#bun doesnt ask for much. bun's not asking for everyone to adore her. one person would be enough.

[bunny-xoxo]

Pretty People Supremacy Playlist 🖤

for my angel @1010andneji , I hope you love it 🖤

disclaimers: fem!reader, because this a request for someone with she/her pronouns, I believe the reader is referred to as she/her a few times, Kenma is aged up and this is based in him attending University just to be clear‼️

warning: it gets a little saucy in the make out department ?

gif not mine, credit to owner

a/n: ahhhhh!!! I’m sorry this took so long and I really hope you like it and you felt like it was worth the wait! Please let me know if you need me to change anything ‼️ i luv you bae 😔✊🏼 also thank you to my wife @ikigaitooru for helping me choose your matchup here! I was stuck between one other person but we ultimately decided on Kenma, we both believe he exhibits prime quiet himbo energy :) also I kind of went off and wrote a lot on this one 😶 sorry I think? Regardless, I hope you enjoy!!!

Relationship Headcannons

Ok so ultimately, I paired you together NOT just cause you thinks he’s pretty but I think you guys would be so good together!! Like you would be so good for him

You guys would balance each other out socially and just be the best pair to hang out with pleaseee

He knows he can be stupid and chaotic with you and you know you can let yourself wind down with him!!

Kenma CAN be blunt sometimes so I’m sure he’d have to catch onto your sensitivity at first, but he’d be so sincere if he ever accidentally said or did anything that made you feel some type of way

And once he is aware of your sensitivity he’s constantly reassuring you in little ways, not only that he understands and is trying to comfort you but just to reassure you he loves you, for example :

HAND SQUEEZES

I know some people have mentioned that he wouldn’t be into PDA but I disagree! It’s just not in the conventional let me be all over you types of PDA

I feel like it’s just not a big deal to him cause he’s like 🤨 what do I have to be embarrassed for?? This my mf baby and I’m gonna hold her hand if I want to ??

Like, I see him as a big hand holder frfr

He would just see it as such an easy way to be physically close to you and even if that’s just holding pinky’s he’s down!

It would also help him if he’s feeling anxious!

Like he’d fiddle with your hands and fingers if he’s feeling particularly antsy or nervous

OH

You guys are out and he wants to go in a different direction? He’s definitely bringing your hand to his lips to give a quick peck and pull you along

“C’mon, let’s look over here”

AND HES SO NONCHALANT ABOUT IT TOO LIKE HE JUST DOESNT QUITE REALIZE THE EFFECT HE HAS ON YOU WHEN HE DOES THAT (he totally does but he likes to be slick and act like he doesn’t 🙄)

He would also DEFINITELY let you play with his hands if you’re nervous or bored or whatever reason honestly, he’d find it soothing and knows it occupies you or fills a need (and you get to look at pretty Kenma hands c’mon now)

ANYWAYS there are other little ways he’d reassure you too besides hand squeezes and holding

Definitely the type to leave you little notes in places for you to find them and they’d always say such simple things like “hi- kenma <3” LMAOOOO PLS HES TRYING HIS BEST

I think the final biggest way he’d love to reassure you would be words of affirmation (this is definitely a private thing)

I think he’d still deliver them in a blunt manner but that’s how you know he’s sincere!

You two would just be chilling at his place and you’d do something simple like, ask how much water he’s drank today or play with his hair and tell him he shouldn’t overwork himself and he’d just look at you so seriously and be like, “I really appreciate you, you know that?”

And it’d be sort of deadpan but like !!!

And he’d just kiss your hand after - always the palm - and then he’d just press his cheek into your hand before kissing it one more time and moving on like that literally just didn’t happen KENMA KING OF HAND KISSES

Okok moving on before I get stuck on his hands again anskdkdksiaj

So we don’t talk about himbo Kenma enough!!!! Like ok

He’s NOT big and ripped like ya know Bokuto and he seems super smart but I’m telling you this man is a quiet clueless himbo ‼️

You can’t tell me you’d be talking on and on about biology or something and he’d just have this little lost look in his eye while he’s nodding along and smiling softly listening to you talk and you’re like ,,??

“Wait, do you even understand what I’m saying?”

And he’d really just be like no :)

“but your eyes are really pretty and I like watching your lips move while you talk :) (this man is also a king of innocent flirting and you can’t tell me otherwise!!!)

