchanged phone numbers, rapidly becoming friends until the first kiss happened and then becoming boyfriend and girlfriend. When (Y/N) shared the news on Instagram, with a picture of their backs watching the sunset at the beach, the internet got on fire.
Robert always had preferred to keep his personal life private, but the journalists would catch a smile when they asked about (Y/N). They would try to tease him, asking if Rob felt like the luckiest man alive to which he would reply "Yes" embarrassed. Especially now that you were in an acclaimed romantic indie movie with Chris Evans. All the critiques were about your chemistry with Evans that was called "out of this world."
Robert had no worries about (Y/N)'s feelings. He knew he loved her and she loved him back and the industry was like that. But sometimes some interviewers would get on his nerves. He wouldn't call it jealousy per se, just a temporary annoyance.
That night, Rob was sitting down on the sofa while (Y/N) prepared a sandwich. He kept browsing through channels until she arrived so they could watch something together, when (Y/N)'s face appeared on the TV. She was being interviewed about the new romantic movie, Chris at her side. She seemed embarrassed to something Chris said when the reporter asked her:
"Same question to you (Y/N), how is to work with Chris?"
"Chris is amazing. He is great. I mean, no words really can describe how good he is. He and I had such great chemistry."
"One of the reasons of the movie being a success is this connection. Can you two try to explain it?"
"I didn't know him very well before, but we clicked right away. I think cause we had so much fun during the whole process, right Chris?" (Y/N) smiled at Chris and he smirked back, charmed. Did Robert notice a tiny hint of red on Chris's cheeks? He hoped not.
"As she said, we just clicked away. Working with (Y/N) was an unforgettable experience. I learned so much from her."
"Do you feel the same way, (Y/N)?" the reporter was really teasing her at this time, but (Y/N) didn't seem to realize yet.
"Working every day with such a great guy like him, I mean, I am thankful. I have learned a lot from him as well. We are both from different backgrounds, different experiences, so it was nice to share all of that."
"Can I just ask cause the fans are dying to know and it is normal for costars: Did you develop a crush? Not a tiny bit on each other?"
Unprofessional. Who the heck allowed reporters to ask that? Rob crossed his arms, shifting around on the sofa, uncomfortable. It is the industry, think about the industry and stay calm, Rob thought.
"Oh God, no!" (Y/N) exclaimed, visibly embarrassed as the reporter giggled. Chris had his hand covering his mouth, looking at (Y/N). "Only professionally. I can't wait to see more that he will do."
"Same. I will probably love everything she is in it."
(Y/N) walked back to the living room when the interview was almost done. Her manager warned people were going to think something was going on between her and Chris, but she knew her feelings were fraternal towards him. She had been dealing with a lot of questions about him lately and she understood those were normal, but it was getting too much.
"So, you have a professional crush on Chris Evans?"
Rob's questioning tone was teasing, but deep down she knew he was jealous. (Y/N) sit down on the sofa, placing the plate on the table in front. She rubbed him on the shoulder, feeling his body tense.
"I mean, Chris is great. You would have a crush on him if you knew him better as well...Professionally, I mean!"
"I see."
Robert kept his arms crossed, his head turned to the other side, quiet. (Y/N) got up, sitting on the other side of Robert. Did her man have pouty lips? Oh, he sure did. He looked like a big kid upset, pouty lips, frowny face. Why did he still look so pretty although he looked like a child that was denied his favorite candy?
"Rob? Don't tell me you are jealous?"
"Jealous? Me? No? Who is jealous, definitely not me." Robert grunted, looking at anywhere but her. (Y/N) grabbed his face with her hands, his blue eyes had no chance but to stare at her.
"I will say this slowly Robert, so you understand: I am with you. I love you. No one else. Okay?"
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655 notes - Posted February 28, 2022
#4
Jealousy
Pairing: Adrian Chase x gn!reader
Summary: After dating Adrian in secret for a few months, Amanda Waller's inspection might make you reveal your secret.
