#anyway back to our regularly scheduled programmin

[ancient-art-of-craft]

The intense longing and desire for love vs my crippling fear of abandonment and being known

The intense longing and desire for love vs my need to spite my mother

[applejuiceaddictyo]

hey man. back to our regularly scheduled programmin, my bad for not occupyin all the space on your blog for a while there. been missin ya. anyway, uhh. tryna think of anythin to tell ya that ya missed but honestly my lifes sad as fuck i aint been doin much without ya. i had fanta the other day i guess. that was cool. i dunno yer gonna have to carry me here ive mostly just been dealin with borin shit n like. mental illness. haa.

shit my bad for not seein this sooner i was passed the fuck out. mental illness, huh? damn. looks like i know where i got that from. dont worry ill find a way to create conversation through what youve said here. ahem ahem. taps finger to my chin

fanta, huh? for some reason we own a fanta shirt but like. for grape fanta. none of us even like grape fanta so im honestly confused as shit by it. it all comes back to the nasty fruit flavors...if they make strawberry fanta im jumpin off a cliff

[cosmosfated]

I guess I can see how it could be painful to be rejected like that based on your appearance. To feel like you're scaring others away if you don't conform to the norm with a human shape that gives off a vibe of normalcy. But is that better than to hide away your own pain and reject a part of yourself you seemingly, from what I can see, want to set it free? Those who do care about you aren't going to mind about you not conforming to humanity for as long as you're happy. Those who do don't matter.

  He just sadly shakes his head.

  “i appreciate it. but it jus’ ain’ worth it. again, if me bein’ comfortable results in other people gettin’ ‘urt or bein’ scared or bein’ in danger, then i don’ want it. bein’ ‘uman ain’ that bad anyway. it’s a compromise i can get be’ind. don’t worry so much. this’ll be over b’fore ya know it an’ we’ll be back to normal. back to our regularly scheduled programmin’.”