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this is what it’s like inside my brain all the time. it’s like having a conversation with someone in a restaurant and when you stop talking you suddenly pick up on the other tables conversation, which you weren’t paying attention to, but knew was happening. and there’s music too

#this is not an exaggeration my mind is very busy all the time #the secondary conversation and music are involuntary #it’s currently in japanese #and the music is usually something i heard in a video that was catchy or a song i just paused #i can stop them but i have to do concentrate on making my mind quiet #also it’s not a dissociative identity it’s just brain noise #i can tune into one by pausing the layer above it #so when i’m thinking (i think in full sentences the same way i would speak. some people are different) i’m aware of the other 2 happening #but i’m not paying attention to the details #and then when i pause my active layer i can pay attention to what is being said under it. but i don’t really control what it’s saying. and #i can hear the music behind a little better #and then when i pausd both conversations i know what the music is #the secondary conversation is usually a bunch of unrelated sentences or phrases. i have tuned into it counting before. and another time #it was having some sort of structured thought pattern #i dunno. i’m curious as to if anyone else does this #lmk

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