Warnings: swearing, oblivious Peacemaker, a bit mention of cannibalism, english isn't my first language
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It was time for the monthly inspection coming from Amanda Waller. She would send a few therapists and doctors to check the team since for some reason, she kept putting the sake of the world on your team's hands. She had to make sure her most insane team continued insane enough to save the world, accepting the most disgusting and dangerous missions. Murn and Harcourt would go well on those even able to leave early, but they didn't have feelings so it was easier for them. Adebayo and Economos would take a longer time, but nothing compared to you, Chris and Adrian. Waller's orders were to always put you three in a white room with nothing to do, except metal chairs for you to sit and a metal table.
"Shiiiit, how long this is gonna take? We have been here for hours!" Complained Adrian in an impatient tone, his arms crossed. He was without his mask and his glasses since one of the doctors took it earlier for further examination.
"Not that long" you answered, calm. How come this happened once in a while and they still didn't get used to it?
"It feels like an eternity. Right, Peace?" Adrian turned to Chris, looking for support. Chris was walking back and forth in the room, fuming as he watched the cameras.
Since you, Adrian, and Chris were considered the "insane" ones, you would always require a longer exam. Chris would complain loudly remarking that Murn hasn't smiled since he was born or Harcourt was bat shit crazy as he was. But what worried you was Amanda Waller discovering your secret relationship with Adrian. It had started not long ago, maybe three to four months, with you needing to release some build-up sexual frustration and not blind to Adrian's eyes, full of desire towards your body, especially your ass. On a night out with the team, he ended up in your bed and since then, never stopped visiting it. It got even more dangerous now because sometimes you two didn't even care about fucking that much; cuddling, watching a movie, making out without getting to sex, making each other laugh, or even just holding hands were much important.
"I swear to God, if they don't release us, I will kill Amanda Waller with my own bare hands!"
As soon as Peacemaker exclaimed that, a young doctor with dirty messy blond hair and glasses came in. He was holding a clipboard in a hand, a coffee mug on another, and had a friendly smile.
"Fucking finally!" cried out Adrian, getting up.
"You are free to go" the doctor spoke in a thick British accent. Peacemaker and Adrian fist bump and high ever each other "Except them."
You barely got up from your chair when the blond doctor pointed at you, throwing yourself back in the chair, snorting. Peacemaker and Adrian stopped in their tracks, staring at the doctor and you. Adrian stepped unconsciously in your direction as the doctor crossed the room, sitting on the chair across from you. He placed his coffee mug and clipboard on the table and you noticed he was extremely handsome. Thanks, Amanda Waller.
"Just need to make some extra questions for them. You can leave now."
You read the name tag ROBERT as Peacemaker made his way to the exit, making fun that you had to stay.
"SUCKS TO BE YOU!"
Adrian didn't move an inch. His lips were a thin line as his hands were closed in fists. You knew exactly what was going in his brain: Adrian was getting protective over you. He was probably anxious about what kind of questions or what kind of torture they would put you through. Or maybe they discovered about your relationship, which would make you get kicked out of the team and he would never see you again. Just the mere thought of that made his body get colder. Robert looked back at him, smiling.
"You can leave, Mr. Chase. I am just gonna make some questions, that's all."
There was an uncomfortable silence as Adrian seemed resolute on not leaving. Before Robert opened his mouth again, you said in a comforting tone.
"I will be alright, Chase. They probably want to know why I haven't killed the rest of the team yet. You can go."
Adrian stared at you for one second and bit his lips. You could take care of yourself and didn't seem the doctor could take you on a fight, so he left, still giving you one good look before closing the door. Robert's smile hadn't lessened up a bit and you shifted in your chair, more uncomfortable.
"He seems to listen to you, huh?"
"We are teammates. He loves Peacemaker so I guess we have to be stuck with him."
"Of course" laughed Robert of what seemed an internal joke. "Now, shall we start?"
Adrian was walking back and forth in the pre-interrogation room, like a dad waiting on the news of his newborn baby. He saw the pretentious doctor leave the room and come back with a soda, not saying any word in his direction and closing the door before he could get a good look on you.
