#anyway! I've been here when it was dead and I've just been trying to revitalize it a bit and keep it active because there's NOT a lot of

[freakwiththeknifecollection]

I wanna say, I know sometimes my Chestervelle posts/memes are kinda pointed and bitter (and that is just coming from a place of frustration from being on this site and blogging about them for so long) but my goal with those posts isn't directed at anyone in particular or to hate against other ships involving Dean and Jo. I just want to create content that's validating to other Chestervelle shippers, because even though we keep in our circle and don't start things, sometimes people go out of their way to come into our spaces to belittle and invalidate our ship.

I'm not making memes and posts as a huge middle finger to people who don't ship it. I make memes and posts for other Chestervelle shippers to say that you are valid. You're not wrong and you have just as much right to take up space in this fandom as anyone else.

[godsamael]

Labyrinth of Psyche

Felt like sharing this on here since it's been a long time since I've posted any writing. I've written a very short, suggestive story featuring my new OC! They're a three-headed, four-armed, 8 ft. tall monster boy called Chuudoku and in this they're having a bit of Predator/Prey roleplay with the reader in the labyrinth they guard. 😌 The reader is submissive in this, btw.

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The stone floor is cold and unforgiving as your bare feet pound against it, trying to slow you, but you push your legs to carry you faster even if it makes your lungs burn. The torch-lit stone walls feel as if they're closing in on you, despite the numerous halls normally feeling quite spacious. You shake your head, swallowing hard as you do your best not to let it get to you.

You're determined to win this time. …

You think.

A fork in the path is fast approaching and your mind is racing to choose between left or right when a sudden rumbling shakes the foundation around you. Your stomach drops as the cobblestones in front of you begin to tremble and separate.

Planting your foot, you skid nearly to a stop. You barely manage to turn with the momentum, albeit nearly falling in the process, and sprint for an earlier turn you passed just as a strong hand bursts through the opening wall. Behind you, it grabs onto the edge, as if trying to force it along as a thick leg comes through next, heavy boot stomping down on the ground just as you turn the curve. The wicked laugh of Doch follows in an ominous echo, pushing you to run harder.

That was close, and they don't seem to have caught up yet, by the glance you chance behind you. You hope to God you're not headed for a dead end, because you'd like to say that was a pretty good save back there. You couldn't bear Doch's gloating if his trick got you caught seconds after that.

Luckily, you find another turn to make, then another, and you're convinced you're on a good path. You might even find your way to the center of the maze this time! The thought revitalizes you, even makes you a little giddy. You're going to make it…

Your thoughts are just starting to turn to that sweet, sweet salvation when they're interrupted by a strange tickling feeling in your head.

You shake your head, trying to jostle the feeling away, but the tickle quickly turns to an ache. Your feet stumble and you hit the wall, barely able to catch yourself before you tumble to the ground. You know this feeling.

You're being targeted by Kyx!

Clutching your head, you stagger to the other wall, your limbs all refusing to listen to the signals from your brain—or more likely, listening to entirely different signals. You take a right and find yourself to the left instead. Your body lunges backward in an effort to take back control—well, you try, anyway, but nothing changes. Your feet continue to clumsily carry you in what's surely the direction of your doom.

Your vision shakes and you squeeze your eyes shut, only for them to be forced open again as the shadows around you grow and twist into something grotesque. Your blood runs cold, fear chilling your veins at the images tormenting your mind.

Gritting your teeth, you fight against the control with all your might until a sweat breaks out on your skin, Kyx's hold tightening in his stubborn will to rein you in. For just a moment, you think you feel your free will returning, your muscles beginning to respond to your commands. Yes!

You whirl around-

And immediately smack your face into a wall.

Instantly, the supernatural contol on your body drains away and you swear you hear a raspy laugh in your head before it fades. Your cheeks burn hot as you rub your bruised forehead. Well… at least you escaped that?

You retrace your steps to where your forced confusion first began and continue down your originally intended path, albeit with a bit less enthusiasm this time.

You can still feel your heart thumping against your ribcage as you make progress, your nerves a bit frayed. The cool stone walls around you seem to loom, not closing in with an obvious claustrophobia, but rather a silent, solid reminder how deeply trapped you are.

The open space behind you is beginning to feel more threatening than the idea of a cave-in. It never occured to you during these chases just how… alone you are in this labyrinth.

The air thins.

That coolness from the surrounding stone seems to turn to a chill. Your vision starts to darken, as if the numerous, eternally-lit torches attached to the walls are beginning to burn out.

The pounding in your ears, you realize, is your heart starting to race as if you were still running for your life, despite having slowed to a rather leisurely walk.

