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cherry-shipping · 10 months

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JESUS. I WANT TO DRAW ME AND SANS. because im out of posts to make about him but i sure as fuck aint out of feelings so thats the only thing i can do to express myself now. except im also out of drawings to make that arent unbearably embarrassing, so………..

#i know i just gotta cognitive behavioral therapy this shit. but its still too embarrassing……….#i can draw us and thats fine but i cant draw the stuff i REALLY wanna draw cause its embarrassing #its. man. whys it all gotta be so embarrassing its been 7 years now #ALSO NOBODY BUT ME REALLY CARES KINDA. i dont mean it like how that sounds btw what i mean is just like #making stuff for other people is easier and makes me more motivated cause then i KNOW theres somebody on the other end #same with general fanart like i know somebodys gonna see it and like it because its of their favorite character or whatever #drawing selfship or even self insert stuff thats just for ME is like. different #so when i say nobody cares i dont mean that in like a. depressing ‘whats the point’ kinda way its just like #its not FOR anybody and even if my friends like seeing selfship stuff from me its not like. argh well you get it #its hard to explain but anyway that makes it way harder for me to get motivated #i wish i was like. two people so i could make selfship art for someone else and 1. not be embarrassed and 2. actually get it DONE #except in the end its just for myself anyway. lol #WAIT I JUST REALIZED THATS WHAT I DO WHEN I GET DRUNJ AND HIGH LMFAO #of course being either of those also Um. affects my drawing abilities. bur still. lol #cherry chats #bleeeeghhh HATE THAT TAG AND ALSO MY URL GOOD GOD I GOTTA CHANGE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

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