#bcuz it just shuts down all conversation + all opportunity for me to say my piece

[bioethicists]

it truly gets to me in a way that it probably shouldn't when people address my psych abolition stances not on the points themselves but on the idea that i'm some sort of clueless conspiracy theorist who doesn't even know the basic arguments or definitions of psychiatry. it's so deeply demoralizing to be suffer under a system for years, dedicate a huge chunk of my academic + vocational work to studying + even working within that system (as i still do!), then spend years reading + writing about critiques of that system, just to have someone be like "oh! you're wrong because you don't know what it is :)". like... why are you so averse to the fact that someone might genuinely understand the inner workings of this system + still have a problem with it? i'm not going to debate with someone whose knee jerk reaction to my carefully planned, always painfully polite btw, explanations of my views is to assume "you don't even have a passing knowledge of this subject"

i understand that it's not usually the intention + the person arguing usually has some sort of defensive attachment to their view of psychiatry which prevents them from even addressing my actual points but it really feels like gaslighting/"you only think poorly of the system which told you you're stupid + crazy bcuz you're stupid + crazy"