Okay, you need to calm down.

You stop and suck in a breath. Then you squeeze your eyes shut tight and open them again, blinking a few times to clear your vision. Then you rub your eyes. Wait…

That wasn't your mind panicking. It's getting darker.

It's getting darker!

Your panic instinct kicks into overdrive at the realization and you spin around to see the torches you'd already passed are now nothing more than cherry embers in a wall of dark, before even that blinks out.

The darkness is fast approach and, when you turn back, you find it heading for you from the front as well.

Your hands shake as you press them hard to your ears, trying to focus only on the rushing of blood in your eardrums and nothing of the fearful thoughts invading your mind. It's too late. All you can do is hold your breath and shut your eyes as you're swallowed by the darkness…

It's only the sensation of your eyelids moving that tells you you've opened your eyes, for when you do, you're greeted only by an unforgiving darkness, so deep, so consuming, like light never existed in the first place. You've been caught by Cho.

You place a hand on your chest, trying to calm your racing heart, but the sense of danger doesn't subside. You're vulnerable now more than ever. If the monster is close, you'd have no idea. You couldn't even hear those heavy foosteps in the unnatural, sense-dampening darkness. You feel more alone than ever.

Before the anxiety can grow into despair, a small mercy finally comes in the form of a single torch bursting into flame in the darkness. And then another. One by one, a trail of torches light a way into the now broken blackness, but you don't feel saved. Rather, your shoulders slump at the sight.

Reaching a hand back into the dark behind you, it doesn't come into contact with anything, but you wouldn't be surprised if the labyrinth has already shifted to corner you. It'd be pointless to run now, especially if it means letting yourself be swallowed once more by the inky black maw.

Defeat heavy on your shoulders, you follow the trail, dejected as a kicked dog.

The hall opens up into a sparsely furnished room. Not, you note, the center of the maze. Denying you a chance to win on a technicality, surely. The thought is somehow more insulting, like you never had a chance against the monster in the first place. Which, to be fair, this has long been their turf and you probably didn't.

You're almost too caught up in the knowledge of your defeat to realize you're still alone. No one else is in the room. Confusion replaces the despondency and you turn to find the opening you'd entered through had closed without your notice. Your stress levels shoot up. What? You-you're trapped? There's no way out? Did… did they… finally grow tired of you? Is this their way of ridding themselves of you?

You back away from the unyielding wall and evidence of your betrayal, the edges of panic fraying your mind, your lungs nearly starting to hyperventilate, until-

Your back hits something firm, but warm. Four strong hands grip your arms and spin you around until you're face-to-face with the familiar smile of Cho. You stare at him in disbelief, but he doesn't seem to notice.

"I think this is our win?" He cocks his head, lightly knocking a horn against one of Doch's. Your eyes slide over to the gruff head to Cho's right. Doch responds by running his forked tongue over gleaming teeth and slurping it back into his mouth. Your gaze then finds Kyx's head to the left. The glow of his orange eyes are threatening to flicker out, consumed by the blackness that emerges when his excitement spikes.

All 4 visible eyes glow in the dim light, gazing solely at you, and you can't help the relief that floods your body at the familiar sight.

You don't have a chance to voice your thoughts however, as Doch speaks up first. "We won. Which means we get our prize!" The last word comes out an excited growl and suddenly one of those heavy boots kicks your feet out from under you. You fall to the ground and Chuudoku follows, pressing you against the stone floor with their beefy, heavy body. "Let's make them scream." Doch licks his teeth again. Despite his words, however, they don't continue just yet, stalling above you first.

"What do you say? Did we win?" Cho asks kindly, showing that gentle smile you knows hides so much obsession for you. He's goading you. That's obvious.

Something clicks in your psyche. This position does a lot to ease your mind, something so right to be beneath them like this. Right away, you feel the adrenaline of the chase draining from your endocrine system, replaced with something else. Something that relaxes you and fills you with a certain need.

Your expression turns hazy. You press your palms flat on the floor and raise your hips toward them. "You caught me…" you say, longing sweetening your tone.

Cho and Doch's faces light up with their respective signature grins, but Kyx has remained silent through this exchange, eyeing you evenly like he's not a part of this. Cho seems to catch that as well, because he turns his questioning tone to the cynical personality.

"What about you?"

"Come on, Vampir," Doch throws in, unhelpfully.

Kyx's visible eye slides to the side, an unimpressed look clearly meant for the two heads to his right, but then it focuses on you once again, completely unreadable. Or it was, until that blackness spreads out from the corners, consuming sclera and iris alike until his eye is as inky as the darkness you'd just waded through. Except, this time, you doubt you could escape, even being shown mercy.

