#anyway. this is simultaneously a really sweet memory and a ''jesus christ i was suffering SO BADLY from neglect back then wtf'' | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

yardsards · 2 years

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that time when i was like 12 years old at girl scout camp and this girl in my troop saw me going to bed listening to my mp3 player. and she started fussing over me because she was worried i would get my headphones wrapped around my throat in my sleep. and i told her i fell asleep listening to music like that every night and nothing bad ever happened but i promised to take them off before i fell asleep that night anyway. and she looked so relieved at that

and for couple weeks after that, every time i listened to music before falling asleep i remembered that girl and felt warm inside. cuz it was so nice to have someone care about my safety that much even if the thing she was fussing about wasn't actually dangerous at all. because i was just THAT starved for anybody to care about my well-being

#eliot posts #also i was a little bit gay for her but that was actually unrelated #(it's hard to explain what being gay for someone means for me as an aroace. because it's not ACTUAL romantic/sexual attraction #a 'squish' doesn't fit and aesthetic attraction is probably the closest match but not Exactly)#i found her really pretty back then #stocky build and athletic. hair always in a ponytail. tanned skin. a tomboy #and her personality was just really friendly and bold #i never got close to her but she was nice #i hardly saw her much after that cuz we were pretty much always in different classes #but i remember in high school she was picking her brother up after band practice and she saw me struggling to carry a bunch of stuff #and she stepped out of her car and helped me #i hope she's doing well wherever she is #and i hope she's still kind #anyway. this is simultaneously a really sweet memory and a ''jesus christ i was suffering SO BADLY from neglect back then wtf''

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