"They will be alright, Vigilante"
Leota was there, with her arms closed, supporting herself on the wall. Everyone was still there, actually. Although the whole team was free to go, no one left. Clemson and Emilia said that they had to stay to check some info (good excuse), John getting a better new computer (lame excuse), and Chris mumbling he had nothing more interesting to do than to watch you leave the questioning room, crying. Or maybe you were making out with hot scientist in there, cause damn what a pair of blue eyes he had. That made him receive an angered look from Adrian.
Adrian had to control himself. He wanted to burst into that room and make sure they weren't hurting you or even make you admit you were having a relationship when it was forbidden. He wouldn't stand being away from you. He didn't care how many people he needed to kill you, but if they took you away, oh if they dared to take you away. Not even Superman would be able to stop him. Not even Peacemaker begging on his knees.
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662 notes - Posted January 26, 2022
#3
jeff bezos probably knows his tv show will never be as iconic as the meat is back on the menu, boys scene
712 notes - Posted September 2, 2022
#2
"Let's go, Vengeance."
Pairing: Robert Pattinson x Female!Reader
Summary: i recently saw an interview where rpatz girlfriend teared up while watching the batman so can you do a rob x female reader fic where the reader goes to the batman premiere and is super proud of him? :,)
Warnings: none, Rob anxious for (Y/N)'s approval
Authors note: SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG TO WRITE THIS. i am in such hype for The Batman as well, anon and i am only watching on monday/tuesday so im dogding spoilers like cray cray. I hope you dont mind i got excited with this.
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(Y/N) was home when Robert got a call about an important job. He told her a few days before he made a test for a secret movie that could change his life. She knew it was about this job because, when he picked up the phone, Robert went directly to the office, closing the door. (Y/N) didn't hear anything. After what seemed a long time, Rob opened the door and with no word said to (Y/N), went to sit in the backyard. She didn't immediately go after him because her boyfriend was known to be unusual. After giving him some privacy, she grabbed a blanket and walked to join her boyfriend. Robert was sitting on the grass, looking at the sky. He seemed distracted even when she joined him, throwing the blanket over them and nuzzling to his side.
"I am going be the Batman."
Rob announced after a long silence. (Y/N)'s normal reaction would be to jump in celebration, hug him, open a bottle of champagne to celebrate. She simply said:
"Okay? And you will do great, as you always do."
Robert turned his head in (Y/N)'s direction and smirked. He brushed her cheek, the sunset intensifying her pretty features. Rob knew he was a lucky guy.
"Some people won't like it. At least, I can always count on you on my team."
"Always."
-x-
It was finally the premiere day in London. After some hiccups along the way, like journals saying Robert didn't want to exercise to look stronger, that Matt Reeves hated him or that he and Zoe fucked on the batmobile and Zoe was now pregnant (Y/N laughed so much of that one Robert had to hold her so she didn't fall off their bed).
(Y/N) held Robert's hand tightly as they exited the car. Although being a celebrity herself she never got used to the flashes, all the screams. That night was about Robert and (Y/N) couldn't be prouder. Everyone that saw them knew Robert should be the star, but it was (Y/N) glowing that night. She was led by Robert to the swarm of photographers, all of them wanting a picture of the couple.
Robert didn't tell her anything about the movie. He valued her opinion so much he was actually nervous that night, to hear her thoughts. During an interview, (Y/N) was asked how she felt for her man being the Batman and how much she knew about the movie.
"I don't know a lot. He didn't tell me anything. All I know is that they couldn't have chosen someone talented as he is. He was the right choice to play the Batman. He is actually my Batman, Paul and Zoe." (Y/N) joked, referring to Paul Dano and Zoe Kravitz calling Robert their Batman.
The interviewer moaned "Awwnn" as Robert blushed, pulling his hair back, squeezing (Y/N)'s hand in return. It was also a clear critique for the people who said Robert was going to suck and all the bad things they had to hear those two years since he got chosen, especially because his portrayal of Edward Cullen. (Y/N) was shutting them off in a classic style, as she always wanted to have done it.