OMG and if you’re even the slightest bit flustered by his comment he WILL notice and he’ll do his best to hide his sly little smile and just grab one of your hands and squeeze it and be like, “keep going, I’m listening”

KENMA HIMBO NATION RISE

Ok ALSO you two would literally just be such a pretty couple? Just like so pleasing to look at????? Like you’re both so pretty it’s unfair! And your style OMG

Like you’re just so soft like the epitome of 🦋✨👼☁️☺️ girl and 🎮🎱🖤👾🌙 boy ykwim???

and his long hair PLS Kenma man bun supremacy 🙌🏼

I can’t stress enough how pretty you two would be it would just make sense seeing you two together ugh

UGH you dying Kenmas hair for him?? And he’d just sit cross legged in a chair while you do it and he keeps leaning and moving to wherever you are around him cause your hands are in his hair and it’s so soothing!! What’s he supposed to do??

“Kenma, stay still you’re gonna bet bleach on my shirt!”

“But didn’t you wear that in case bleach did get on it?”

“Kenma-“

“I’m just saying if that’s the case then I don’t understand why I can’t hug you while you bleach my hair? 🤨”

“😐”

“Ok so-“

“Kenma.”

“😒”

Yeah queue pouty Kenma acting indifferent 🙄✋🏼

Just give him a kiss on his nose and he’ll get over it even though he’ll feign his grumpiness to get treated like a baby a little bit longer

UGH PLS I GOTTA STOP I COULD GO ON FOREVER

Bottom line, Kenma’s your quiet little himbo and you’re his loud soft girlfriend, and it’s one of the most adorable things ever

Ok, so we’re finally to what you came for LMAO, your playlist!

OKOK so similar to the first one I made, there’s no theme besides music taste so I tried to make this like a soundtrack of your guys relationship if that makes sense?

I really hope you enjoy and please let me know if you need any changes or would like to be paired up with someone else 🖤‼️ Without further ado, your songs and explanations!

1. Siren - Kailee Morgue: ok I think this one still kind of fits the vibe you’re looking for but you can’t tell me Kenma didn’t see you as some bewitching vixen who’s caught his attention LMAO like he’s just like 👁👄👁 she’s so pretty and entrancing help me! and he’d try to be like haha I’m cool I’m cool I’m fine 😎🥴😎 but it’s so obvious he likes you too (you’d kind of be able to tell with the way he looks at you and how it took so long for the blush to leave his neck and ears whenever he’d talk to you) but he just really decides he has no choice in the matter, he wants you so bad LMAO

2. Juice - iyla: more off the first one, the way you just appeared into Kenmas life LMAO like he saw you and just 😳🥴😍‼️ and once he started to feel real feelings he’d be so 🏃‍♂️💨 WHERE THE FUCK DID SHE COME FROM??? But he wants you so BAD he can’t do anything about it, and now not only does he just want you 😳 but he wants you and he wants to be yours , pls he has it hard

3. See You Again (feat. Kali Uchis) - Tyler, The Creator: ok this is like THE song to your guys relationship just UGH I know you two would have such pining. Kenma would DEFINITELY be nervous to even talk to you at first cause he’s definitely like 🥴 she’s prettt hhng and he’s so shy and you just have such HEART EYES over him and you don’t even hide it that well LMAO (“it’s them rose colored cheeks yeah it’s them dirt colored eyes 😔😩”- u @ him) and it just makes him so NERVOUS!! But you two would definitely dance around it for a bit like you’d just be so 😍‼️ He’s pretty and shy hehe I like him gimme gimme 😍 and he’d be so flustered by it at first until you guys FINALLY get over yourselves (when kenma stops being a baby LMAO) like you guys jus wanna kiss so bad and literally everyone’s like JUST FUCKING DO IT, SHIT it’s adorable really

4. Doves In The Wind (feat. Kendrick Lamar) - SZA: ok I know this song is kinda saucy an idk if it’s overplayed but listen YOU CANT TELL ME THIS ISNT KENMAS FUCKING ANTHEM!! like he jus absolutely jams to this song definitely a sza stan and loves playing vibey music like hers during his gaming sessions but like the way he would worship the ground you walk on and be like mf im HERS do not get it twisted, in no way does she belong to me buT THE WAY I BELONG TO HER WHEW ‼️

5. Moment - Victoria Monét: ok why do I feel like most of the songs I added on here are vaguely steamy LMAO but ok this song? Yeah whew 💨 this is definitely one of those songs that play while you two would be lazily making out with those little led lights on (you just know kenma has those) and you two would just be laying there and know this is one of those moments you guys are never gonna forget. Your hands are just roaming and caressing each other while your lips are locked and you guys are so breathless and it’s just wow, you guys must have manifested each other cause this moment is so perfect between you two. And even though it’s a little sloppy it’s so intimate and you both feel like you’re living in a dream. messy hair flushed Kenma whos breathing heavy? Yeah I think so

