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noctomania · 5 years

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A Lesson To Learn From James Charles

He is by no means a unique situation regardless of sexuality. And by no means is this intended as an excuse for his actions because there is no excuse, it’s a matter, in my perspective, of prioritization. Mind you I have not consumed really any of his content only snippets of him here and there, but what I have seen is very reflective of what I have seen in others. It’s also confusing because he is selfish and self-absorbed, but that does not mean he values himself. There is a distinct difference between the two and i think it’s common for people to conflate the two. Valuing one’s self requires a certain level of empathy which he lacks. When you lack that empathy you will engage in selfish behavior and conceded perspective, and prioritize desires over other’s, and your own, basic needs.

Here is the thing. When you put relationships or sex on a pedestal, you are prioritizing it. When you prioritize something, you deem it more important than anything else. This, in turn, can effect your ability to, or your focus on, empathy. Empathy is essential to being able to respect others, their boundaries, and allow yourself to grow.

From what i have seen of James is that he seemed to hone in a lot on the “forever alone” trope. This train of thought has become signature for people who tend to make it seem like they are some how a victim or been unjustly registered as “undeserving” of a relationship. Mind you - I used to be quite like this myself. I have also known people myself who were the same way, and they actually too made me uncomfortable by not respecting my own boundaries. What happens though, is that when you take on this type of mindset- the one that frames yourself as unjustly damned to being single and that you’re suffering simply because nobody is dating you - is you are only hurting yourself and in a number of ways. First being that you are setting yourself up for disaster. Second being that you are telling everyone else that you can’t stand to be with yourself - so why should anyone else want to? And lastly as i said before you are neglecting your empathy which can in turn cause you to do really uncalled for and harmful things to others, because in your mind you have a right when you actually do not.

To expand on the first note, when you entertain the “forever alone” shit, you are in fact setting yourself up for the worst kind of reaction when the inevitable happens. No relationship - whether purely sex-based and/or romantic- is a guarantee success. You simply cannot go into it thinking that way. There is always potential that things will not work out and it is not really anyone’s fault, people just don’t always jive together that way. And if you take into account the split attraction model it can clarify why you thought there was potential when there wasn’t. It could be yall would just make really great friends, just not lovers. And that is more than okay and should not be thought of as “less than” a romantic and/or sexual relationship.

When someone breaks it off with you in that sense, and you allow yourself to fall into the “I KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN BC NOBODY LOVES ME”, you are willingly throwing away all the good that is still there simply because you didn’t get what you want - and that would turn anyone off any kinda relationship with you platonic or otherwise. I know this because I’ve been there, before I understood all this truly. I understand the heartache that can come from things not working out how you wanted them to, but you could either choose to destroy potential friendship, or you could choose to moderate your heartache and understand that it isn’t necessarily a reflection of you so much as just a basic part of the process. If you take the first choice, it is a rash one and setting yourself up for even more disaster and advertising to those around you that you can’t handle the basic processes of seeking a relationship and dealing with disappointment. Also that you can’t seem to stand being alone.

Your entire life, you are the one who spends the most time with yourself. When you obsess over finding someone to be with, you are procrastinating being alone with yourself. You run the risk of smothering someone, you make it seem necessary to have someone desire you at all times and gauge your self-worth on that. Sure having a partner can be a good time, but when you prioritize it over everything else you are simultaneously not only degrading the value of your own self-love but also the love of your friends and family. Mind you, there is a lot of societal stigma to being single - i know this first hand. You are absolutely treated differently. Even by your friends sometimes. I’ve known several people who couldn’t stand to be alone and they were ritually the opposite of sunshine friends. So sunshine friends are around when things are great and when you’ve down they disappear. The opposite i’m referring to when a friend is only around when they are broken up with or single and use you as a temporary placeholder for the time they would be spending with a partner. Then when they find someone knew to date suddenly they are unavailable as a friend. That is not a good friend, and that is not how you show you value someone’s time. It also becomes clear that you aren’t really thinking of others as much as you are thinking about yourself.

