#because he could almost be talking about li xiangyi here

[acequinz]

Oh fuck I am in love with him!- headcanons

Li Lianhua

With Di Feisheng there's always been an attraction that Li Lianhua held, like even when he was the leader of sigu sect, he had a lot of responsibilities and already soaring relationship so he never really gave that attraction any space and simply put it in the- respect- corner. Where it stayed until everything fell apart and they met again years later. And the final realisation was when they sat together in the wedding room talking about the fight 10 years ago, finally free from any dust clouding the true nature or their feelings for each other.

It isn't a hit or falling on the face moment but a gentle acceptance as Li Lianhua takes his attraction for dfs out of the respect corner and stores it away in his heart cause he knows it means love and he's happy about it.

With Fang Duobing he knows he finds him attractive at the start- 10/10 cute as fuck but silly enough that I would bang- then he panics a little more but like briefly- wait.... Him oh no, I ended up caring more than I wanted to but oh he's so cute maybe it will be fine, it's not like this will go anywhere- and then it keeps calming and calming and stays in his heart like it was always there as if there's no version of him that wouldn't absolutely adore Fang Duobing.

His feelings for fdb seem to be like a strong river merging with the ocean. They are where they are supposed to be and it calms him in a way he didn't knew love could. Of course he still worries and frets but then he looks at him and it feels okay. It feels good.

Di Feisheng

With Li Xiangyi he has always known but also never felt an urge to act on it, when they first met it was instant when he saw the way he moved with the sword, it was beautiful and strong. How was he to not fall for that? But he was satisfied with them sparring together or fighting a serious battle. Yet he had accepted the peace treaty because LXY was as eloquent and responsible as he was beautiful and strong which only made di feisheng appreciate him more. He knew lxy's heart belonged to another but he was fine with it as long as he could be lxy's rival.

His feelings for LXY relaxed him as much as it burned like passion within him. No one could ignite his passion the way lxy's existence did and that fact itself calmed his heart.

When it came to fang Duobing the acceptance of his feelings was just as smooth. At first he hadn't seen the appeal, sure fang Duobing was an attractive man and had talent but he couldn't really understand why llh cared for him the way he did. Until he did, in the kindness FDB showed for him, whether it was when he didn't know who he was or when he knew who he was. Sure the brat still teased and poked but at the end of the day his care was very visible and it made sense.

FDB grew on DFS just like he had grown on llh and since then there was no escape. Not that dfs really wanted to escape anyway.

Fang Duobing

Now here's a dramatic one. His immediate reaction to romantic feelings is panik!!!!!

When he falls for Li Lianhua, he doesn't even realise it until Dfs enters the picture because that's when his jealousy is at peak, but he still somehow manages to convince himself that it's because Li Lianhua said he was his best friend but now he was doing best friend stuff with dfs and it's not fair! It takes him seeing the way Li Lianhua looks at Qiao Wanmian with genuine affection that breaks his heart in a certain way despite his own jokes about setting them up together to understand that oooohhh it's romantic.

He wants Li Lianhua to look at him like that but he never catches the looks of genuine adoration thrown his way but he does catch them thrown at DFS and that hurts him even more but he perseveres.

With Di Feisheng it's almost easier. Realising that is. He looks at him and fights him and feels genuine appreciation for skills (when he's ignoring the close bond the other holds with llh). And also there's an itch, an itch to push and pull and be pushed and pulled that Di Feisheng seems more than happy to indulge in him, he knows when Di Feisheng is treating him like an unruly brat, been recieving that treatment from his mother and aunt for way too long and so he pushes more for Di Feisheng to look at him for the man he is and not the brat he thinks Fang Duobing is.

He knows he is attracted to Di Feisheng at least sexually because every time he calls out to the other and he materialises out of nowhere, very seamlessly barging into Fang Doubing's space and he starts looking forward to it, then when A-fei actually seems to soften at him, it's just ... Yeah I am in love with him too. FUCKK!!!!