[BENEATH THE PLYMOUTH. chapter nine, conclusion]
I. Can’t life end again, before the sun
Goes down over the hills like a parasol?
Life polluting our heads with questions
That don’t know their own answers …
Then why give it us? the private said. I mean,
Armies kill and are killed for these, and ya
En’ up with what monstrous
Bleakness stripes in blood; that is your prize. With flagging limbs
I speak my Rage at the enemy. My True Veteran Rage,
Which is my food and drink,
I cross the
Battlefield and I singlefile my bros
And doesn’t this matrix of bootstring
Done up on you quicker now if
We get incoming fighter jets? You are
Meanwhile living it up like a damn
Yossarian with them foolish virgins
The new recruits till I
Send again for u to drive another imbalance right
Weepwoop weepwoop weepwoop
Tried and true are the men to get killed first
After all, nothing like
Deaths of honorable men
To stew up the lesser rage of cowards for to deal
In lamenting them, as if it were for fun, sportiness,
Oratory, red and blue lights! crack
Open a cold one with the boys! magnifico! raises
Chalice to those sent to a
Rightful place in the heavens, those
Weak mounds or plots now, some
Severed from life by the single nip
Of severe pill intake after the war
You’re too fucking good for a life of
Seizures take this xanax instead.
. . . . . . . . .
What am I doing I am here,
I am atop a mountain, lets call it,
Am breathing full for the first time,
In my headspace I persist
An effluvium; while a desperate gush’f a need
For sanctuary tells me I am far from
Ahead of turning this damfool twilight
In my head away from its
Croaking doubts, and guilts,
Can barely.
This Twilight,
What have I left to examine of you? I say
Sagely to the private, do all that you did, as well
Upon / A separate, spent drift, perspective, etc.,
While the wolfish / Folk don caps
Of what they wrongly think they
Are. This could be a story about why I wanted to kill myself
Or it could be about whatever I want to make it about,
Hopefully something, something less dramatic.
Well. I hope you like it. I worked very hard on it. It
Makes me want to weep to think of it, and yet I must,
I want to tell you all of what it means to make a difference
Atop a mountain, I see you there, my love,
Please, please love me, there is not much I can say
Except, love me. All this daft World. All of its haunting
Contradictions, nifty spools out of sense I cause
Rounding the corner, get them, chase them,
Go deep into the forest, up the climate. Up,
Up
Have you found, the little that speech can give you
back is width enough for a heart in grief to corrode
Or two? Sleep, sleep, dear one. I have ye, ye is
much obliged to nurture me myself, but unlike I you, u dont have to me,
For I nurture myself well enough already. This someone else in this
house of mirrors you keep talking about, quaking
With unfed genius, and whom is monster, monster,
knocks upon the head, to heel up
This phantasm, intimidate it backwards
a little, scorn its brunt, then deftly reconnoiter
With it later back at the chasm’s lost wrinkle there where not
one minute of time is spent not laughing about the situation.
A light could swiftly get penetrant the brains of the
unfed genius, the wreck,
The wry one, the lost thing betokening all worlds’
wishing that human vanity hath brayed like a horse for, and
Prayed, prayed for, to congeal as even the protozoa of a spark
at the top of a mountain; to let hope congeal in plenty as the blizzard
Of the century to garnish the summit.
You have the prototype, but it is a him, and he is to love what love
had always needed to
Be! We mold and mold what we want the world to
be, mold it out of a wish
Or three,
. . . . . . . . .
II. Each interesting temperament says hello to me,
Before fleeing from me,
They pass and pass like they meant something once but won’t tell
Anymore, as I wait to be given back what has been once robbed, still
Hell. What’s the difference really? Been once asking me for the last
Of its energies, itself will change, always change. So it goes with
The whims of opinion, as to what sits well in one’s stomach,
Or if not that at most just rumbles hungrily there, or gets one’s noticing
Depreciating, or not. Anything wld lead me to an answer I’d get besotted of,
Ornate reasons for expression are my thing.