Empathy is an essential foundational component to building any relationship whether platonic or otherwise. If it’s just all about you, you will inevitably neglect their needs, and prioritize not only your needs but your desires over their basic needs. We can see this pretty clearly in how James treated the straight boys he pressured. Instead of respecting their boundaries and who they are, he prioritized his desire for them to not only be available to him but also to desire him. In turn he rejected their identity that they respectfully presented to him after clear reflection, and turned around and made himself out to be a victim simply because they didn’t give him what he wanted. If he had empathy he would swallow his ego, accept them, and move on with himself and heal himself. Nobody owes you a relationship - full stop. That is something you need to earn, and even if you have earned it that doesn’t mean it would work out. Like I said before, some people just don’t jive. Just because you’re there doesn’t guarantee they will be, and that is part of empathy. Your experience and feelings are not universal. Reflect on it. Think how you would feel if someone told you straight up that you are lying about who you are. Gas-lighting you. After you spent time experimenting, reflecting, researching, etc. Demeaning what you feel and think and know about yourself. Manipulating you to make you believe that valuing yourself is an offense to them. It’s not okay and nobody should ever be made to feel that way.

Nobody will know you better than yourself. Even if you can’t stand to be alone with yourself you will still know yourself better than anyone else. Like i said before, you spend the most time with yourself than anyone else. Nobody is in your head more than you. In my perspective it is worth accepting that inevitable fact and leaning into it so that you get to know yourself better, come to value yourself and being with yourself more, and don’t chalk your self-worth up to how many people/whether someone will desire you. James had it all: fame, family, friends, wealth, and also likely had many followers who did desire him. He didn’t value it though and when he didn’t get one thing or one person that he wanted he acted in uncalled for ways. In the past I have also acted out unjustly because I got hurt. Mind you I don’t have what James does, but I still felt entitled enough to offend. Now that I’ve grown and made myself stop prioritizing being in a relationship, I’ve come to recognize how harmful those actions were. Take rejection with grace and do not feed into the desire to hurt others just because you feel hurt. Break that cycle. Being rejected or broken up with is not ever a unique experience as hard as that may be to hear. It doesn’t entitled you to infringe on other’s basic rights. It entitled you to getting drunk, eating a pint of ice cream, and/or dancing to your favorite nostalgic music in your underwear at 3am. When you hurt the only way to properly combat that is self care, not harm to others.

Anyway i’m still in recovery from my cold so i think im gonna wrap it there. Just always take the opportunity to learn from other’s mistakes so that you do not replicate them or continue a vicious cycle. Give yourself permission to grow up. What is right is not always going to be easy, but in the long run will be best for all involved. Do your part to lessen the damage to yourself and others.

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panda-noosh · 6 years

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Since you like angst i can be your angst/smut fairy! I was wondering if I could get the paladins(+Matt) react to their s/o having a heart problem (like, they went in for 4 open heart surgeries) suddenly collapsing and dying bc their heart is collapsing because of their valve collapsing in on them, and their in space and the s/o can't get another surgery? Sorry if this isn't descriptive, so, if you need me too i'll send a PM with the details~

Here you go! x

Shiro:

He was with you every step of the way through the four openheart surgeries.

He wouldn’t let you go into the surgery room on your own,wouldn’t let you do anything on your own. He stayed on earth for a few monthsafter each one just so he could look after you and make sure you were gettingthe right care that you needed.

Each time, he had been a complete nervous wreck, because heknew of the risks. He knew it could have ended badly.

But after your fourth successful open heart surgery, Shirowas told that you would be fine and that the risk of your heart giving out nowwas very slim.

So he had hope.

Hope that was shattered on the morning he woke up to thesound of you collapsing on your way to the bathroom.

He had taken you back to space thinking you would be fine,that there would be absolutely zero risk of this happening, and yet you were,in his arms, losing consciousness as you struggled to even breathe through thepain that was crashing through you.

Whenever Shiro gets the news that the surgery hadn’t workedto the extent the doctor described, that you hadn’t made it, his entire worldsplits in half.

He can barely hold himself upright. He ends up collapsingright then and there, in front of the Paladins, in front of the people he wassupposed to look strong for.

