#anway. thanks for coming to my ted talk. hope you can decipher my word vomit

[fionnacampbel]

honestly i feel like snow kinda forgot about lucy gray until katniss popped up, and even then it was a fleeting memory. it wasn't until katniss became the mockingjay that snow really started to remember, like the dudes pushing 80 there's no way he could vividly recall his long-lost-potentially-dead lover from when he was 18. but he remembers the way those mockingjays made him feel powerless; they were freaks of nature and shouldn't have existed but they did and he couldn't do anything about it. once katniss became the mockingjay, and thus the voice of the rebellion, snow was forced to come to terms with his past, with sejanus and lucy gray and the mockingjays that haunted him with his best friends last words. i don't think snow saw lucy gray or sejanus in either katniss or peeta, but he remembered the way their deaths 60-some years ago made him feel; he remembered the loss and pain, the power and control. and it was enough for him to be so desperate as to do anything to regain that control