6. Deep Cuts - Healy: Kenma is always trying his hardest to be the best he can when he loves something. We know this we’ve all seen him and Tora when it comes to volleyball and the way he gets with Hinata. And this wouldn’t change when it comes to your guys relationship, he is constantly going to be putting in his best effort to get to know you better, be the best boyfriend he can be to you and make you feel as loved as he can. He’s memorized everything there is to know about you and sometimes he gets lost in that and it makes him insecure about himself from his overthinking (you can’t tell me he’s not a chronic overthinker) and he’d forget to just enjoy himself sometimes. Like Kenma stop stressing, you can relax when you hold her hand. But he’d reach this point with you when he’d probably be being a bit difficult and you’d just make him feel so loved. He had been overworking himself again, which you HATED. You could tell from the bags under his eyes and the way his hair was messily pulled back into a low bun and the way the neckline of his hoodie showed he wasn’t even wearing a shirt underneath. But it was date night!! So what if he was tired and overworked quality time is important to you!!! I mean, that’s what he’s thinking. But you would just pull him into a hug and kiss his forehead and start to undress into comfy clothes and he’d be so confused like ?? Uhm, date night?? And you’d just pull him to your shared bed by his sleeve and under the covers and into your arms while you just kissed the top of his head. You’d take his hair out of his bun and run your fingers through it getting rid of some of the tangles and just be so CARING to him. “Let’s just stay in, you’re tired and I’d rather lay with you while you get some sleep, we can always go out another time.” Yeah he’s in love that’s it ‼️ you make him feel like he’s exactly enough for you as he is and that’s all he wants pls tbis is so long and for what??? Like this could be a Drabble in itself??? Anyways

7. Easy - DaniLeigh: you guys are definitely an exclusive couple but you really show Kenma what it means to just take it slow and relax! After the date night (deep cuts) he knows it’s ok to just relax into your guys love and he doesn’t have to force or rush anything cause it all comes naturally. Secondly , the WAY THIS BOY MAKES YOU FEEL - he just always looks at you with these deep eyes that hold so much love and it makes you feel so exposed every time cause he just loves you so much and it’s so intense l. It makes your face heat up cause he so clearly thinks your perfect. Also, this just gives total late night ride vibes. Kenma would definitely be driving on the freeway and this song comes on and he just places his hand on your thigh while he’s driving and he’s humming along to this song and he can feel you staring at him so he just casts you a quick side glance and goes “hmmm?” And you’re like 👁👄👁 nothing (Kenma is the king of late night car ride music fr)

8. CPR - Summer Walker: ok I don’t even need to explain myself with this one, the song is so self explanatory! You just make each other feel so at home. Point blank ‼️ like Kenma will just think back like 😇 where would I be without this bitch the thought makes him truly sad and he likes to avoid it at all costs

9. Rain - Lucy Park: pls this song is so soft (I hope it fits the vibe ahhh!!) but this is just more of kenma being an absolute softy for you LMAO. He’s not very good at taking care of himself sometimes and you’re always there to be like 😡‼️ NO‼️ and it makes him so soft he can’t help it, it’s not that he does it on purpose cause that’s insane but the fact you know his limits when even he doesn’t sometimes blows his mind and he’s never felt more loved than in those moments (let’s bring up Deep Cuts again 🙄✋🏼 pls this boy just needs someone soft to put him in his place LOL)

10. moonlight - dhruv: ok but when Kenma knows he’s in love with you, he has to tell you. And what better way to tell you than, well, tell you. He’d definitely try to plan it in his head to be perfect like ok what’s her favorite place? Where’d we first meet? Should I tell her there? Should our song be playing in the background? Kenma, your himbo and over thinker tendencies are showing, just tell her already! It’d be early in the morning, and you two are making breakfast together while he’s listening to you ramble on about the recent events of your favorite show and he’s just smiling and nodding, doing his best to recall the other plot points that have happened. And you, distracted with your ranting, go to take a bite of your freshly made breakfast- which is still scalding hot. You IMMEDIATELY start panting and drop your fork, running over to the faucet and shoving your head under it doing your best to soothe your mouth with the cold water. And Kenma feels awful, but this is fucking hilarious. So sure he’s holding your hair back so you can really get that water but he’s dying in the process. Almost keeled over and gripping at his stomach type laughter and you’re swatting at him to no avail and he just can’t help himself, “oh, fuck I love you.” He said it between his gasps of air from laughing and didn’t even realize it. Not until you stood up fully with water still dripping off your chin just looking at him. This idiot immediately started apologizing like omg this isn’t how I wanted to say it ahhhh but you assure him this was perfect, and that you love him too (pls love this man he can’t help but love you too)

11. Easily - Bruno Major: does this count as angst? ok call back to Kenma being an overthinker who overworks himself and probably overlooks his own needs at times, there’s bound to be some tension between you two at times. You’re concerned about his health and he insists he’s fine but you know he’s not, and while I don’t ever see him blowing up on you I could see little arguments about his self-care habits. Sometimes he stays up too late, or he’s stressing himself over something that doesn’t need that much thought! Regardless, he knows you just love him and he does the same thing for you and he just needs to get better at not being so stubborn when it comes to taking care of himself. And he just hopes that you know he loves you and appreciates what you do for him even though it doesn’t seem like it all the time, and that hopefully you won’t give up on him.