But he doesn’t care.

Keith:

He didn’t want you to go back to space with him in the firstplace.

He’s always been a little anxious about that – you two aremost definitely childhood sweethearts, so he’s been with you through everysingle surgery and he’s seen every single heart issue you’ve gone through.

He knows how strong you are and how well you fight througheach and every obstacle, but even though he had been assured that you wereokay, he doesn’t want to take the risk of taking you away from aneasily-accessible hospital.

You assure him you’re fine, and he really has no otherargument.

So whenever your heart gives out and there’s no hospital forhim to take you to, it’s safe to say that, after the wave of absolute despairceases, it’s replaced with this life-changing guilt that he can’t shake off.

After he’s completely lost himself in his own mind,destroyed his bedroom, broken things and told each and every Paladin to fuckoff, he just kind of curls up and basks in this wave of self-hatred because hetruly believes it’s his fault for letting you come with him this time.

Lance:

He was very excited to have you coming into space with him.

It had been his dream for the longest time to have you joinhim on at least one of his missions, have you meeting Allura and Coran and theother Paladins, but you were never in well-enough health to be able to do that.

And he understood that at the time, and it wasn’t that bigof a deal to him. He liked having an excuse to go to earth to see you and hisfamily anyway.

But finally, you were in space with him, and you seemperfectly fine.

Until you collapse.

Lance catches you before you even touch the floor, and heknows immediately what is going on. He starts screaming at the top of hislungs, begging Coran to help, to do something, and they try everything.

They put you in a healing pod, and Coran tries to do amedical examination on your slowly-dying body, but there’s no use.

Lance barely believes it whenever Coran walks out of theinfirmary and shakes his head.

He’s in complete denial for a little while. He walks intothe room and just sits by your body, not letting anybody move you or touch youor see you.

Only him. Only he’s allowedto see you.

Hunk:

Hunk would be an anxious mess whenever you first went intospace with him.

He had told everyone to take the best precautions possible,to make sure to not bump into you or get you overly worked up.

And you have to remind him that you have had four,successful open heart surgeries and your doctor has assured you countless timesthat you are, indeed, fine, but Hunk doesn’t want to hear it.

He leads you onto the ship with very slow steps, guiding youwith his arm and pushing everybody else out of the way as if you’re an elderlyperson with a walking stick.

He truly believes he had everything set in place for yourstay.

He seemed to have forgotten the lack of hospitals that spacehas.

So whenever you’re collapsing, he doesn’t know what to do,and it’s a moment of true, hot red panic that courses through him.

He helps Coran set you up in the infirmary, sits in thecorner.

He watches you die.

He doesn’t cry at first. I don’t really think he feelsanything at first – nothing but disbelief. It’s like it hasn’t even settled inyet.

Not until Coran is trying to take your body out so you canbe properly mourned, and Hunk is grabbing for your cold and lifeless hand andbegging them to just let him be with you for another few minutes.

It’s safe to say he never truly forgives himself for lettingyou enter space with him.

Pidge:

She was pretty confident in the idea of you being able tocome onto the ship with her.

You all know shetook the most thorough precautions. She basically annihilated every single riskthat the ship held.

And she was so excitedfor your arrival, too. She was giddy for once, jumping around the ship andtelling everyone about how excited she was that you were finally coming to seeher, that she hasn’t seen you in ages.

And everybodies like, “Is this the person you’re on Skypewith every night, talking about open heart surgeries?”

Pidge just gives them the proudest grin in the world,because she’s deadass so proud of the fact that you’re finally showing off howhealthy you are and how far you’ve come with your heart problems.

Everybody treats you like god damn royalty as soon as youshow your face, but it’s also expected that they’re a little careful aroundyou, as anybody would be.

But this isn’t that big of an issue, because you still feelwelcomed and everybodies nice so meh.

But then you feel something going wrong. You feel the pain,and your breathing becomes laboured and you can no longer stand up withoutfeeling like your legs are made of rubber.