Showy excuses for my skewed bind called my life.
That rattle here and there around the point I try to make a success
As the voltage is turned on I mark my last of humanity goodbye,
As I remember ur indolence / I so forget my
Thoughts, feelings, guilts, shames.
And it is mostly all the same. Watch me empty buckets of sorrow!
My eyes. My continual essence is such a pain in the ass. I prefer
Additional things in the mix, more than mere sadness. But
Our relative experience, though relative, would try to deny
Us that even, wouldn’t it? That all could simplify into an urge
For relief, something that goes against the little voice
That says, These are more than just
Words. But I want them to mean something, really,
I really do; want them to bring you places, string
You along on their meanings, bobbing and chafing:
Even by faith there being a verbal string to the argument
Makes an argument. Reason’s transcendent like
That and can make for bitchin’ metaphysical
Recognizingz. What. Something crucial loafs
In my empty canister called body. So sue me. It, that is,
What I am, doesn’t do anything there but magically
Stays aloof without disappearing: this buried thing: well I
Daze myself off into space and meet you there, like,
In space: and anyway waiting too long would
Be a rightful hazard for my personality to squeal about
In being aloof. I have no ridiculous thing to write
But instead forth go into magnifying what is said
Already like a patient requiring ibuprofen by exaggerating
The pain that is still pain. More fun is this, this getting
Shot with a gun-syringe of aenesthetics: they
Say “Ready for time out” when they do it:
You wake up later feeling licked
Like, like a trainwreck, vibrating in freezing AC cold.
Yet if the headache’s needed, then, getting
It treated should squelch the purpose. Leave my maladies
There, you kno, safe in the trinketbox. Leave me traumatically
Unaided. Like until I hanker badly for an answer myself
That I try and remember to give after the longest
Period of time possible. So if I can’t,
I want. Feel so stifled. What is important to you:
Making sense but making sense new: making poetic
Thinking a type of poetry in itself: it works after all:
Let’s ask that question: if I am ambient in my relative
Nature, or if the vibe is something more jagged,
Which is already something wavy and ambient,
An eccentric trick of the mind to woozle itself
Into angles of self and pithy creation would
Eventually present itself; but do not do it.
Yu will not remember how for the life of you.
It will just be a picture you see of what you want.
Such ignorance
Fascinates one into playing, like, by their own rules, starting
To play with concepts. I want to stick to one but
Don’t even have one. Strange taste
In my mouth there is. So much there is of self
That committing to one thing, even per page, is
Backwards, bawdy, bluntly reasonable tho
Past its secure, random prints the weird entry
Glamorizes, then makes a thing: I went to those to
Mean something, like, went to the words, I mean:
What of it: this is going to be something I
Hopefully do not regret, that my large, shiny being notices as
Light through the window, getting reflected on by the closing
Door of a car: don’t doom me to just that though:
I am a searcher: I’m trying really hard: doe a deer,
Blabla: I have the right wrinkles for to
Explain my argument sideways: planecrash:
Runtish reason, bleed me out of you into a body
My own, hopefully: fuck my answers
For everything: I don’t care about the bad choices.
The, that is, horrible reasoning, is not, is a
Way, a new one, to work my way
Through poetic thought: my elbows hurt for example:
My back does: a weird taste in my mouth: righteous
Diligence, give me some rapport with
These words, craft em like gems that are squeezxed
And tormented to life, force it, force it to live, I need
This living thing in me to express its repressed
Stuff so long repelled: don’t do me like
A normal, hoggish perspective on the matchlit
Cave we squander through: through and through,
I impress upon myself impressive gonging shouts,
Right?: or do I never mention the invisibleness of
What I speak of, you know, outside of just then.
. . . . . . . . .
