#auehfughuhufguhuheuhehueh. lies on the floor

[transgenderfivepebbles]

nothing will ever drive me as mad as the relationship between giovanni and carmen i think

you were the first person i knew who was truly alive.

i saw you, standing amid the crowd of indistinct, aimless faces, speaking proudly about something i didn't quite understand - yet still, in that moment, all i saw was you. it was as if all the light in the world converged on you, lighting up your bright face, glimmering in your eyes, so that your words would reach me, who could not begin to know you, but knew that i had to try.

i saw you, alive, and it made me alive too. i would follow you wherever you went; even though you may not have returned that sentiment, i chose to stay at your side anyway, because i knew what it meant to live now, and i could never go back to the existence i once led.

and then, you were gone.

your life flickered out, and with it my light. i lived for you, because of you, and so suddenly you were torn away from me. again, i was purposeless and lost, only this time i had known how it felt to truly live, and i knew i could never have it back.

and there was nothing left for me than to die for you.

and when i woke up again, there was nothing at all for me.

except, i realized, except you, who had never truly left.

and in the depths of despair i saw you, heard you again at my side, granting me the courage to live another day.

and i knew, no matter what, that i could still love you.

and i loved you.