Pidge notices it, tries to grab for you, but you’reunconscious in seconds, falling to the floor and Pidge screams.

She’s grabbing you and opening up your shirt before anybodyhas even entered the room to help her, and she’s sobbing as she does so,begging you to be okay, saying to nobody and everybody that she doesn’tunderstand how this happened, how it’s possible.

And you die in her arms.

It happens so quickly that she can barely process it.

She’s trying to make up an excuse, trying to tell everybodythat you’re fine and that you’re just playing one of your usual “practicaljokes!” on her.

Matt has to drag her away from your body so they can see toyou without her shoving their hands away.

“What are you doing? Don’t touch her! Don’t touch her!”

Matt:

Another very anxious boy.

He doesn’t want you in space. He really doesn’t want you being away from a hospital.

But at the same time, he also wants you to join him just forthe experience, but again, he’s much more concerned about your safety and yourhealth than his own needs.

So it takes months foryou to persuade him to let you join him. Months,and even after he’s oh-so-hesitantly agreed, he’s still very clearly unsureabout the idea.

I think it’s Pidge that would finally tell him to loosen upand let you live a little.

So he agrees, and in no time, you’re joining him on theship.

For the first few days, all is well. You and Pidge arecatching up after so long of being away from each other, and the other Paladinslove you.

They all ask about the open heart surgeries, finding theminteresting. You don’t hesitate to tell them about them, feeling proud ofyourself for getting through them and now being able to share your story.

Matt really begins to loosen up, reassured that you knowyour way around and you know your own limits. He doesn’t have to worry, doeshe?

Not until about a month into your stay – it’s so unexpected.

He hears you sobbing from upstairs first. It’s breakfast,and he had left you to sleep in for the time being since you two had gotten alate night the night before.

Whilst he’s sitting preparing breakfast for himself and theother Paladins, the sound of your gut wrenching sob and yell sounds through thekitchen. He drops everything almost immediately and sprints upstairs.

You’re already on the floor, unconscious, by the time heopens the bedroom door.

Everybody else is working, trying to find some way to makeyou better with the limited resources they have. Matt is yelling at them fromthe door, panicked, being completely useless but he doesn’t know what else todo.

“She needs her doctor. Her doctor knows what to do!”

That’s all he can say. Doctor.Doctor. Doctor.

A human doctor, on earth. Which you currently don’t have accessto.

Whenever the news arrives that you didn’t make it, Mattcan’t even cry. He slumps against the wall for hours, just staring intonothingness, thinking up every scenario, trying to excuse it, trying to findevery reason he can to blame himself.

#voltron headcanon #request

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survivorelara · 6 years

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Episode #1: “So thank you Gods and Goddesses.” -Ci’ere

three people on this tribe are 100% pros they have mangastars as their pfp im scared

Okay, this is my second time typing this because I accidentally deleted the first attempt ASDF. Hello every1 out there 👽 I'm so thrilled to be playing Elara because I know that the hosts are going to make this an awesome experience! We began our journey about an hour & a half ago, but something tremendous has already occured... I happened to snatch the Zosma idol on my first guess! Something about the placement of the 39th star spoke to me & luck was definitely on my side, so thank you celestial gods and goddesses! I’m kind of wondering if the idol locations & the iconic phrase “18 people, 39 days, 1 Survivor” have any correlation. Hmm. :O Even though I have some power to fall back on now, I don’t wanna have to rely on the idol to save myself so I’m stepping up to the plate socially to hopefully solidify myself in this group. I was hyped before, but this hype train has went through the ceiling!

Not only am I in this game with like many other Facebook ORGers.... I'm the least popular of them all. Like I see Emma, Ci'ere, Andrea and Toby... like they have a good friend group and people generally like them. Me on the other hand, I get easily annoyed with certain people and groups within this community and I have been told that I am a rainy and dark cloud. I mean, LOVE the comparison... but when you're in a "scavenger hunt" and one of the things is to get 50 reactions on a post and I average about 5-6... it ain't looking good for this bitch. And ITS ONLY DAY 1.