12. Streets - Doja Cat: ok I added this one mainly for the vibes but like you can’t tell me Kenma isn’t pined over in university LMAO. Like he’s pretty and polite but also indifferent, mentally ill bitches eat that shit UP; and there’s PLENTY of those in university LMAO. And like you aren’t a toxic possessive person don’t worry but MAN he’s fighting these girls off with a stick at this point LMAO and he just doesn’t get it pls, like he’d definitely be the partner in an assignment who just comes prepared and is kind of quiet to a fault but is so nice and just gets his shit done. Would also offer a pencil if you forgot one and maybe I’m just a whore but that gets me everytime 😌

13. Kiss U Right Now - Duckwrth: ok mainly for the vibes but !!! You and Kenma in the kitchen cooking and this song comes on and he comes up behind you and turns you around and your faces are all close and he keeps singing “I think I wanna kiss u” and smirking but he’s just ghosting his lips over yours instead and moving his head back every time you try to kiss him and giggling before doing it all over again! giggly Kenma supremacy

14. Butterfly - UMI: ok we been talking about how much Kenma would be devoted to you, but like you wouldn’t be the same!!!! Kenma means so much to you and you do your best to show your care and all you wanna do is see him happy as much as he wants the same for you, omg you guys are so in love it’s gross 🤢

15. Pick Up Your Phone - Hojean: what more can I say!!! You guys just love each other and love spending as much time together as you can!! (I like ending these playlists with a really happy mood :) )

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Here it is! Thank you for being so patient and I really hope you like this! I always get nervous posting for my baby’s 🖤 love you cutie!

-🐇out

[astralglam]

𝐒𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐝𝐝𝐥𝐲 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐟𝐢𝐜 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬 .

1. What does your muse smell like?

without soap or perfume, 683 smells bizarrely sterile, chemical-ish, like a dentist’s office, bleach or cleaning supplies.  like hand sanitizer that kills 99.9% of germs.  they have that faint smell of powdery clean cosmetics, only because they wear so much foundation, face powder and setting spray.  humans like things that smell less artificial, so 683 takes to using cheap perfume (think a teenager who just learned to douse themselves with axe or bath and bodyworks spray), which is artificial in a slightly more palatable way.  their clothes (which are almost all second hand) have that mothball-musty smell of a thrifted dress that hasn’t been washed yet, like an old book.    

2. What do your muse’s hands feel like?

cold, frigid and icy, almost like a mannequin’s if you left the mannequin in the freezer. their skin is tight over their tendons and fingers, with almost waxy, plasticy skin stretched over their joints and knuckles, which makes them seem very fragile.  sometimes their palms are uncannily clammy.  their skin on their palms isn’t rough or calloused but they’re starting to get scars on their fingertips from their voyages into the realm of string instruments.  they used to have very neat, clean and unpainted nails, but nowadays, they have divots and cracks because 683 is clumsy with the strings.  

3. What does your muse usually eat in a day?

683 is often at the mercy of when their friends will decide to cook for them/buy them food.  they don’t have any cooking skills and can barely wash and cut an apple (this isn’t because they’re stupid, on atomina they were used to communal dining with a designated set of people who cooked for everyone in their unit).  683 is naturally accustomed to eating plant matter and (unlike us humans) has a way better digestive system for breaking down cellulose and gets a lot more out of their vegetarian diet than you might expect (two stomachs aint for nothin).  left to their own devices they just eat Whatever (orange? handfuls of spinach, unwashed, pesticides dont hurt them.  microwave a tomato and watch it explode.  brave cutting open an avocado and just eating it with a spoon).  dinner is when priscilla either buys him take out or sid cooks something for him (and sid is an amazing cook!!!).  sid isn’t vegetarian, but his family is, so he knows how to make all kinds of dishes perfect for 683 -- substitute the dairy for nondiary alternatives and 683′s getting matter paneer (with tofu instead), malai kofta (with coconut milk), and aloo gobi (no butter), all sorts of things !!! 

4. Does your muse have a good singing voice?

sort of.  683′s voice, by itself, is nasally and weird and a little grating, but their devotion to music lets them make the most out of their “strange” voice and almost use it to their benefit to sound unique, different, super far out !11!11111  their lyrics, instrumentals and emotion combined is what makes them a talented musician rather than just a good quality voice.  so while they might not have a very pretty voice, they’re still a skilled singer due to their delivery.  

