#anyway. i'm a little fragile tonight. those 55 minutes with the therapist today and being shown compassion for the crap i went through? | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

robinsnest2111 · 1 year

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coming to terms with all the good and all the bad and all the incredibly ugly parts of growing up with emotionally distant, frustrated, overwhelmed, easily upset, easily enraged, sometimes violent as a last resort parents who still tried the best they could with what little they had at their disposal can be something so difficult and painful

#like i'm at a point where i am not blaming them for what they did and didn't do #but it still HURTS SO BAD #and I've rarely allowed myself to feel the pain so whenever i do let myself feel it it's SO BAD AND OVERWHELMING #anyway. i'm a little fragile tonight. those 55 minutes with the therapist today and being shown compassion for the crap i went through?#unearthed all those repressed memories and emotions and feelings oop #too bad i can't let them out like i should. cannot let my parents know i feel or show weakness. that'd be fatal in this house #alas. silent tears once again tonight. it'll have to be enough for now #maybe one day i can feel safe enough to properly feel and express my emotions

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