Seeming to be controlled by Kyx now, the body moves downward, finding your lower half and lowering the three heads to between your now pushed aside legs. Kyx's soft lips press against your thigh, but then smile, parting to the threat of dangerous teeth. Finally, he speaks in that harsh, gravelly voice.

"Cry well for me, okay, Baby?"

Your head falls back in acceptance, ardor shooting through your heart as you surrender yourself to the hands climbing your body and the feeling of pointed teeth breaking your skin and your blood pushing past welcoming lips…

[tesb]

i've only seen the last jedi, but i do follow thanks to tumblr

okay, so you get the gist!

spoiler alert: i’ll explain what happened in star wars: the rise of skywalker below the cut.

i’ll try and summarize as much as i can and explain a little. there’s many people who condemn the entire film but honestly, i could have swallowed most of it, save for one stupid storyline. but yeah, i’ll get into it. i’ll be skipping a lot of stuff but i apologize if this ends up being pretty long anyway. to be fair, the movie itself is quite long and they were able to fit a lot of dumb things into it.

also: check out jenny nicholson’s youtube video on the movie!

so, in the opening crawls in star wars films, we usually find out what our heroes and main characters have been up to since the last film. they set the scene: nothing major happens in these opening crawls, but major events are left for the films themselves. well, not in this one! in TROS, the opening crawl reveals that emperor palpatine is back, and we’re supposed to just… accept that without any questions. to me, it seems like star wars’ biggest villain coming back would be a bigger event than a couple lines in the opening crawl and deserves more explanation, but i digress.

cut to kylo ren who gets a sith wayfinder, killing a bunch of people in the progress as per usual, and goes to palpatine’s hidey hole on this uncharted planet. palpatine tells him that snoke was his puppet all along and reveals a massive fleet of star destroyers, which is also left unexplained. palpatine orders kylo ren to kill rey (which later leads him to multiple battles with rey throughout the film.)

at the resistance base, they discover that palpatine is on this planet and they need a sith wayfinder to get there. so here starts a goddamn loooooooong mission of them trying to get this wayfinder (they really could have cut this part of the movie down, especially because the whole thing was so convoluted already.) the person who last had the wayfinder conveniently happens to be an assassin who killed rey’s parents and she keeps having visions of them.

at one point on this mission to find the wayfinder, they’re in a very open area on a desert planet and kylo ren and the knights of ren show up in this massive ship. chewbacca gets captured and is in the ship when rey tries to rescue him by using the force, but accidentally blasts the whole thing with lightning. so they all think chewbacca is dead and they leave. but he isn’t dead, because there just so happened to be another massive ship there that they somehow didn’t see, and rey blasted that one instead, and chewbacca was captured in the other. this makes the entire thing feel cheap and their mourning even more hollow.

eventually rey does sense that chewbacca is alive. on their mission to rescue chewbacca, rey confronts kylo ren once again. kylo ren taunts rey about her parents. he eventually reveals that she is the granddaughter of emperor palpatine and that her parents were nobodies because they “chose” to be, and asks her to join him once again. rey being palpatine’s granddaughter makes less sense than her being, say, rey kenobi.

on the same mission, it’s revealed that general hux has been working as a spy for the resistance, and that his only motivation for doing so was preventing kylo ren from winning. winning what, i don’t know. he saves poe, finn and chewbacca and tries to cover up his tracks but dies later anyway. his whole storyline seemed pretty pointless, which is a shame, because he started out as a pretty interesting character in the force awakens. by the rise of skywalker, he was reduced to a caricature of his former self.

we’re introduced to two new characters at two different points in the film, zorii bliss from poe’s past, and jannah, and ex-stormtrooper just like finn, who, as it happens, becomes quite close to finn. i didn’t dislike either of them whatsoever but i strongly feel like these characters were brought in just to reiterate that finn and poe are very much Not Gay (because, let’s face it, the people at disney are cowards.) the LGBT “rep” we do get is a lesbian couple kissing in the background in one of the final scenes in the movie, in a shot that lasts for approx. 0.2 seconds and that has already been cut from the film in some countries.

on a similar note, rose tico was also completely pushed to the sidelines in this film when she had a huge role in the previous one. they don’t even have a proper explanation for it, which sucks, because kelly marie tran was absolutely fantastic in the role. poe’s and finn’s roles were also reduced quite a lot, and i genuinely failed to see any character development from them and there was a great lack of good, character-building emotional moments across the board.

