#bc i dont believe in hell so the fear behind saying something blasphemous while god is hearing me (im a bit delusional it's ok i deal w it | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

the-acid-pear · 2 years

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I am normal again rn but it's annoying how big my fear of disappointing people is. Obviously just a side effect of getting punished for even the smallest stupidest of things but y'know. Even bled into my fucking religious trauma which IS kind of funny.

#luly talks #bc i dont believe in hell so the fear behind saying something blasphemous while god is hearing me (im a bit delusional it's ok i deal w it #well) isnt eternal damnation but just disappointing him 💀💀💀#but it's also why i am so 🧍 whenever i am w someone outside like what if i do something i shouldn't and i get scolded?#even if its tiny things that i know aren't bad like saying hi to someone or whatever i still im scardd because WHAT IF y'know?#obviously being autistic doesn't help w this fear bc there's a lot of social rules i learnt the hard way and i can never be sure of knowing #them all so #brain stuff

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