#and. uh. i'll figure everything else out for english on the day its due as per the usual

[saltedsolenoid]

FUCK IT

i'm going to sleep

[mytcisanartteacher]

November Days 20-30

Ok so since I am no longer in a relationship, I started getting feelings for my TC again. Anyway... lets get back to this November TC thing.

20. Any photos? How'd you get them?

- yes, I do. Because of yearbook. From spirit week, to his classes, and the fun times on wrestling trips with the team. He's super cute, he says he isn't photogenic... but he is 😊

21. Do you plan on staying in contact after you leave?

- I do, I hope so. I'll probably ask for his socials. Also, I told him that if he ever gets a child (in the future, with his wife) I'll babysit since I still plan on staying in town. I would love to stay in touch with him.

22. Favorite scenario that you made up with them.

- oh my gosh... I have so many and they are all so intimate and sexual though. A majority of them are, but I make up scenarios of us talking. I think my most favorite is that us talking on the docks during the summer. I would sit at the docks for hours, looking at the sea, having the bright sun tan me, hearing the waves and birds... then he would "supposedly" be doing a leisurely walk on the docks and strike up a conversation. My most favorite.

23. Ever seen them outside of school?

- yes definitely, but rarely. I had a job, I saw him at the store twice that whole summer. I saw him biking (like hella fast) and it was cute because he was acting childlike. The other time was when I saw him leaving his house, so I biked fast down the park and pretended that I didn't see him as I crossed the street. As I was heading down the docks (i had headphones on) and he passed by me and rolled down the window and waved. (My most favorite moment). The next one was at a town event, a bbq, he was wearing shorts (which I rarely see him in) and I felt like a man from the 1850s seeing womens ankles... very specific for such a simple thing? That is definitely how it felt like though. Also at the new harbor, with his wife, I was out taking pictures and he saw me and waved and called out to me. I waved back and tried to not smile very big, so he wouldn't see...

24. Does anyone else know about your crush? Who?

- OK SO A LOT OF PEOPLE ACTUALLY. Freshman year, my friend group figured out after I was oogling him during breakfast break and lunch and IN CLASS. They would tease the hell out of me and make me red as a fucking fire! It was embarrassing when he would pass by our table... oh my god.... ughfjskcns.

Sophomore year, I think my culinary and English teacher knew. She would tell me to go deliver the food I made in culinary to him. All the time. She probably knew.... I'm not sure, its not like I talked about him a lot during her culinary class... OOF FUCK ME.

My siblings. I always talk about my day to them in the car and at the dinner table. Gosh why...

25. What animal do they remind you of?

- a cat. They're feisty and act tough. But they're so fucking cute. So, he resembles a cat. A house cat.

26. Do you know when their birthday is? Did you get them presents?

- oh yes... since I am a female, we love to search up people and look through everything. I did that as soon as I caught feelings for him. Which was freshman year. So, I made him a card and an origami box with pictures and facts. Sophomore year I made him a cool origami box and some other things that I forgot. But I know Junior year I printed out a sticker, which was a Bob Ross meme that said "happy birthday, may all your accidents be happy ones!" And when my senior year started, I saw that he stuck it on his computer... ugh my heart. This year, I haven't had anything planned yet. But I'll get there!

27. How did you fall in love with them? Was it love at first sight, or gradual?

- well, he came to my town when I was in 8th grade. I took one class which was ceramics mostly because my friends were in there. My feelings were caught by him halfway through freshman year because I had him for yearbook. I was young and stupid. Over time, I have grown to see him as a human being and that I love him no matter what. Whether its friendship, or platonic love, or whatever. I grew, my knowledge and perspectives changed a lot. So, I guess it was just love at first sight to platonically love.

28. Do they drink/smoke that you know of?

- well... due to my snooping I did see a photo of him in a cute Halloween costume (which was just a cheetah pj onsie with a cute hoodie) and he had a cigarette. It didn't bother me. I don't really care actually, my parents drink/smoke. I'm not affected by it.

29. If you could reenact any movie scene with them, what movie and characters would it be?

- uh... I'm not sure. I'll have to come back and check that up later.

30. Weirdest dream you've had of them?

- oh my god ok, well there is a lot. But there was this one where it was February 22nd, 2018. I journaled this so bear with me. I journaled every interaction, thoughts/feelings, things he said/i overheard, and everything that included him. So, I had a dream that he shaved. The next day, I saw him walking in clean shaven. I don't mind him with facial hair, but he's even better clean shaven. Talk about the best dreams ever!

Thank you for bearing my embarrassment and long talks. I'll get back with you about the movie scene reenactment sometime tomorrow or the next day!