5. Does your muse have any bad habits or nervous ticks?

im assuming this is about bad (physical) habits rather than personality deficiencies (of which 683 has many).  683 stares, like, really just stares at people with reckless abandon, they havent figured out it’s rude.  they arent good at even pretending to listen so if they’re disinterested in what you have to say, they’ll look elsewhere, pick at their nails, mumble or interrupt you.  always finds a way to make the conversation about themself.  very disorganized and messy, has a hard time taking care of objects even if they value them (ex. dropping his guitar, misplacing jewelry, yanking a belt off and breaking it).  definitely self pities and has no problem trying to guilt you for everything and anything.  is a pretty frequent smoker, but is polite enough not to smoke if you ask him not to.  

683 is always a little nervous so their nervous ticks are just their baseline state of being (wringing hands, stammering, talking really fast, making insane gestures all around you but being too afraid to touch you, etc)

6. What does your muse usually look like / wear?

683 looks very put together at all times -- not necessarily polished or professional, but very intentional, in that you can tell they definitely made a conscious choice to dress the way they do.  he wore the same dumb uniform every day for the first 20 years of his life, so he’s very excited to try new clothing options.  

more femme-ish clothing preferences go to boxy, sleeveless a-line dresses, miniskirts, bright floral patterns, big plastic earrings, headbands, scarves, etc.  they like clunky platforms and prefer to wear boots.  very 60s mod and colorblocked.  she loves bright eyeshadow but tends to go for more neutral lipstick.  can never figure out what to do with her hair so she usually leaves it down or does a half-up half-down bun kinda deal.  

more masc clothing preferences are bell bottoms, button ups with butterfly collars, paisley print, turtlenecks and fringe jackets, etc. earthy tones and weird nasty olive green.  very late 60s / early 70s. prog rock flavor or glam rock flavor.  never got into the disco style only because he cant pull it off because he’s so scrawny and twitchy and has no chest hair to impress the ladies.    

one thing about 683 is that he hates tight long sleeves and goes insane if he has to wear them.  his uniform was sleeveless, so even short sleeves feel really weird and horrible on his arms.  prefers sleeveless, can do with short sleeves, 3/4ths sleeve or loose long sleeve, really tries to avoid tight/constricting long sleeves.  

i have a pinterest board of potential fits for him although i havent updated it because i barely know how to use pinterest.

7. Is your muse affectionate?  How much?  How so?

to most people, not really, he’s kind of a weird cagey asshole.  oscillates between fascinated with physical touch (suddenly wanting to hug his friends or snuggle with them or grabbing strangers when he’s trying to talk to them) to despising contact (cringes if you touch his hand when you pass him a cup).  he didnt grown up with a culture very big on it, so he isn’t sure if he likes it or not yet.  

to people he does care about, he tends to take his friends for granted but overperform affection for those he has romantic interest in.  not that he doesnt also dearly love and adore his friends, he’s just not the best at expressing his care for them other than random bursts of kindness and dissolving back into his weird normal self.  his understanding of romance has come from a very commercial, media-influenced place (he learns about it through television, novels and commercials, it’s not really inherent to his species) so he thinks romance is about buying flowers, holding hands, staring into each other’s eyes for three hours, etc. if he has romantic interest in you, he will constantly over and over again tell you how much he likes you and your company and you are soooo funny hahahhahhfhh, and will be unusually touchy (clings to your arm, sits RIGHT next to you, drops his head on your shoulder, etc).  

8. What position does your muse sleep in?

683 didnt know what blankets were until he came to earth (or deep space nine) !!! his old room was perfectly temperature controlled and he already has a lower natural body temperature, so there was no need for blankets at all.  human beds with big pillows and blankets are THE COOLEST, so he either curls up underneath a blanket with only the top of his head poking out or he sprawls out like a starfish to take advantage of as many pillows as possible.  his special move is to roll up in the blanket like some kind of little alien lumpia.  

he’s a fitful sleeper so if you sleep in the same bed as him, he’ll punch you or kick you on accident.  he does appreciate company, though, and will also plaster himself up against you and leech your body heat with his weird cold body.

9. Could you hear your muse in the hallway from another room?

depends.  they have a very average speaking voice and aren’t necessarily very loud (plus platforms dull footsteps), but if they were excited, they might raise their voice or yell or exclaim something.  and then they’re very shrill, so yes, you would hear her.  