"Isn't the best thing to hear those words, Robert?"
"Yes, I mean. I wouldn't be anywhere without her support. I can't wait for her to approve this movie."
After all the interviews, meeting the rest of the cast (Zoe jogged to hug Y/N), autographs, selfies with fans, one actually asking when (Y/N) and Robert would get married and have babies, they arrived in a more empty area, only for guests and the cast.
Robert was in the middle of a conversation with actor Andy Serkis while (Y/N) stared at a huge poster of The Batman. She couldn't be happier for Rob. She knew he was going to do great, even without watching the movie. Robert was simply one of the best actors of their generation. He was going to touch so many people's hearts and she couldn't be prouder for him.
"Hey... you good?" Robert whispered, offering her a cup of wine that (Y/N) gladly accepted.
"Thank you. Yes! Said hi to Zoe earlier and she was such a sweetheart. I just couldn't take a selfie with her, since it was all so rushed." (Y/N) took a sip of her wine. Robert had never seen her so thrilled. Not even during his masturbating scene in "The Lighthouse." She actually had to control her giggles during the scene while he hid his face.
"You know..." (Y/N) started, resting her cup against the table "I hope you do know you are doing great. Shutting all the haters. I didn't even watch this movie and I know you will do amazing."
"You haven't watched the movie yet, darling. I might disappoint you" he murmured, not trying to sound more nervous.
(Y/N) grabbed his hands, pressing them against her face and giving a single kiss to each. Robert looked around but no one seemed to be paying attention to them.
"You could never. I love you. I am so proud of you, every day. I am probably going to cry this whole movie. Batman will be beating up Penguin and I will be crying overjoyed."
They both laughed, Robert passing his arms around her waist, bringing her close to him. She smelled so good that night. They hugged, ignoring everyone around for a few minutes. Robert loved how she had this power to calm him in any situation. Having her support was the basis of the whole process and he couldn't be more thankful.
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883 notes - Posted March 4, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
Fly with me
Pairing: Harwin Strong x TargaryenGN!Reader
Summary: Ser Harwin Strong isn't afraid of anything. He is just a little suspicious of flying.
Warnings: none, short fanfic, clearly au
Authors note: so, this is supposed to be a short story that came to my mind for Ser Harwin Strong before bed. can you really blame Rhaenyra for all three kids? NOPE. gif credits to the creator
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"Are you sure about this?"
Ser Harwin Strong's voice is clear but with a tiny tone of doubt. You turn your face away, trying to not laugh at your soon-to-be husband's face. Ser Harwin Strong isn't afraid of anything. He is the Captain of the City Guard, he is one of the strongest warriors of that time, so he can't possibly be afraid. He is just a little suspicious of flying.
It had taken almost three months for him to meet your dragon, Malor, and more than nine months to earn Malor's trust and be able to touch him. Malor could get pretty territorial around you. And he was big. Bigger than your older sister dragon Syrax. Your uncle Daemon insisted that Malor would become bigger than Caraxes in no time. He and your dad, the King Viserys I theorized Malor could be as big as Vhagar.
"He likes you. I know he does."
Harwin tries really hard to not look apprehensive. He knows Malor doesn't want to kill him anymore, at least. And he trusts you. But flying on Malor? Completely different story. He never thought he would be able to fly with a dragon in his life.
Malor is laying in front of you. He looks majestic. His scales are dark with green and red details. His stare is concentred on you two, waiting. To show how much control you have over him, there are two Dragonkeepers and they are alert but relaxed.
"I won't let him drop you," You watch Harwin still debate mentally. You grab his face gently to look at you "I will protect you, I promise."
Harwin sighs. When you make requests like this, he can't deny it. His dad warned him to not be so soft around you but how couldn't he? He was so in love with you, it was ridiculous.
"Fine, I will do it. Anything for you, my love."
You throw yourself into his arms, giving him a fast kiss. Then you turn excited to Malor who flaps his wings, showing he is ready. Harwin feels like the dragon is inviting him and challenging him at the same time.
"This will be the first of many" You declare eager, pulling Harwin towards Malor before he could change his mind.
