#bc i'd just go through an entire artist for things that Fit

[clear-what-i-was-seeing]

my hannibal playlist is 376 songs help

[inkofamethyst]

January 16, 2024

Okay, now I get it. He's tall (too tall imo (he's seven feet tall but his height is never compared to anyone else's so I don't know if he's a freak of nature or what)), physically and socially powerful, passionate without selfishness, protective, honorable, and has a hidden artistic side. He has a temper but would never violate a woman or an oath. And he's madly in love, soft (and hard heheh) only for her. He's about as perfect a man as one could enjoy reading about. She's been mostly unloved and unappreciated her entire life. She's stubborn and adventurous and has a fearful power about her that she must keep controlled, but she's also kind and witty, observant with a bit of that "born sexy yesterday" in her. Ultimately, she can be projected onto.

The story got more interesting after the first third (which I believe was rushed to get to "the good part", in the sense that I would've wanted the story to start earlier and flesh the world out more) and has even become somewhat enjoyable around the halfway point. It's about 60/40 romance/plot, which I suppose isn't too bad, but we'll see if the plot bit holds up (really hope something's building here). [edit, ~70%: FINALLY. I didn't guess correctly but I knew something was up. Hoping (in vain, I'm sure) there's more subterfuge n political drama.]

Wonder if my mild hostility to romance comes from not daring to hope that I could experience something like that. ... Hm. Not gonna think about that anymore bc if true then my mother was right several years ago and that would make me go berserk :)

Granted there are things about this particular romance that are weird. But I'm getting through it.

In other news, the Justice League series finale was so good. I've gone back in to JLU just before I'd left off and UGH I should've just started from BTAS to begin with, everything makes so much more sense and the beats hit harder.

Made turkey stroganoff and it was just as amazing as when I made it for the first time last year. So simple, so flavorful. Every day I look forward to dinner :D

I think the most difficult part of learning how to code from scratch this semester is going to be getting over the activation energy to start projects with trial and error rather than sitting around thinking through the perfect solution without actually trying anything. We shall see. I just really want to learn how to think about code in style. I don't want to be intimidated by it anymore. I think I should be good at it. I've generally been adept at breaking down and solving mathematical word problems. I can do this, I can.

Today I'm thankful for the snow!!!!! Woke up to a winter wonderland, walked through it in my cute lil 'fit!!!

forgot how much of a slut i am for i adore epic music actually,, this stuff bangs,,,, likeeee the city must survive @ 1:42 ?!?!?!?! what a THEME (discovered it last year and it nourishes my soul) strings and brass will do it for me every time. every. single. time.