#autyzm? possibly??

[rabarbarzcukrem]

Czy to już jest poziom bycia down bad czy jeszcze nie

[j0xaren]

turned out that today's visit wasn't the one starting that professional diagnosing process, actually i need to wait 11 months untill they'll call me in again. 11 months. 🙃 i was just nodding to all the informarions they already have about me and then they gave me few brochures about "asperger's" and adhd/add/dyspraxia. and that's all. i don't even know what to feel, i thought i'm already done with waiting in the queue but nope, turns out there are two. i...🙃🙃🙃

[j0xaren]

yesterday i had a dream where i infodumped to my family and friends about future boy conan and hayao miyazaki. pretty realistic scenario, my brain might just use dreams as an alternative to human interaction since i have none at the moment lol

it shows how important it is for me to share information, i often feel like something is boiling up in my body and i just NEED to get it out and talk about my stuff to someone or i'll explode and die from frustration

[j0xaren]

wow man i've got a neuropsychiatry appointment in 3 days, it's only 3 days!!! im excited somehow

(i did a lot of interviews and stuff with my local therapists already and they said the worst is done now but this time i'll meet actual specialists. who will diagnose me later. with whatever it will come out to be. wow)