Despite my own personal dilemmas, I have
An element unknown by this practice,
Settled in decisive waves of calendar
And rotation, space and juxtaposing,
Retracted stuff and statements left bled till
Steam lost. I have these unknowavles
Without constraint as things my diction nails
To the wall of the page. But I have
Dilemmas, things I create for to
Be baffled by them, scorn, growls,
Soggy mittens in wintertime. Nothing
Counterintuitive, I always say, gets past me.
I allow those confusions room in my material
Cell, breathe out flowering my spent
Petals to a floor of verbiage. OK.
What can I say ?? Though ?? Really,
That the cricketsong is unbelievable,
The night drinks up that thick
Music; that everything now is considerable,
And I decently understand; and that
Everything, even what I do not know,
Is important. So as to this,
III. Constantly, barely on a cuticle
Would reality seem to stand for us;
You are not so fine, so tenuous as your situation, which is reality,
And which offers up zero places for you to trip and fall into the sky.
Regretfully at that would the whole of reality disappear, as
Soon as there were not these gravitational beings humans are,
To classify and disseminate reality, which is in other words not
What you think it is but what you will never see it as and more,
More than just a pretty thang, due to a sounding sunlight, due to,
To say, an obstreperous daygloss over the city; but is in the worlds
Behind admitting a lack of a name for this non-language, which
Although remarkably loud on the still, static eaves, seems [yes]
To have come overnight with the junipers. But the sense of sight,
The sense of sight simply was not auditory. And other things,
Were fine, were fine as cuticle. Now, as for the problem of sight,–
It was already a completely different sensory-experience, one
I watched at once go wither off many roofs like flakes, go silent
By the weeping mud round their walls overtook by river, but
This not immediately. A sourceless jangling like of jewelry first:
Shattering out-seeming a white sun: a wake of these fragile things.
Like paint-chips. Saw something, somehow ornamenting rays,–
Wither from my grasping. For back then I’d left the peanut
Gallery as per usual, my focus on imagination’s latest fare,
As I walked away from my cute little fucking friends or whoever.
They went off none wiser, lolling their tongues
At stonyfaced adults, so
I chose pursuing possible phenomena: I sense-guessed some
Strange thing off there to my side, and in my sight alone:
It was as light, yet if light had
A sound, a fastidious muttering to,
To complement its urging bright, and
Brilliantine crisp form, giving
Marker in particular, as I noticed more, those looser, tattered
Parts of sun and chidden dun. So as, in physicality or
Whatever manifesting this gets called, to make
It sound its shifting throughout all degrees, cajoling and
Maneuvering almost as if it had feet tapping steps to take.
I was 10, and though I kept awhile that booming stepping light
In thickspun places for my mind to go and mend an ear for,
And. Back me to that spot, so that itself the unilateral instant
Of perception would not dim, well so it dimmed,
And I forgot the noise;
Cotton fills between my ears at the thought, to the point
I you know like wouldn’t barely hear a foghorn; then
Aggravation past recalling. I can’t now even know if
Anything is absent. That’s how bad it is. Events,
E’en if they’d been in paint, certain ones’re more
Past recalling than the bluntest detail
Of whatever I’d kept warm enough of it all, by
The fire of possible to picture, there, you
Know: in the mind’s eye. More important to
Remember the erasure electrodes could feed
Than the one they could stifle with a ball-gag.
That raged-out delight in your eye could
Seed in you and with enough
Of this obscure hallucinogen consumed, zoom the pneumatic
Parturitions what had been waiting to canter out out in hot
Speech straight from braincavity, for
The benefit of your local Shaman:
Into the brushy groins thus go
The Cocky British Adventurers, searching for the fountain
Of youth, or at least some village where they can get high.
