#au in which jason isn't put together in the least and has trauma that aggressively presents itself as visual and auditory hallucinations an

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Can we pretend "Arkham Knight" is one word? 😁

There's blood on his tongue and it doesn't matter how familiar the taste is to him - he chokes on it. Panicked as he lists to the side, fumbling to regain his footing and defend himself from another beating.

Only the hit doesn't come from where he expects. It doesn't hurt like it should.

The vision he sees of Joker fades, but Jason hears him clear as anything - that cold and malicious c a c k l e. He heaves a breath, body trembling as he starts to panic. Trying and failing to find his bearings as another hit takes Jason to the ground.

And Jason might hate himself for it He's not Robin anymore; he's the - he's the Arkham Knight. Joker can't touch him like this. No one can touch him like this! Only that's a lie, isn't it? Because Jason is as vulnerable as he's ever been.

Beneath his helmet, Jason's face twists with frustration and self-loathing. "Get it together,' he tells himself, but his gaze still twitches to look at hallucinations instead of the man that's actually there beating his ass. Between one moment and the next, Jason sees Batman then Joker and then Batman again and he doesn't - Jason doesn't know what's real.

(Did he ever get out? Is he still there? Everything still hurts).

He looks a fool, fighting a man that's there; defending against a monster that isn't.

Jason was supposed to be okay. He's supposed to be okay now! Why the fuck isn't he!?

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Ok ok ok

So like I am absolutely obsessed with I'm pretty sure you call it your blackbird au (the fic: hand in unlovable hand) and like omg its brilliant. So like genuinely I need to ask if your making any more cause like you said in a few of your posts you would but also it's been two years so I'm not sure if you discontinued it or something and I'm so sorry if you already made a post about this I just found out about this and it's just that

So I absolutely love these fics so much. From villain Tim, to one of my classics of the villain making the main character their successor, even better when that successor doesn't want to be. The insanely smart Tim orchestrating everything, the way he changes and shapes under sionis's hand which you never see how much till the second fic even though the clues are there the forshadowing is insane. Just what he's gon through and how well you wright him is insane. It's brilliant. And the second fic. Oh my god it just gets better. If the first fic was one of the best fics I've ever read then this is the perfect addition. I adore the trope of Jason helping Tim in an angry but kinda desperate (I don't know if that's the right word soz) like desperate because they have been through simaler things and he's the only one who can help and also he's been through so much but angry because Tim can't see how much he's gone through and angry at what he's been out through and angry at how Tim acts and honesty I don't think I can put it in to words but I think you can understand. And just, honestly you got right one of my favorite but hardest tropes. Cause like so I absolutely love the way he's like omg he could be evil like he's so sketch like red flag except it's just cause of their trauma, but I despise when they make it like some big thing where they hate the mc over it cause like I can't handle that but you did it so perfectly I genuinely don't think I've ever seen someone write it this good. Like how Jason is like this is sketch but I'ma help him anyways. Just it's just brilliant. This has so many of my favorite things wrote so perfectly and genuinely.

So I need to ask and I'm sorry if you've stated it before but I beg you continue this or at least if you are not can I at least get confirmation cause it's been like two years since the last so I have to know sorry if this ask is a bit much

hiii!! I'm so glad you enjoyed it! I love this version of Tim—he's broken and unbreakable, amoral and determined to do good! a series of contradictions desperately pretending they're a cohesive unit. and Jason is angry and kind, reckless and careful, contradictions that don't care they're contradictions. Jason's experiences make him aggressive and brash, and Tim's make him quiet and deliberate, and that makes them awful together in the best way to watch ❤

as for the continuation, yes, it's evil of me to say but this is on indefinite hiatus. which isn't to say it won't get done! (my beta has laughed at me multiple times for saying I'm done with Tim and the inspiration is over, and then 4 months later pitching her another idea)

simply put, I am awful at writing when people expect me to write, and especially if they expect me to write something good. it's been long enough that I'm enjoying playing in my sandbox with my beta again, and the 'indefinite' part is simply whether or not I'll write down a finished version to share with the internet!

thank you for the love and I hope you find many other stories to enjoy as much as this one!