#bossy = dominant; outspoken; willing to argue for their point. not giving anyone orders lol but i'm not editing all the tags here | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

electrosquash · 2 years

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Sometimes i tend to be quite bossy at work. But also i'm right. I have a VERY specific model of how to structure our documentation in my mind and i can't have ANY divergence and i WILL argue for it because i honestly believe it's the best path forward.

#personal #so far all discussions we had about it always ended up with my version but they all took several hours until i had everyone convinced #a few years ago i would have said that's just my manipulative traits coming through #but fuck that. i can have a personality without everything immediately being a bpd trait!!!#i used to think breathing in someones presence is manipulation bc i'm manipulating them to be aware of me lol.#so i thought i wasn't bossy but very timid which i was expected to be. and everytime i wasn't being timid it was my disorder.#this didn't come from nowhere btw. therapists made me believe i'm manipulative. so that i need more therapy. been through dbt 3x #i just have some personality traits i'm not supposed to have as a woman lol. in addition to other bpd things that i do agree with #but once you got that diagnosis every single aspect of your personality is either conforming to gender or deviant and therefore disordered #sometimes it feels like there's a *pd-industrial-complex lmao. see the diagnosis mill that is society's dissertation requirements #fuck this shit. i have a personality and parts of it aren't conductive to wellbeing; maybe even some more than most people #and i compensate for that by thinking everything twice. and i think i'm doing a pretty good job being a generally pleasant person!#so much for no cringe posts. but it's a pretty important discovery for me that i can be bossy (affectionate) w/o anything further attached #bossy = dominant; outspoken; willing to argue for their point. not giving anyone orders lol but i'm not editing all the tags here

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