The voodoo dey is pay to see, like, to cure incontinence;
Don’t tell! By the barrel in transport go things to forgetting;
A given day, from spore to spore remits; direction is avoided
Like a bad thing so we all go back to where it growed from
In the states. More than inner leagues of a breastbone,
This is a serious matter. Or rooms we might
Could spend all day a-lounge
Upon our rucksacks waiting for inherited luck
To be what haunts us, that to crumble, buckle,
Quick to breathe, then nothing,–would not so
Succeed: spirit pulls us from the fingers of spirit
With grand tweezerpairs,
But: what of the dangerous chemical overlapping, could that not
Melt any elated feeling straight between its own two hands
Lifting it, fruiting out the cracks, from that elation, once again,
Which: are nay pieces of the will to dry up the anima/animus
For good: like British testicles in the Rainforest its, your
Very hands do not, refuse to
Let you handle, now, because, you
Know, it will burn for awhile if even it, whatever is
Controlling the nefarious block between
Whatever happiness of a sort and their significant
Person: birthed into that happy flesh, that skin,
That thing that will remind one, you, of the fabulous,
Unshed lair at the foot of the mean, corrosive stairs,
Pregnant with mercy for the steps of light on it only.
Listen: go by that so as to seize new life: if wholly for more
Artful-slung ascents, wax the temples of yr head
And go under, and send accents of voltage,
Pole to pole to pole.
WE ALL OF US are of what WE were,
Which cannot gather ‘mustard’ nor
In mustering it up should you go without
A sort of wheeling will: well: no soul should be
Without a healing will: it which fights between
Your lungs and what your heart insists
Was, has been there before: they, uh
Will know they are observed
And know not to do so
There now; this too
Comes as natural
As all these, as ventricle. There’s
An aqueduct to tamper with.
Mine and mine through it–all the overwhelming shit of it all,
For stuff yours. Just, don’t
Besiege, sweat and
Sweat to illness; or make it yours; or do you and I,
Walking down the dirt road with our selves styled right in front
Of us at the edge of madness–meanwhile, the road is at the edge
Of the psychiatric hospital–pursue towards our to us so-so
Talismans, like the reveille to break ‘us all’ into morning,
With an empiric dournesss and a poetic somberness like dirty rocks?
Nay hope to find for this or that eclogue, a meaning punctual, as
We clean them like pissed Jockys,
Answering only for the gold but in a
Locked eye–or interminable, breathless moment. These could
Be spied by some among
Us less romantic as the crummy afterburners
Of a godhead: but to us and others like ourselves not morsel at all,
But at the very head
Of the war, and us the blood-mud of a battered theatre, rocketing
For battlefield-next; to capture a frantic vibe or two
As might well make us frantic? To display
The snack and succor of our wellbeing again, that is;
Perhaps in a happiness the other there, at least
–Amongst these mossy graves: where yours, my, and
Our ideologies get bestowed on, stoic although out of order, us,
Again. Like some gift cherishing its other one,
We blind to our own cherishing. We tempted to hunker into place
On the flat of a large rock: and still we worry of
A frightening mishearing of the argot from the first
To spell you out as tending to follow your arbitrary wisps again,
Dodging the spitting of these asps forlorn by the same proxy
Sense walks out to let fill for it too, whom try and try in fidgets
To tell you realistically: you is, uh
Mercurial to sell your snappy deathtraps
To the others sitting hunching
In the back of the light, awaiting the unveiling
Of The Random Vision: it all, and it will, flies back at you,
The one elated: from their dark shelters it comes
To make that noise you knew only light to. Then, as the speech
Of one given so much to dreams that it were a
Sickness the mind ingratiated unto the
Rest gives up the ghost and calls itself the same thing
Given to these corruptible seconds you’d happened to get
The high beams on at the correct angle of phrasing-light, and
Especially since it was not found, and by it I mean, this
Especial species, while scoping out out of greed for an exotic
Metaphysical animal rustling softly somewhere dangerous along
The curtain, made entirely of infinities: you
Waited for to steal the show, but, then, kabamm,
And we lose it: our salutary mistresses
Delayed the minstrelsy, time melted, weak shooting
At a fenced-in target: as we themselves blast
All motors, play chicken with feelings fine as cuticle: the
Cheering to get mutuality in a busted zipper halfway
Down the coat: I sleep in a cot: don’t feel sorry: for you:
Our someplace mistakes beautifully without any
Communication’s dotage, without interest,
In it for the art: usher us along this rock a bit,
And all to stomp down the feeling.
