#bboki babbles

[bbokicidal]

i know nobody is going to read this but i'm going to be real open and vulnerable for a second.

i'm not going to continue the 4K event and i'm sorry if that lets people down, but i can't right now. i really just can't, and the reason is because i hit 4k. the last few weeks i've been feeling so detached from this blog and i didn't know why, but after talking about it i think it's purely because last year when i hit 4k on my previous blog i deleted it shortly after due to an overwhelming amount of hate.

hitting 4k here is unreal and i wish i could personally thank every one of you who follows me for supporting me and my writing even if it's always off the walls and crazy. (y'all begged for and read a tentacle porn fic from me??? that crazy, i love you guys sm.) but with hitting 4k has come an overwhelming wave of anxiety that somehow, something is going to happen and i don't know what. i'm grateful, of course, for all of you psychopaths (<3) that read my writing and indulge in the delulu with me, but all of that positivity, right now, cannot conquer the negativity that's sort of just swirling around in my head at the moment.

i want to try and push that feeling away and i want to regrow my attachment to this blog - i want to feel the passion for writing again and i want to strengthen my love for skz as a group because if i'm honest, it's been dwindling.

i'm sure you all know, i suck at events. i suck at finishing them, i suck at writing and creating them. so i'm not calling this an event; let's think of it as.. starting fresh. rather than giving up on the blog like i've debated doing, i'm going to try and do something i think is fun for not only you but also myself - not something i'll slave over writing and dread doing for days on end. remember that nsfw ice cream event i mentioned doing for 4k as a possibility? we're bringing her back.

give me some time, but soon i'll be posting a menu of sorts that you can place a custom order from. it's going to be short answers, short scenarios, not even drabble length replies but fun nonetheless. maybe we'll find out chan's favorite position or the toys minho chooses to use on you; or maybe we'll get to see what kind of content innie uses to get off.

either way - i just want it to be fun. whether you choose to be included or not, whether you read this whole spiel or not, thank you for being here and putting up with me while i've been distant. thank you for waiting for me.

(and yes, my concussion is getting better. stitches out soon. <3)

love you guys and looking forward to our future endeavors together,

mama bboki

[bbokicidal]

I didn’t think people really cared for my angst omg !!

Blog recommendations: Heartwrenching angst!

Some of the blogs with the best angst on Tumblr!

Check them out, though you’d better prepare tissues. Lots of tissues.

In the spotlight, a selected work to get you started!

Genre: angst

Blogs: 9

@lieslab

Written works

> [They find you battling suicide] in the spotlight

Definitely the Queen of angst for me.

Whether it is heart wrenching angst that leaves me bawling or hurt and comfort, the feelings are always delivered.

Especially recommended for hurt/comfort because while the angst is sublime, I find myself particularly drawn by the comforting fics, which feel like a warm blanket during a storm.

Also, can handle perfectly very heavy themes which are honestly so hard to write but she succeeds splendidly, delivering perfection each time!

@rmview

Written works

> [You disappear after a fight] in the spotlight

Mostly short drabbles that hit you directly in the heart.

Well depicted scenarios that will make you cry.

Latest heartbreak? The cold shoulder. I can’t even begin to describe how much it made me tear up.

Love the use of dialogue and very romantic quotes, let me tell you that.

All lines hit so good!

If you see me crying I am not… I just contracted ✨emotions✨

@thewinter-eden

Fake texts and written works

> [“Insecurity” series] in the spotlight

While her crack!Horror written fic series deserves an award with how funny it is (like really, check that out cause I love it), we are talking angst and so I present to you other two lovely series: Insecurity series (which has been completed) and the Jealousy series (who’s first part has yet to be released and I’m so hyped already!).

Through messages the feelings, misunderstandings and heartbreak hit deeply but, thankfully, she’ll break your heart then mend it back up during the resolution!

Unique scenarios (and for those who like me enjoy a well created coherent world surrounding parts of the same fic, there’s lore hidden in all the parts and references) with unique feels that will make you cry and then kick you feet up giggling!

