#appts EARLY on them by 1 hour so i freak out when i hear alarm and get ready then have time to get there extra.
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Oh no guys I read about adhd symptoms to see if I had it and now I've made myself sad :c dang these things be affecting my life :c
#rant#i was like: well i probably have ahdh but i have a fuckton of coping mechanisms so doctors probably wont help me#then i reflected on my coping mechanisms :c#guys i spend 8 hours prepping for a doctors appt. im not kidding. i hqve to schedule reminders on my outlook calendar#that i must look at constantly for work (so i dont forget). then sit for a couple hours to focus and dontemplate on the goal#of the appt. then write everything i need to tell them. then think some more. then write things i forgot in another few days#then in anothef few days. then after several hours and a few weeks i have a LIST OF STUFF TO TELL DOCTOR and then i always put calendar#appts EARLY on them by 1 hour so i freak out when i hear alarm and get ready then have time to get there extra.#and i do this for. taxes. oil changes. license renewal. any appointment of any kind. any work situation that isnt super routine and quick#all this shit takes me hours to WEEKS of prep. taxes take me 2 weeks of ONLY TAX WORK so like 20-30 hours whenever im nog working to slowly#prep then calm down then concentrate then prep. but i also do this for shopping for so much basic shit#i have calendar reminders to pay bills. i have a whiteboard on fridge to remind me of chores#i CANNOT remember any convo or task without gratuitious written reminders and notes so i write EVERYRHING down. college was hell#i threw out my planners from college so many bad memories and stress. byt like. goddamn some peiple...#onlt take 1-3 hours to prep for a#doctor???? or even less?!!!! some people GENUINELY only need 8 hours/a#sunday to do taxes???!!!! some people can plan appointmenrs without 1 hour buffer early time on their alarms? hell without NEEDING alarms#to remember the appt exists??!!!! i cant even follow a conversation thats 5 minutes without asking what they said. my mind blanks and i#space out. like... :c quite sad how much time is wasted by all this prep to cope as well as others. its all that CBT therapy strategies i#learned combined with just. so many fuxking notes.#i also do SO much to have normal convos. i practiced hard to focus ish and respond better and write things and have#the correct expressions and even now i know my talking speed upsets some ppl. which stresses me out :/
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