Harwin can only hope it won't be his last.
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Welcome to my mind
For the last three years, my mind has been... Well, shit. Not that it hadn't been on a steady decline for years prior.
Recently, someone named her Denise. My other me. "Because that's what she is..when something is the opposite of something it's de-. She's not nice, she's De-Nice..."
Denise.
The name give to the me that's not me but spends more time pretending to be me than I do.
*Character Bio*
When I'm not Denise, I'm Ginny and she was the most wonderful person. I miss her dearly.
I had a great childhood. Very few psychological events, in my opinion. We never had much money, but my mom made sure I never knew it. My father worked hard at both his job and destroying his marriage; which is probably one of the marks on my childhood. More to come on that, I'm sure.
I didn't have trouble in school, per se. Bullied only a handful of times in all my school years. My mom is a designer, so I wore things you couldn't find on stores throughout my whole school life. I was *always* ahead of the trend and some kids couldn't handle it. We're talking 1991-2003. So, jumpers, corsets, mesh dusters, pants with fur on the bottom, dressing like anime characters... I was the first of everyone around me to be dressing that way. And I loved it!
But I had my revenge, as my hecklers could be seen wearing the same things they made fun of me for, after it became trendy. I guess you didn't have to be dead to be caught wearing that after all...
I struggled in math and excelled in art and writing. I had mostly good teachers, I think only one hated me.
I met all my best friends there. Can't say I've made all that many more in the years since. But, in my defense I'm surrounded by people who are nothing like me. You see, I grew up in Florida. All my vital youthful years were spent there. And now I live near Portland, Oregon. God, why? I even lost one of my dearest friends to the city. She completely changed from a fun, artistic girl who liked to draw, read, and cook...to...one of them. She's now a guilt vegan ( let's you know how disgusting you are for eating meat ) and is obsessed with shows that need to be cancelled. I had known this girl since first grade, she said she would follow the first friend who loved out of state. That was me, so she came out here too. Our friendship immediately began deteriorating as she would not allow me in my own room during the day, because she was talking to some loser friend of hers online. This person left her in a Walgreen's 20 miles from her home, on the wrong side of town, when we were all barely old enough to drive, because she was taking too long looking at eyeliner. But, she sounds like a solid individual to begin emulating. Are you serious? I watched my fully replacement take effect. 20 years of friendship completely gone in a matter of months. Have you ever watched someone stop carrying about you? Think about it. No, don't think about it. It's awful. She even physically ended our friendship. The first I had ever experienced. It was wrenching. But, I'm too far ahead now. I need to tell you how I got to Oregon.
Somewhere around me being 16, my dad stopped coming home. His mother had recently died and he knew some pretty shitty people willing to help him take the pain away. How does a poor, dyslexic, hoodlum, with a history of abuse cure the blues? Crack, of course. My mom did all she knew how to do, but she was pretty done with it all. They got divorced and some rich old lady "saved" him and whisked him off to Maryland where he would suffer many years of depression for what he had done to his family.
Now, it was just my mother and me. I immediately got a job and gave her my entire paycheck to help keep us in our lovely house. But as fate would have it, the city claimed eminent domain on our house with plans to build a water treatment facility. So, they lowballed us on what our house was worth and gave us 6 months to move. Now, here's some important side information: my mom is an army brat who grew up with mountains her whole life, until moving to Florida for my dad, which was apparently one of the last places she ever wanted to be. And my chummy from another tummy, was born in Oregon and had recently left me to go to OSU. This girl is my sister by all counts but blood. So, with a few other helping factors the logical answer was to start anew. How completely different my life would have been if I stayed. Can't say it would be better, just 100% different from what it is now.
But, in 2005 we moved to Oregon on the promise that we would do all the things we wanted to do and be living in Seattle in a few years.