Great question. I am trying to figure that out. I realize not knowing discord puts me at s disadvantage. Let’s hope we win till I can figure it out.

Well I like this tribe, I'm feeling good about things at the moment, I've talked to loris, Andreaa, and John who I had a prior relationship with. They all seem nice enough. I'm hoping to make more connections with people in the near future, because with only 6 people on the tribe I need to make ABSOLUTE sure I'm in the numbers.

I'm such a flop, I did almost all my voice recordings on my phone while I accidentally left voice chat on. My Computer Mic isn't great and it was only for a little while, nobody said anything, so I don't know if anybody caught anything I might have said for the challenge, but the worst thing that might have been caught was my statement about Dani

We're approaching the end of Day 1 and I don't think I've made much progress with anyone other than John... this tribe is very quiet, and I don't know if that's due to many different timezones, or inactivity, or what have you. Regardless I'm a little worried about this challenge, but hopefully a win can be pulled out.

Its so quiet dawg

ok i love selfie scavenger hunts so this challenge is great. as for my tribe mates, roxy and i are in F6 in atomic together, so thats a interesting. Drew H was in that season and like. i have no idea what our relationship is going to be like ydgfs. the only person who I haven't talked to at all is Odd. i should get on that

Oh these motherfuckers think they got me found. They think they know me. Expect drama.

My tribe is ducking stacked with people I like so this is hot hopefully we can get this scav hunt done and get max point WEW

Well. I’m doing another one. Do I have the time? Nope! Is this a good idea? No ma’am/sir. But I’m doing it anyway. This is an...interesting tribe for me to be on. I have my one true love, Sam Drachus, and a tribe of people that probably don’t know he’s my husband. Of course, a pregame relationship never equates to an ingame relationship necessarily, so I will not rest in my socialisation (especially given I will have ass for physical game for a while). Louise I’ve hosted twice, Ci’ere I’ve hosted and played with. Dani and Brian I don’t really know properly but they seem very inactive. I am quite sure we will lose this challenge, but hopefully I can be active and bond-build enough to be Victorious!!

i hate this challenge because im so lazy

hi!! so my social game is going pretty good so far, i'm v tight with andrea, emma and i said we don't want each other to go, john's an icon and i like talking to zach. kori doesn't talk a lot so he'll probably be an ez boot. also i think im gonna end up with the most points for our immunity so that'll probably let me be spared if we do end up losing :)))). ALSO,,,,,,,,, i found the legacy advantage bc i clicked on seamus' manga on the tumblr?? of course they hid it behind the ugly one... no one looks there.

So our first challenge is a cute scavenger hunt & one of the 10 point items is getting 50 likes on a FB post. When I initially made the post, only a few people reacted to it so I knew I was going to have to do something drastic in order to get more people’s attention. I stole Nicki Minaj’s brand & started running KWEENT (6 letters Jack :p) Radio! I put in a lot of work to get people to help me out, but I also wanted to have fun with it & in the end it paid off. I’mma bit worried however since only Louise, Sam & I have made contributions to the challenge thus far. We don’t have that much time left & there’s still three empty columns... I’ve been talking a lot to Dani who I find I probably relate to the most. They made it pretty far in the actual Survivor casting process & they have also been talking to Sam. Sam is so nice & has that straight male humor, YEET. Louise is obviously a kween & we’ve played together before so I think I could work something out with her? Toby’s timezone & schedule is tough to work through, but I think I might be able to charm him up hehe. Brian is the only person that hasn’t shown any sign of life so I’ve been pushing for him, but of course he shows up now ASDFG.

Did so many challenges but have trouble uploading to gdoc

Anxiety is a bitch. Like I already have alot of it due to work and school, but for us to be submitting things for the scavenger hunt last minute... that made my heart quicken a bit more than needed. ESPECIALLY if your video links for the video portion of the hunt DON'T WORK. Like wth ODD? Like if you're gonna submit late.. like at least check the damn links so you can actually win the points for the videos that you are submitting. OH AND IN OTHER WORDS. I didn't think Jack was gonna view my poem to him. And he watched it. I have no words. Like let me die of embarrassment because I am flummoxed with a straight man once again in my life. ALL FOR 6 MEASLY POINTS IN A GAME! LIKE WHAT THE FUCK!?