@chlix

Fake texts and written works

> [“They call you a gold digger” series] in the spotlight

From assholes to regretful beggars.

Reader doesn’t always melt the second they say sorry so the resolution (if it doesn’t deservedly end up in a break up) feels much more satisfying!

Will definitely break your heart! Honestly I never knew fake texts could be so heartbreaking before!

Got me addicted to fake texts (first blog whose fake texts I actually liked).

@linoxpudding

Fake texts and written works.

> [“Intern” series] in the spotlight

When I tell you good.

Like fucking perfect.

The heartbreak-laced fake texts are amazing, like Master of Angst level.

I’m bawling in the floor each time I read it and I just wish I could read it for the first time again (though re-reading feels just as good not gonna lie).

And the written Lee Know series “Intern” is just golden.

Emotional constipation met angst with a side of their own genius and that gave birth to a masterpiece.

@bbokicidal

Written works

> [“As we are” series] in the spotlight

Hear me out: she’s known for her nsfw (and like that’s fair because it is top tier) but I think we are underrating her angst because it is just as good.

The cheater series?

The “As we are” series?!

Like damn.

There’s some people who are like “nsfw writers can’t write angst or other genres” and I don’t think it’s true and bbokicidal is the proof of that.

Members’ corner

@lovetaroandtaemin

Written works

> [“Bad Dates and Bad Luck”] in the spotlight

Only one stray kids piece but so damn good.

Bad Dates and Bad Luck is a work of art.

Got me crying all my tears over words on a screen.

Almost changed my bias for that like damn… who hurt ya (lemme kill them)?

If you also like Seventeen, definitely check that out but be ready to get out of it heartbroken and emotionally unstable.

That’s how good it is.

@fenya-scribbles

Written works

> [Secret] in the spotlight

Okay, if you know Fenya you’ll be like “that’s a sunshine, how could they write angst well?”.

Spoiler alert, they can and have.

Absolutely adore it.

Like top notch angst for real, with the right amount of hurt to balance the comforting hug you get at the end.

The carrot and the stick made fics, basically, but for your heart: comfort and angst all wrapped in a literary masterpiece.

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@lov3rachan

Written works

> [“Loving you is a losing game” series] in the spotlight

You might like my “Loving you is a losing game” series. Probably not but who knows.

If you really have no angst left, check it out.

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[bbokicidal]

pls be so fr y'all know if you want to dm me you can, right? im nothing special and im literally just a 22 year old girl who ogles pretty men and has a nasty mind. (this is my cry for more friends pls text me im too scared to reach out first bc what if yall secretly hate me LOLOL)

[bbokicidal]

Pro tip: writing gets a lot easier when you quit caring what other people say about it <3

Aka if you comment “it was good until ___” I do not care LMAO

[bbokicidal]

I’m not saying that I know that Jisung is a completely submissive man in the bedroom but I AM saying I know that he whines no matter what position he’s in. ☝🏻🧐

[bbokicidal]

I was going to post Chan's ice cream parlor post but i got distracted by BTS music so im gonna go binge old dance practice videos i use to watch when i was like 16 and bawl my eyes out

love u guys have a great night and ill post tomorrow !! <33

[bbokicidal]

Yall my one year anniversary of having this blog will be on the day I go to my SKZ concert!!! 😭😭😭

[bbokicidal]

real followers remember when my user was @/bokkicidal until i realized like 2 months in that i spelled it wrong and changed it to @/bbokicidal, in which i also had to change every fucking link on my acc bc they didnt work with the new user.

[bbokicidal]

i'm actually getting out of the house for once and going out tonight, so no new writings. BUT, ill be back home sometime tomorrow (early-ish) so expect changbins ice cream parlor post tomorrow ~~

[bbokicidal]

lowkey highkey regretting not buying the skz merch when it came out lil while ago. like the little keychains that are open on the bottom, the teddys. idgaf about the tamagotchis them mfs were EXPENSIVE.

[bbokicidal]

THEME OMGOMGIMG

Themeeeeee!! Omg I feel like it’s not that good but I like the poetic blue vibes ig