None of that worked out. I can still remember the first night we spent in our apartment. I hated it. I let everyone know too. I think I cried for a week. I just wanted to go home. My Sisi was too far away to see her more often than the weekends and slowly her grades began to falter. This led to her dropping out and moving back to Florida just five months after I moved out here for her. I fell apart. I had only my mom and I love her, but sometimes you need your friends... You know? We did what we could and took jobs we hated and tried to get used to our new surroundings. I'm apparently a spoiled brat so I'm sure I made things painful for my mom who was finally back in her element and here I was stomping around telling everyone how much I hated it. Hate it. Present tense. I know the whole world is a cess pool of hipster, millennial idiots who all think that they know how to run the world, but the concentration of their free-for-all holier-than-thou ways is as dense here as the trees. It's exhausting listening to people who haven't showered in a week tell you how special they are because they have this heightened awareness that they learned from some Joe Blow and happens to not be fact at all. I have had a 24 year old Hispanic girl tell me that only white people can be racist, everyone else is prejudice. I told her that that in itself was a racist statement. And she said "no it's not. My teacher told me, and she has a PhD." I don't think I need to explain the definition of racism, but I do think Manson could have thrived in this town.
Fast forward quite a few years and we are both still in Oregon working jobs we hate not getting any of the things done we said we would. Are we lazy? Are we depressed? I'm sure it's both.
But, a small miracle comes my way, as I'm getting dressed to go down to the office to sign the next years lease I get a call from a woman who used to work with me. She asks if we are still looking for a new place to live and I tell her yes! We end up renting her townhouse from her because she's getting married. She proves to be a terrible landlord, probably because she's not all that good at being a person. She's really great at other things, but not that. Somme people are like that. But, I also haven't learned how to speak Oregonian in the 14 years I have been here.
A few more years and we end up buying the house and I have changed jobs for my health and things are looking up. I lose some of the weight I had acquired in my sorrows. I even find a guy that I can tolerate. Mostly bc he's 4000 miles away in another country. But, I struggle to find my way in our incredibly mismatched relationship. And he's so smart. So, successful... Here it comes... "what's he doing with a loser like me?"
My friends.... They all have something to show for their lives: degrees, children (Im not interested in these things,) husbands, jobs they don't hate....
I have a mortgage and a ridiculously high HOA, two payed off cars, 50 extra pounds on my ass, a job I'm not particularly built for, and a guy whom I love differently than he loves me.
I'm killing it.... Or myself. One way or the other. "I still haven't figured that shit out yet " -Eddie Murphy
I think this a pretty good place to stop for now. You should have a good amount of reference points for the following posts which will entirely be me, describing my chronic severe depression hoping that someone somewhere might read it and know they are not alone. I feel such a sense of validation when I read something from someone who feels the same as I do. This blog isn't for attention or critiquing, as most will likely be written when things like grammar and story structure aren't focused on. It's purely to get the chaos out so, I can organize it.
I don't know who you are but if you're reading this far, please stay tuned if you want to say "Wow, that's exactly how I feel."
Do good.
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navstuffs · 2 years
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Temporary annoyance
REQUESTS ARE OPEN
Pairing: Robert Pattinson x Female Famous!Reader
Summary: "hi! i don’t c any rob fics so could u do a robert pattinson x female¡ famous reader where she does an interview with another famous actor and he ends up getting a little bit jealous but she reassures him that she only loves him? thank you <33"
Warnings: none, comfort and fluffiness
Authors Note: Thank you so much for this request anon. this will be my first fanfic for Rob so i hope you like it! i hope you don't mind i chose Chris Evans
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Robert met (Y/N) during a party after the Oscars. They were introduced by Tom Holland that made sure to talk about Robert's crush on her. When Tom finally left them alone, (Y/N) shared timidly she also had a crush on him since Harry Potter. They exchanged phone numbers, rapidly becoming friends until the first kiss happened and then becoming boyfriend and girlfriend. When (Y/N) shared the news on Instagram, with a picture of their backs watching the sunset at the beach, the internet got on fire.
Robert always had preferred to keep his personal life private, but the journalists would catch a smile when they asked about (Y/N). They would try to tease him, asking if Rob felt like the luckiest man alive to which he would reply "Yes" embarrassed. Especially now that you were in an acclaimed romantic indie movie with Chris Evans. All the critiques were about your chemistry with Evans that was called "out of this world."