That's so FETCH! Even with Odd's bumbling incapabilities, he can make us get a narrow win for reward! Maybe my frustrations were misplaced with him! But I am glad that I will not be the first boot and get to stay here for another 3 days or so! Pumped!

well just as i thought,,, TRASH this tribe has good people that i like but apart from ci'ere CHILEEEEEEE we sucked so bad we didn't deserve to win. I think it's brian that's going tbh he wasn't active till the last 4? hours of the comp and people have already said if we lose it's him so yikes guess that's what is happening.

we won the challenge which is actually surprising. Odd's links didn't work but if they did I would've had the lowest score. I was gonna do so much more but my phone won't charge !! and i went to a college fair ok. I love how i said i was good at comps during my live interview. i swear im not a liar hosts

Woo we won, I put a fair amount of work in, so I'm glad we got results... unfortunately it didn't REALLY matter because of how badly the losing tribe did.

I think I have a decent shot of making a 4-person alliance with John, Andrea, and Loris. Hopefully I can get that going through. Emma is LIKELY the weak link on the tribe, which is fine by me she has yet to talk to me really, so I'd have no qualms voting her out.

I have a funny story. I spent a half hour walking and looking for a license plate with ce on it. I had to use scooter plates. Half the cars only have one letter. When I finally found the plate parked in front of a restaurant . I got on one knee to take the pic. It was night so flash went out. A guy came out and demanded I delete the photo. Not kidding. He was not happy. I couldn’t explain what I was doing. I deleted it. He drove away. I was really bummed. So I got on my motorcycle and drove to the university where I knew there were hundreds of scooters. I slowly drove while looking on both sides of the parking lot. I must of looked at more than 500 plates. Finally I found one. Guess what? It was the same scooter from earlier. This time the guy not around. I was still really nervous like I was breaking the law. When the flash went off I was waiting for the guy to start running at me. He didn’t. Success.

Well, I'm a bit scared. Apparently, Sam has already found something? Or someone has... Item 39 purportedly received the "There was something there, but isn't anymore" treatment, which is Scary AF! Like, if someone has an idol THIS early in the game...if I got idol'd out THIS early in the game!!

But, I suspect that whatever was hidden in Position 39 was not, in fact, an idol, but was rather some clue or aspect to the idol system. 50 possibilities isn't enough of a competition space for an idol search, right? I mean, I bloody hope so because the alternative is that a Zosma idol is already flying around at the literal first tribal council and, man, I don't need that paranoia right now.

Winning this challenge was way easier than I expected, I figure some inactive is about to die on the other tribe so no worries there. I had a blast this thing is gonna be a fun time if the challenges continue to be similar to this.

Well it's day 2, John and Andreaa seem on board for an alliance, now all I need is to hear what Loris thinks and if he seems on board, I've got my 4-some right there. Which'll leave Emma and Big Z on the outs. Which is fine, we could even split the votes in case of an idol if we felt like it.

But I can't afford to get too comfortable, players can be real snakes and I can't let myself be too trusting. I just have to work on being super relateable and someone people feel comfortable talking to.

I just hope I didn't start "talking game" too early…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Onr3BoPGJzA

I guess I cast assess now! Loris: he is a mood and playing hard but he likes me so for now we r gucci. He is super fun to talk to and we share idol guesses so hes aight! I dont want to work long term with him. Kori: Yikes. He's super inactive but he was like i like u lets form an alliance so ofc I'm like ok. He left me on read on the first day and randomly offered and im like k wyd i wasnt born yesterday Emma: Queen? I knew her before this we used to be married until she deactivated and I divorced her but like that literally not even the point. Shes kinda inactive and very on the bottom besides Kori so I'm hoping I can convince Loris to keep her if we go to tribal twice. Big Z: Ok I have never met him before now but OMG ive heard so much about him AND I LOVE HIM!!! I get the hype and then some. I wish we talked more. I 100% would not vote him or Emma out rn. John: he's cool! I havent talked to him too much but were in an alliance Basically im really happy we won LMAO. I am in an alliance I have no plans of following through with. life is interesting. I may just go off the rails. I am predicting Brian goes home because Zosma is a facebook clusterfuck right now.