The freckled derelict impetuous parts
Our molded forming spits panoply to graciously, as
Our freeze of eye at each other, and with that a dolor of collar
And crimp at the shoulder, and hands to arms clasping
Tenderness to the hilarious sound of trombones:
To filtered, moribund animosity all is as spiritual adiposity, and to
The spine’s own place in hurting is there a weakest when true
Hue. Trickling
Minuses down each disc, doth it, doth it doth it, and
Bring you to the tomb the tomb, tomb, tomb.
Happiness focused atom-wise to blathering lambs’ limbs’
Context pillowy gets us confuséd fledged from right to left
And then to do, uh, do so is
Yet the where where is someplace stronger, smaller.
Right eh ?? The speech, argot, recommends its woes
Like fashionable trinkets at a gas station. And decides
Us to go down the drain like toiletflush these untimely
Dissimilars, once posh, now as but the gourmand’s
Misery. Before the game, he ate a bunch of hotdogs,
Came to the eating contest for a snack. Yet which is of tidings
Is that being flatlined on nonbeing like a medley of thrown
Sounds through to the end of the roll of the last toilet
-paper in the WholeWORLDEver. Crates us as off
We go like in a box to nice otherness, while
Seconds remind us of the ghost
In the moon we forgot to call mightily and we are
Now stuck in this bricklump desuetude.
In the very moon our trembling lips lie about knowing it
Afar, and I care not how long the line spits landscape;
Don’t; or does perhaps. I want to speak visions
Of colors. And now for another
Thing: this is different because it leaves up to discussion
The rather ornamental debacle. Dry squalor.
Heated up desertions of eye. Fickle hold, o hold.
Broken record you is. Well: my army had
Nothing with it come to much
But a father what that grabbed the attitude off
The collar of the young punk with spots on’is faythe. Like golly.
Repetition you let us pay for your drinks
And get stabbed like Marlowe in the eye. Shiver,
Species. For it is what we tell you do.
Collective unconscious needs dramamine stash, before
All civilization hurls into the closest bucket and-
-Frightens the children. Pellucid is the sky’s heart.
He’ll know what to do and, uh, what forgive.
Something cold in this heart. Heal me, heart. Respond
A bit too soon to the call. Discuss politics. Fuck you.
And be Young Joyce uncomprehending at the
Christmas table with Old Dante
Muckering up the gaffe of talking blunt about
The PRIME MINISTER
Bad gaffe made the more.–
I took a thousand stout men and made them soldiers.
Still the question was not solved: do we or do we not
Exist: I founded lackeys like the Prime Mover I is. I am,
Tell me, young lamb, [eyecontact] I am like
Roses sweet-smelling yes.
I have an ankle that is a chip off
The shoulder and there is so much you’d never suspect through
The blinds: you are blind to much: anything but old rinds I give
You to see. Of cataclysmic woe,
Is uncouth to say it comes, betimes
Betimes.
I natty up the RansomStash of money, think
I hurl in some other dimensionanony
Rubbled out of zeitgeist. Like what’s left of what
Was once important. MAKE EVERYTHING EXPLODE
Says the mind, to the maker, and dirigible the static
Plane being’s on or is not on. I have a backache.
A good part of the poem is that you do not
Know who the referent ‘I’ is. Wonder retracting statements
From itself is and remains the wonder of those statements
It did not pursue, nor highlight.
That’s what I tell yeh. My GOD who how he did it ??
Till next horn’s blowing.
The new fodder’s here.
I look at my watch all pithy.