when rey finally gets to the wayfinder (that is on a destroyed death star) kylo ren confronts her for a third time in the same film and he destroys the wayfinder. when kylo ren and rey are fighting, leia organa reaches out to kylo ren through the force while she is dying, and in this moment, rey gets the upper hand and strikes him. but when she senses leia’s death she suddenly feels remorse for him (????? WHY) and immediately saves him by healing him using the force. the tone shift in the scene is jarring.

in rey leaves and kylo ren suddenly sees his dead father – who he killed – and after speaking to han solo, his nonexistent redemption arc begins and he “becomes ben solo again”. i say nonexistent because it literally came out of nowhere. we seldom saw him doubt the dark side and we only saw him turn away from rey when she tried to turn him to the light, time and time again. in the last jedi, their final shot together was rey literally closing a door on him, i.e. symbolizing her finally giving up on trying to turn him to the good side. but since the rise of skywalker tried to undo everything the last jedi did, of course that didn’t matter anymore.

rey uses kylo ren’s ship to go on the same planet luke had resided on in the force awakens and the last jedi because she’s so shook by her parentage (meanwhile i was shook by the awfulness of this plot while sitting in the cinema audience.) luke’s force ghost shows up to tell rey that she needs to face palpatine and so, here begins the worst final “battle” in star wars history, probably.

the resistance fleet follow rey to the planet where palpatine is. rey finds palpatine, and palpatine encourages rey to kill him so that “his spirit can transfer into her.” this whole scene is extremely awkward because palpatine tells rey his entire plan, narrating all the details. it’s very much “you have to do this so i can do this and this” and it feels like the plot needs him to do this so that the audience understands what’s going on, and it’s so painfully bad. suddenly, kylo ren shows up to help rey. and suddenly, palpatine’s plan changes and he uses rey’s and kylo ren’s force bond to “revitalize” himself. and he’s still explaining every bit of the process.

palpatine starts blasting the resistance fleet with his lighting, yeets kylo ren to a hole in the ground (some kind of chasm? i don’t know) and rey collapses. she suddenly hears the voices of a bunch of jedi ghosts in her head, encouraging her, and gets up and manages to kill not only palpatine but herself as well. kylo ren suddenly reappears and brings rey back to life with force healing. in an extremely awkward and forced moment, they embrace each other and kiss, effectively making reylo canon, all for fan service. he does drop dead, but the scene prior to him dying sends an awful precedent for future watchers of the film. i’m all for letting people ship who they want to ship as long as they’re aware it can be extremely problematic and toxic, but it’s a whole different story when a well-known franchise makes said ship canon.

kylo ren has abused rey mentally and assaulted her physically. he is a mass murderer, a war criminal, and literally killed his own goddamn parent. he has done things that are absolutely unforgivable. in the last scene of the film, someone asks rey who she is, and she decides to say “rey skywalker”; there’s a message in TROS that indicates where you come from doesn’t dictate whether you’re “bad” or “good” – see: rey being a palpatine but being a good character. if kylo ren had represented the opposite of rey to the end, i.e. how he came from a good background but still decided to turn to the dark side, the message the film was trying to send wouldn’t have been so undermined.

the last film also makes rey’s entire purpose in the sequel trilogy tied to kylo ren, and it genuinely angers me – they just couldn’t leave her storyline be, could they? her purpose all along was, yes, to kill palpatine, but also to get kylo ren to turn away from the dark side, to help him, to “cure him”. we’re supposed to believe that all along she wanted to “take ben’s hand” and that she was in love with her abuser.

my biggest problem is with this film’s influence and what they decided to do. the fact that they made a romantic scene between the abuser and his abuse victim makes my skin crawl. i could have accepted everything else, but not this. it’s my one big problem with the movie that i cannot, for the life of me, overlook. little kids are going to see this movie. they’re going to see kylo ren murdering, manipulating, abusing people for two and a half movies straight. and they’re going to watch him be redeemed like a second-rate darth vader. but at least darth vader lost everything when he turned to the dark side, reiterating that the dark side is genuinely Very Bad. at least darth vader died without getting a reward like rey was used as kylo ren’s reward for his “redemption arc.” i wish this film hadn’t used rey like it did, but it happened; at moments, she was reduced to a prop in kylo ren’s story instead of her continually being an individual in her own story.

there’s probably a better version of this film somewhere because it feels like a million ideas smashed into one big mess and i sometimes felt like i was watching a fan-film rather than a real star wars movie. the makers of this film being disney, they were trying to please everyone, and that was the biggest mistake they could have possibly made. they didn’t have a solid plan for the sequel trilogy, and it shows. painfully well.