I’m winning this org... I’m in a silly alliance with kori Andrea and John that I’m not gonna take seriously but kori probably will... me and Andrea are rlly good allies and I have the legacy??? give me my money

We lost the challenge by a landslide. https://tenor.com/view/davonne-rogers-pretends-to-be-gif-6175133

Zosma was 400+ points behind the other tribes so they really did snatch us huh. I’m happy to hear that they’re active though unlike some of my tribemates for the past two days l m a o. I scored more than half of our aggregate, so I think I should be set to survive this vote.

Toby wants to share idol info and I can’t decline that so I gave him fake receipts hehe. He also stated that I’m the person he’s connected to the most. Sam says that I’m easy to talk to as well, so I think my social game is going pretty well at the moment!

Sam wants to vote for anybody that isn’t him & he also said he loved me 😳 L i s t e n: love is a BIG word (to me at least) & you can’t just throw it out to anyone & their mother, Sam. Louise is in the same mindset as myself as she’s talked to Toby/Dani more than Brian so let’s just snipe Brian right? Well, Toby comes to me after scoring 0 & says he has a “gut feeling” that we should vote out Dani because Brian is preoccupied with Mount Olympus. Does that make any sense? We just lost the challenge by an extremely large margin & you want to keep the person that doesn’t prioritize this game? Go to sleep Toby, you’re drunk. I guess it’s hard to judge who will be more active since it’s only round uno. Dani was present, but only sent in one thing…& Brian had internet problems. I had a great conversation with Dani the first day, but it’s day three now. Should I stick my neck out for him? I told Toby what he wanted to hear because it was 3AM for him & he wanted to sleep, but there’s still a lot of time left & I want Brian dead.

I need to talk to people more often hn

I mean this vote is as simple as it gets, it's basically a battle of which inactive should we kick. Most votes seem to be going on brian, which I do feel bad about cuz I love him in mount Olympus and feel he could easily be a number to drag. but at the same time he's been so inactive to the point where he'll probs just die at a swap or something. I feel bad for toby since he already voted dani but im sure he'd understand with all the timezone differences, I would like dani to go but if brian stayed, we would probs lose again then he would just leave so rip

Hi!! It's me john coffey!!! So I love the theme of my tribe being like the emotional players and I love the vibe of all my tribemates. However I know that the emotional players are also sometimes the messiest players because I forsure fall into that category sometimes!! So far I have just been trying to chill tf out and get to know people, and use the scavenger hunt to show that I really want to be here. I may not have as much to offer in future tribe challenges so I like being able to use scavenger hunts to really go ham. I got the highest score on our tribe and I think the second highest behind Roxy so woo! Now let's move on to my fellow tribe mates. Kori - the only person I was familiar with going into this game. I played with him in my most recent game where he witnessed me win. We had a good bond the entire game but he also voted for me when he thought I was the majority vote, setting aside any connection I had made with him, so that is always kinda going to be on my mind in this game. But as of now he is the person I trust the most. Andrea - I LOVE her! We bonded quickly over being messes so that's always fun. I could see myself growing close with her in this game. Loris- I really like him, I always like British guys LOL it's been kinda difficult getting to talk to him at a time that works for both of us but I really like him so far Emma- she hosted me a few years ago though I didn't know it was her at first, I like her but haven talked to her as much as the others Big z - I like him though we haven't talked too much but I immediately see him as my biggest threat at this point. Just something about him idk.

As far as other tribe members go - drew Heuser is one of my favorite people to have played orgs with. He was the reason I was first boot in my first Tumblr game but has remained a dear friend of mine ever since. I met him in person and he's the besssst. If I have a chance to play with him I'm excited to see what the outcome will be.

https://youtu.be/TfQ4Xmeb2J8

Brian is voted out 5-1.

#episode #flyinghigh

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