Tagged by:  @sampati im sorry i took like a week it was really fun i love to type letters and words on the computer Tagging: @dynaura or @pataparty (for whoever you want) / @phantombs / @ofgentleresolve (for lamon? or anyone you want, really!!) / @bystcrdust / @kyrieleisen / @baelends / @bup1957

[whereamipanicingandwhy-blog]

Peter Hayes x Reader Divergent

Ok I'm trying again, don't judge. I sit with my friends in a circle. We had just finished our fear simulations, and I was terrified. Not so much of the fear, but because I finished so quickly. Tris was the best, but I was second. I dont want anyone to find out I'm divergent. Actually, only Tris knows, and I have a feeling she is too, but I'm not sure yet. Then there's Peter. He's third, and I'm afraid of what he's going to try to do. Last week he stabbed Edward in the eye. I barely knew him but I was mortified. Peter is always snarly and sarcastic, but for whatever reason, I can't keep my eyes off him. Maybe its because I'm from Amity, and no one acts like him there, or maybe its that charisma, I dont know. My thoughts were interrupted by Christina snapping in my face "What? I'm listening" I say. Knowing she's from candor, she'll know I was spaced. "No you're not." There it is. " you were cross eyed for the longest time, I thought your face was gonna be stuck like that." She makes a face impersonating me, and everyone giggles. " Really, its "gonna stick that way"? Someone's obviously not from Erudite. " I retort. "Okay, okay" Uriah interrupts. "I wanna know what-or who- (y/n) was thinking about" he wiggles his eyebrows. I instantly feel my stomach drop. " Um, no one, just the simulations." I stutter. "Liar. I think it about Pet-" I elbow Christina hard in the side. "Owwwwww! Was that necessary? Wow, you two really are a match" she says. I give her a look of mock hatrid before almost laughing. I look around the room. Tris and Marlene both look at me with a shocked look on their faces. Will and All don't care, and are debating about something. Uriah looks at me with an odd look, yet still smirking. "Oh my God! You like Peter?" Tris whispers. I facepalm and look down. "You two would be adorable together!" She says out loud this time. "Yeah. Maybe if he got someone to make him happy he wouldn't be such a coward all the time. Besides, he's kinda hot." Christina says. "If you can change that sour disposition, go for it. But, if he ever hurts you, you come to me." She looks me dead in the eye, and honestly, I'm kinda scared. I laugh though. "Yeah, its kinda a shame that his face was wasted on a person like him. He is hot." Marlene says. Then I hear a voice behind me. "Whos hot, Marlene?" Peter stands right behind me. I blush, hoping he doesnt notice. Uriah and Christina try not to laugh. Marlene speaks up. "Well...(y/n) thinks you are." She laughs, collapsing backwards on the floor. I shove my face in my hands. Peter sits down next to me. "Oh really? Hmm interesting. You know what, (y/n), why dont your meet me in the pit after this, and I'll let you in on a little secret." He winks at me and leaves. Around me everyone yells "Ooooooohhhhh" I blush even harder. I'm sure I look like a tomato. "Are you gonna go?" Tris asks. "Well yeah!" I say. I need to know what he's going to tell me. _time skip_ I walk into the training room hesitantly. Peter stands by a punching bag, tapping on a screen, which he slips into his pocket when he sees me. "Hey." I say, somewhat flustered. "Hey, you came. I didn't think you'd show up, but here you are" he says. He scratches the back of his neck. "So what did you want to tell me?" I ask. He walks toward me a few steps, until we're inches apart. I blush. He gently places his hands on my waist and pulls me closer. My hands hit his chest. I blush harder. " I'm in love with you. And I don't really know how to deal with it, because I don't know how to love people without messing it up, but I love you and I want to make this work. I've done a lot of bad stuff, but I swear, with you by my side, we can be incredible. Like the dauntless power couple that doesnt terrorize the faction. When I saw you jump before me in that Amity yellow, I swear, I fell in love for the first time. I lo-' I kiss him, mostly to shut him up, but also because the closeness is killing me. I want the space between us to close. I wrap my arms around his neck, and his strengthen around my waist, keeping me there for who knows how long. It felt like eternity, but aat the same time, it felt like only a few seconds. I head howling from the pit walls and see Mar, Tris, Uriah, Christina, Al and Will up there. Christina wraps her hands around her mouth and yells "Get it, girl!" Across the pit. Peter holds his hand up, his palm towards them, and kisses me, everyone yelling "Awwwwww" with the exception of a few who opt for fake gagging. If we had been alone, the moment would've been perfect. Later on that night, I fall asleep thinking about earlier. Im not sure if were technically dating yet or not. Just as I was about yo doze off, I feel two strong arms wrapping around me. "Hey" I whisper. Peter hums and buries his face in my neck. I sigh, and fall back to sleep. The next morning, Eric comes so wake us up for training. We're supposed to be up earlier than usual today for some reason. Peter sits up next to me and wraps his arm around me. He wears a black sweatshirt, mine is burgundy. Erics eyes land on us and I stand up to pull m hair into a bun. I walk out into the training room and see Eric holding knives. This can't me good. Tris almost got stabbed last time. "Peter. Based on last nights events, you are going to stand infront of the target. You shouldve though about what I told you." He leans in toward Peter and hushes his voice to a whisper. "You knew I loved her." My stomach drops. The thought of Eric liking me makes me sick. "She doesnt love you Eric." Peter responds. "You. Target. Now." His voice is harsh and louder than usual. He walks infront of the target. the knife sails over his head and sticks in the wood. "Stop now, Eric! If youre going to do this, at least get Four so you don't kill him!" I yell. Eric ignores me. The next knife hits the target, only this time it hits his hand. He walks away, thankfully alive. That night I sneak into the infirmary to see him. He wraps his uninjured arm around me and I lean down to kiss him. He's alive. And so am I.