Robert had no worries about (Y/N)'s feelings. He knew he loved her and she loved him back and the industry was like that. But sometimes some interviewers would get on his nerves. He wouldn't call it jealousy per se, just a temporary annoyance.
That night, Rob was sitting down on the sofa while (Y/N) prepared a sandwich. He kept browsing through channels until she arrived so they could watch something together, when (Y/N)'s face appeared on the TV. She was being interviewed about the new romantic movie, Chris at her side. She seemed embarrassed to something Chris said when the reporter asked her:
"Same question to you (Y/N), how is to work with Chris?"
"Chris is amazing. He is great. I mean, no words really can describe how good he is. He and I had such great chemistry."
"One of the reasons of the movie being a success is this connection. Can you two try to explain it?"
"I didn't know him very well before, but we clicked right away. I think cause we had so much fun during the whole process, right Chris?" (Y/N) smiled at Chris and he smirked back, charmed. Did Robert notice a tiny hint of red on Chris's cheeks? He hoped not.
"As she said, we just clicked away. Working with (Y/N) was an unforgettable experience. I learned so much from her."
"Do you feel the same way, (Y/N)?" the reporter was really teasing her at this time, but (Y/N) didn't seem to realize yet.
"Working every day with such a great guy like him, I mean, I am thankful. I have learned a lot from him as well. We are both from different backgrounds, different experiences, so it was nice to share all of that."
"Can I just ask cause the fans are dying to know and it is normal for costars: Did you develop a crush? Not a tiny bit on each other?"
Unprofessional. Who the heck allowed reporters to ask that? Rob crossed his arms, shifting around on the sofa, uncomfortable. It is the industry, think about the industry and stay calm, Rob thought.
"Oh God, no!" (Y/N) exclaimed, visibly embarrassed as the reporter giggled. Chris had his hand covering his mouth, looking at (Y/N). "Only professionally. I can't wait to see more that he will do."
"Same. I will probably love everything she is in it."
(Y/N) walked back to the living room when the interview was almost done. Her manager warned people were going to think something was going on between her and Chris, but she knew her feelings were fraternal towards him. She had been dealing with a lot of questions about him lately and she understood those were normal, but it was getting too much.
"So, you have a professional crush on Chris Evans?"
Rob's questioning tone was teasing, but deep down she knew he was jealous. (Y/N) sit down on the sofa, placing the plate on the table in front. She rubbed him on the shoulder, feeling his body tense.
"I mean, Chris is great. You would have a crush on him if you knew him better as well...Professionally, I mean!"
"I see."
Robert kept his arms crossed, his head turned to the other side, quiet. (Y/N) got up, sitting on the other side of Robert. Did her man have pouty lips? Oh, he sure did. He looked like a big kid upset, pouty lips, frowny face. Why did he still look so pretty although he looked like a child that was denied his favorite candy?
"Rob? Don't tell me you are jealous?"
"Jealous? Me? No? Who is jealous, definitely not me." Robert grunted, looking at anywhere but her. (Y/N) grabbed his face with her hands, his blue eyes had no chance but to stare at her.
"I will say this slowly Robert, so you understand: I am with you. I love you. No one else. Okay?"
"Mhm."
"Screw them for thinking that. We know what is true right? And it is you. It has been you for a long time."
(Y/N) saw the usual corner smile appear on her boyfriend's lips and proceed to kiss it. She kissed his nose and forehead, licking his cheek, finally getting a chuckle.
"Ew, (Y/N)."
He grabbed her hips, putting her on his lap. They nuzzled, (Y/N) hiding her face on his neck, Robert holding her tightly, rubbing her back. He loved her so much. And he loved being reminded how much (Y/N) loved him.
"I love you too. I hope you know it" He reassured his feelings, whispering.
"I do."
Robert hummed back, satisfied. He was happy with (Y/N) on his arms like this. There was nothing else in the world that he needed, except her. As long they were together, everything would be okay.
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