I want to talk about something
Different,
Now:
IV. These moving things, in
Front of my memory are in front there, as if they could be
In front: preparing to be remembered. As like water floating
On air, an air once obvious lightness, now heavy but only as
Waged by its distinction plashing down weightless;
A rose fighting God for a crumb. What I thought mine,
The diviningrod for the gold that is as it is, while
The dappled glinting hurlings-out of sun its
Buried symbolism: the rod was looking
Surly and sad at me
With its inanimate, punk-poker countenance, asking an
Arresting conference between myself and all
What is in the coming-trough of that
Empty ray my sun begins behind, waiting
For the lordly entropy unkind bids for power
Wreak of all over the mystified Others’ whispered
Commissions to blesséd rekindlings of an ease
For suns as mine, and for them
Eagerer plumbs the problem into the general, poetic
Selfhood you and I equate to the choral bastion
For all the body politic to get unto itself
A final haunt for meetings with those in the field;
First, get me to the shallow symbol quicker, for
The more is, within, that is
Our fighting, unfound parts, found
Out to their believing-to-be-seen, awkward,
Aggrandizing root, the more is seen
Human all our trickling signs;
As, for example, the professor nodding
Dipping glasses from eyes might say
Profoundly,
You have me breach into your sociopathy:
Behind these displayed tears eyes mutely
Carry over bucket by bucket
Past the lids, then
Closed goes your roving imagination
To the many grunted teachings, wanders to
The place affect and displeasure dwell
In commune much as the sun and moon
Are. You contrive and contrive
Despite a lack of closure. Evil
Grunts; then, the old magician steps upon his
Own tricky sidewalk, back broken, spine
Flailing out of the flesh like
Sides of things intentionally prized, for
Being many-sided, being peripheral, being thus
The clamp-down on upon the rift between a
Self and self, the murderous wage, a drifting
Buoyed survival technique, culminating
In the petty boutique where make fancy our
Designer desires. Manically let you grin, let you-
-And find me there and bitterly beneath your skin,
Interred, an errant bug clutched by the teeth
Of cells, entirely made of mature dismay
At this rattling feature or that, a singing twitch
Ersatz dissolves in simply prudery, although the
Match is boundless once uncovered to its
Eloquent extremes, its funny bets
Atop a covered wagon on the turnpike to
Work, ensuing gases here and there, plucking
Marred hairs and ingrown nails from the
More similar decripitudes of life, yet leaving still
The undone pyre of waxing-worship to
Intend itself beyond, beyond a folly, and beyond
An enigmatic coach a breed of stag gallops
With, like a friend, a friend or fiend,
A whipping to the nakedness our traveling,
A scorching of impassioned earthen to
What’s the sillier darkness of conceit, deceit,
Received by amplifying weeping, or
By entrancing the metaphoric tides an
Element-electric wouldn’t send
To the chop-house. Let whom lay beneath
The tarpaulin conceive this second poem with
Next day’s wrathful heat to incubate
Idea, idea of shrouded modern people
Messing with themselves with chemical
And flirty doctrines flirting on the bilious;
We are about what sadly is not serious.
And you, cheap gourmand, upon his food
And slaughtering by the minute every truth
His 'times’ replayed like plays in college football
Or, which multiplied disheartening with
Kids; which antiquated meme and vine impelled
To the furnace, and were meant to be an irony
Without a foreground, or just merely funny
Will, in time, call all of itself lamed
By richer generations whom do not tie severely
The knot so early, nor that one of frame-of-mind,
Nor vicious as the adding of more poem to
This poem, this tape, this wrong, this blare,
This carousel, could our analyses of flickering face
Be less human than the rest. Dispassionate tools.
. . . . .
To jealous the color of every real ordinary.
Mass composites are what the want want
To be: load up my carriage, run faces by me
For the right one to win
Me over, roam grim sealingwax doubles
Like they were the robotic asswipe
Your linear ability commands to howitzer
The shit out of. I want
To destroy all the air. Then of course, would fain destroy
This feigned couscous, by words
Jellied in the fridge next to the words, and which gets
Warmed up, connotes feelings words alive
Trumpet menagerie by menagerie.
Flown out of itself
The memory wants back to mentioning,
Dries off on the water: the weight of all of this
Wants to invite God and the rose
To brunch, you know, just to talk
About maybe focusing instead on the sad
Memory, unsaid. Split like atom
The discontented flash of thundering.