[wandrie]

50 questions with Ori my spirit guide

Same questions by @lulloph

1:what do you think is the worst creation ever made?

Ori: like inanimate or? me: anything you desire lmao Ori: Pedophiles.

2: whats your favorite genre of music?

Ori: like... southern Gothic chain gang country-ish but not like classic country?? Like Lana Del Rey or Delta Rae me: bless you 

3:if you could be any other entity, what would you be?

ori: Id be a god. me: WOWi

4: how many times do you think you have seen a beluga whale (in pictures or otherwise)?

ori: Im 9062 years old Ive seen many.

5:what is your favorite time of day?

Ori: Dawn

6: when do you think is the best time to take a nap?

Ori: I don’t have time for naps.maybe mid day so I cans till go to sleep at night.

7: how flexible are you on a scale from 1-10?

Ori: probably like a 7? me: yeah? ori: I can touch my toes but i cant like contort myself or anything.

8: how many fingers do you have?

ori: 18 in total. me: not 20? ori: thumbs are not fingers, they are thumbs. me: ok DAD

9:how many fingers do you want?

Ori: a total of 18 fingers and 2 thumbs.

10: would you rather get rid of your left arm(/left fin/other left extremity) or like half of all your body hair?

ori: body hair.

11:would you rather have a hamster or a guinea pig?

ori: neither. I am not a fan.

12: would you rather eat a rose quartz point or eat a selenite tower?

Ori: Don’t eat rocks Bree..... me: that wasnt the question. ori: I know what i said young lady.

13: would you rather have your whole body to be shaved like a barber pole or have to wear crocs on your hands and feet for the rest of your life (cant ever take em off…they grow with u)?

Ori: none of those. I dont care. if anyone comes near me with crocs or a shaver i will stab them. me: yes SIR

14: how many times in a day do you wash your hands?

Ori: As many times as is required. Before every meal, After using the bathroom, etc.

15: do you prefer rings or necklaces

Ori: rings. Im waiting for Az to put a ring on it. me: OH WORM? Ori: stop.

16: how many times in ur life have u ever wanted to yodel?

Ori: whenever the situation calls for it. these are strange questions....

17: do you prefer chocolate or fruity candy?

Ori: hmm............................*thinks for a long time* chocolate

18: whats your favorite animal?

Ori: Youve been foxes several times and Ive always thought those were adorable. Maybe I’m biased

19: if you had to ride an animal for the rest of your life, what animal would it be?

Ori: an animal that is made for riding?.... Horse?

20:are you an alto or soprano?

Ori: Alto and soprano are for feminine voice types. I would technically be a Tenor, but for the sake of this question, Alto.

21: what is your opinion on shopping?

Ori: I enjoy going to farmer’s market type places. Its interesting to see all the different types of food.

22: how would you feel if everything you ate for the rest of your life was the texture of sand?

Ori: i would probably choke on it..

23: how would you feel if everything you drank for the rest of your life was the texture of oil paint?

Ori: as long as its cold. It could be like a smoothie I suppose.

24: how many times in your life have you tap danced?

Ori: Maybe a few times. Im unsure.

25:do you prefer the moon or the sun?

Ori: The moon.

26: what is your opinion on water?

Ori: I do enjoy a good swim or sprinkle. My favorite place in your astral space is the fountain you made me. me: Aw im glad you like it so much.

27: how disgusting is the pulp in fruit juice on a scale from 1-10? (dont try to lie and say its good….its bad)

Ori: mm...maybe a 5. I will drink the juice if it has pulp but I don’t prefer it.

28: what is your favorite flavor of chewing gum?

Ori: The....bubble gum flavor. is that what its called? me: I believe so?

29: how well can you juggle?

Ori: I can juggle just fine. I wouldn’t say i’m an expert at it.

30: what are the top 3 instruments you’d like to learn how to play?

Ori: Ive always wanted to play the violin. thats all.

