#being sad about icarus and isla again

[sage-is-in-fact-very-tired]

something about how if Icarus died in the cave they never would've known - never would've had the opportunity to know - what Isla's voice sounded like. they never would've known her love and care and gentleness. they never would've known how much she cares about them. they never would've known what unconditional love feels like. they never would've known so much if they died in that cave - they would've missed *so much.*

[sardar106]

I decided that I have thoughts about @emberunderscore's Epic AU so you get them too— (also go check it out if you haven’t already! It’s so good and I eat it up) He already shared many of their thoughts but I'm gonna share some of my Wisdom Saga ones (mostly as the first two one aren’t and the third is debatable—) Also we do be ignoring the god relations in Greek Myths. We close our eyes and ears at them and let them leave our minds. They don’t exist in this AU unless said otherwise

also a bit of a long post so cut

the first “line” is what happens in Epic and the second is how my brain connects it to Fable

- Zeus basically forcing Odysseus to kill the infant - Fable being the lead of arguably all of Icarus' murders

- Zeus making Odysseus imagine Penelope floating towards him in the sky with her hand out and singing a part of Suffering - Fable keeping on reminding Icarus why they’re here. giving them a reason to let the rest of his crew die which goes to

- Zeus being the cause of Odysseus getting to Calypso's island - Fable isolating Icarus then getting to coworkers time

- In Love In Paradise, we get the time dive. Athena seeing the much prominent things that happened to Ody for the past 10 years - Remember the memory Rae had before waking up in s3? Yeah. Similar but now Enderian is good and with a very older Icarus

- Calypso saying "open arms" triggering Odysseus's memory of Polities, Eurylochus, then dead mom times, causing his breakdown - Ven saying something to trigger Athena happy times, Broter argument(s), and sad Isla time. also causing a breakdown

- Ember already talked about this one but— Ody ready to jump from the ledge to the flowing water. If all he’s gonna do the rest of his life is stay on the island, why bother staying alive? The only reason he’s fought monsters and sacrifice his friends is to get to Penelope. He can’t do that now. He can’t go see her. At least he’ll see Polities, Eurylochus, his crew, and his mom? At least he’ll see them…. - Oh, Icarus and your ability to just fall and fall every time. You fell both metaphorically and physically. And yeah— read it again but as Ic. (with the other characters being respective to their role) it’s literally just them.

- Ares being mad that Ody didn’t fight Scylla. I know it’s supposed to be cus he wants death and all that but - Netherum being mad that Ic didn’t fight to protect the ones he cares about. He fought the cyclops and the sirens. why not fight back and sacrifice six of his crew instead.

(we kindly ignore that he would be calling Oscar pathetic and weak and that they accepted cus she said he’ll make everybody bleed) also this is an exception with Netherum and Soul cus they’re Ares and Aphrodite who are married too

- Athena doing everything in her power to save Odysseus - Enderian sacrificing herself to save Rae's life (I care that it's Icarus and not Rae in this AU)

I shared the idea of Zeus being Fable and not Epros. and since they had Hera as Kinaxus cus Zeus was Epros, their possession there was removed as it doesn’t make much sense. which got to Hera being Perix. here are the words that were shared but better (or worse, idk—)

- I get the vibe of Hera calling basically everyone “baby”, which means calling Athena that too, but - what if gay cus Perix would be specifically talking to Enderian. we also know that Perix had feelings for her, so—

- and then we get Hera challenging Athena so she can save Ody. saying “Try harder” and “You can do better than that” to her - I don’t know why, but this gives me them but before Caspian prison times, or even before the resets & the war of the realms. even though Enderian would’ve most likely not tolerated any of it

[sage-is-in-fact-very-tired]

I'm. okay to no one's surprise I'm thinking about one Icarus Morningstar again. Just- okay I definitely didn't have these words the day I should've (Thursday, the 15th) so bar with me as I'm a couple days off, but. It's been 8 months since the cathedral - since centross died, and since icarus had what was pretty much a 5 month long panic. but, I've talked in length about prison duo already, and I can make a separate post for the "They only got to talk for 5 minutes properly, over 3 months ago (some odd years ago for ic), I can't imagine how icarus emotional feels about that on top of everything else" no. this post isn't about prison duo.

no, this post is about something else - which will become clear momentarily.

because, 4 months ago - 4 months to the day after centross' death, Icarus walked into that cave for the first time since it happened. 4 months ago - Icarus saw their mother, not in a painting, not in rae's description, but with their own eyes, for the first time in their current memory. (because well. something happened to their former memories of her that meant they couldn't easily get those back) 4 months ago, Icarus saw their mom. really emphasizing that 4 months. 4 months ago icarus saw their mom with their eyes, face to face, for the first time in their memory. It was also the last time - at least, until they come home. and that's so. it's *so*

like I can't properly articulate how I emotional feel about this but to icarus that was the *only time* in their memory (at least, til they get the rest of them back) they've even seen their mom - they didn't even get to talk to her. just see her from afar in statis. like. I just think about how long its been since Icarus has gotten to *talk* to their mother and it makes me greatly upset. like they only parent in their life was Fable for so long- gosh. I wonder if they still remember what she sounds like. I don't imagine the Worldport gives the most accurate impression, if they were looking in - they probably won't know for centuries, until Sherbert takes up the mantle and. yeah. it kinda leads me back to the "having to be a parental figure for your younger siblings way to young" conversation again but that's not the point of this post . I'm just being sad about icarus and Isla and going rarara-