The only thing deeper is unwanted
By you, though you think you do, but no, you
Do not, do not know what you
Want from these tears the
Result of a brief squabble that should
Have been rightly emptied into
The Well Of Lidded Impactfulnation,
I mean, man, imaginpainshun.
The sidewalk entered a flaccidity unbefore
Seen, saturated by these decked freckles of
Unbelievable, haunting rain as
The city burned just to get some light
On this one page in shadow or
Night merely spilled,
Rotting, all over this oops
And contracted by the mean tacklers
Of bulls. Then revert to those gutted, realize
The pen is dusty and empty, the tears
A stupid fragility that makes broke the back
Of a mountain not included in
The latest Jake Gyllenhaal deluxe set
Of withered, weathered - - sexual frustration
In the form of abstract painting full of themselves
That is, mainly stuffed with their own selves,
Which, pretty much, is everybody you
Just had fight with, like, what
They are like, since we’re filled with
Ourselves or at worst another fills or is filled
By us, which is dangerous especially
For emotional bohemians on the klutzy radar
Muttering germs of new shit
In the corner, like, the
Corner of the crooning voice you can’t place,
Can’t raise, faze, amaze, or daze;
What ridiculous fun it is to chop the world in half,
Leaving only robotic faces tunefully chosen
In essence. Maybe you lose the song
But it comes back early once
That nifty ‘copsiren simulator’ busts
Everyone fleeing from the party, and an
Avalanche of high folk pour out
Like tears of once what was, unto lids,
The resultant dripping, squeezed into their lighted
Aspect, performing light again
On the random Chair of Life where drunk poet sit,
Whispering saturated sidewalks, eating couscous
By themself, since everyone of us has turned
Into a wax rendition of the invisible, and by this
Needle of a difference doth split the chained
Opines of unhealable hunger’s dust
Where the bulls we fear once were, are not
At present.
Dance, dance, ludicrous, failing mind, for nigh you won’t again
So mourn, you, rebel from the rest of yourself and die,
Remove in revving happiness up what hath
Embraced you, baffled, from two steps away.
It is the corner’s voice. It is the coroner’s voice, bespeaking
Valuable Soul, but sans shirt, shoe
. . . . . . .
truly keep me in your bad massacred heart that
lunges against your ribcage like it’s selling
something it’s like an animal against
you you know
find out what lingers between you and
beats and stales there and planetary in the
dust without a friend but the one you pay for
without an anchor you live your life to listen
for some kinetic power somewhere there
unduly and lacking but what you have
pawed at for so long now you have
it so live to stir people do such
well this man is a tired broken thing
wearing an old tattered coat he is grimacing
against the bitter cold and
of his way of writing he is sure that he is
without an echo back to himself peacefully
he lights a fire beneath his fragrant ass
he is of the metronome of fart and feeling
in feeling
it is in the basics
you reach for the flower in my lungs
through my throat you have an ascertaining of body
in your body
you wild as fire wrinkle orange and yellow separately
of it you are the fire of beauty of both
you stick to listening to what’s between
the chambers of desire your mind goes crazy
and gets stuck in yet
without feelings without the hope of feelings
you still feel you are the argot of feelings
you want to waste your life trying to fix me
I want to taste my life in your ice cream’d hands
I want to desire the reality behind things a bit
I want to hire another human to attend to my morals
and come upon a spree of finite conclusions for me
our register of voice makes enough of that
for the two of us to hear it however low
to wander throughout
and divide the equation
we would have solved
using another’s breathy brain
tell me I am true for what I think of that is that
I am untrue tell me my own wrinkles of fire again
despoil meaning from the craning of my neck
to look upwards at a sky filled with myself
filled with the clouds of myself
and it makes
me go away into the feelings
try me with those feelings and keep my hunch cracked
like the tar across the road reality follows
driven by those high and fruitful voices…
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