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myownprivatcidaho · 3 years

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like eventually i want to be a history professor but. like do people go to like high ranking schools just for a bachelors to teach grade school history to kiddos

#like im interested in nyu but because 1) nobodys walked me through academia or explained anything so im only familiar with The Big Schools #and b) i spent my first 18 years thinking i was a dumbass and an academic flunk so now i feel like i have to prove im Not by going to like #the biggest school that accepts people with no highschool transcript or standardized testing records #like. hi <3 i experienced severe educational neglect and thought i was a nimrod but will you accept me into your prestigious school #oh interesting goals that would bring you a good reputation should i become an alumnus?#no im just planning on being a suburban history teacher but not before i Prove myself :3 #but like. fr inhad no end goal in mind until recently i realized like. i love explaining things to people i love history i love kids #AND i find myself fantasizing about teaching shit to people #so ...#and idk when i was in highschool i had to goals i thought i was gonna kick it before i got out #and any idea of s future i had was like. you know when youre a kid and you think 'im gonna do [far fetched dream] when i grow up!'#ok. image of Grown Up Sia being in a band. trap that in amber and carry that around. that was my idea of a Future. like i couldnt imagine #anynother scenarios i didnt know HOW to imagine any other scenarios that old ones i recalled ffom when i was a kid #but here i am! and its not something big or grand or great its just. underrated unimpressive shitty pay active shooter risk quiet life #but i WANT it not just fanatasize i WANT it. and idk like some Big school i feel like would. idk im worried about pushing myself into smth #that on my resume would make me 'overqualified' and like im not saying i THINK ill get into nyu but like.#theres such DISSONANCE between what i aim for academically and how much of that is useful for the simple career i want #like being part of 3 honors societies probably isnt necessary for a history teacher. could come in handy for getting a masters and so on #but. yeah like im fortunate enough to be doing well academically but truth betold i have no fucking clue what im doing here.

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