31: would you rather be the size of an ant for the rest of your life or the size of a giant every day for two random consecutive hours of the day?

Ori: neither. me: oh come onnnnnnnnn Ori: a giant so i could squish you.

32:what type of clothing would u get rid of if you could?

Ori: Boob windowed shirts me: why you dont have boobs Ori:....I guess I just dont like the trope in superhero things.

33: what 4 similarities can you think of for an alligator vs a peacock?

Ori: you find them in random places. Like that Library we used to go to, or swimming pools. Both remind me of dinosaurs, Aggressive, Beady eyes.

34: what color would you want your tongue to be if you could change it

Ori: I think it woould be nice if I could change the color of it like i can change my hair.....Maybe i can? ive never tried.

35: whats your opinion on reading?

Ori: I enjoy it very much. 

36: do you prefer the word snuggle or cuddle and why?

Ori: Both have the same meaning really. I use both depending on the day. However cuddle rolls off the tongue easier.

37: how many hairs do you think you have on your body?

Ori: None. me: what really? Ori: ask Az. me: in earlier questions you said body hair. Ori: yes because 1/2 of 0 hairs on my body is still 0. me: WOW

38: what is cooler? tarot or lenormand?

Ori: I know Tarot much more. Though I think you could benefit from learning a new divination card type Bree. me: yes dad

39: what is the coolest “mythical” creature?

Ori: hmm... nothing is very mythical now is it? Id say shapeshifters. me: youre just saying that because your boyfriend is a shapeshifter huh ori: anyway next question

40: if you could change your height/size, what would you change it to?

Ori: Maybe a bit taller.

41: what is your favorite cartoon?

Ori: whats that one you like? me: be more specific Ori: with the two kids and their uncle? Me: Gravity falls? ori: yes

42: what is a place you’d like to visit in the world?

Ori: I love Italy, I would like to spend my honeymoon there.

43: what is your opinion on daylight savings time?

Ori: I have no preference. Mostly because we dont change for that correct? We dont need to save sun. Me: correct. Arizona doesnt use it Ori: its inconvienent that everyone else does.

44: would you rather have to climb a tree like a monkey or like a big cat?

Ori: I would just fly? me: Answer the question Ori. Ori: maybe a monkey.

45: how do you feel about man buns?

Ori: I dont care.

46: if you had to eat one bug for the rest of your life, what would it be?

Ori: A huge one so i dont have to eat as many to be satisfied.

47: what genre of music is cursed (aside from country)?

Ori: well, considering I like country, whatever this persons favorite music is, is cursed. me: its just a silly joke ori. Ori: Hmpf

48: would you rather have to wear one glove for the rest of your life or one sock

Ori: I just wouldnt wear either. I dont even wear shoes.

49: what color would u want to paint your nails if you had to?

Ori:Hm pink or blue.

50: how much do you love your companion?

Ori: She is basically my daughter. And It is an honor to be her guide and see her grow in every life time. My love for her is unconditional, and I will do whatever I can to help her along, and I wouldn’t trade her for anything in the world or any other world for that matter. me: a-awww *tears up*

[markleetrashh]

Nct as Werewolves

Request: Would it be weird if I now request for something similar but it’s just that it’s a werewolf au this time? _(:3」z)_ Thank you and I really love your work!! 💕

A/N: no it’s not weird at all hehe, like last time, i’ll only give a brief outline of what they’re like so request again if you want a more specific detail of a member and im sorry if this is bad, idk much about werewolves 😭

Nct as Vampires

imagine you’re dating them, yes a werewolf

——

Taeil:

strong sense of hearing

could probably hear sounds from as far as 50metres away

very alert and quick

doesn’t growl much but when he does it’s either because he’s really hungry or angry

soft white fur, with streaks of grey

can be really gentle

generally really quiet but has random hyper moods

and he starts running non stop like??

dating you:

loves it when you pet him

especially when you play with his fur!!

loves snuggling up in your legs for warmth

but when he’s in human form he’s the total opposite??

he’s too shy to even initiate skin contact

but it’s still cute so

Hansol:

really mysterious

and quiet

big eyes!!

really observant and can catch every small little detail

grey/dark fur

can be really aggressive if he needs to be

but most of the time he’s just observing and not doing much

dating you:

becomes a big softie, unlike his usual self

smiles a lot too!!

once changed into his wolf form and ran through the whole woods just to find a pretty flower so that he could give it to you

doesn’t stop hugging you be it in wolf or human form

gets teased by the wolf! johnny because of this because he’s never this affectionate with the rest of the pack

Johnny:

really sneaky

and always joking

always acts like he’s very weak when in fact he’s the strongest in the pack

probably randomly goes up to another wolf and starts running while screaming “IT’S A RACE, LAST TO REACH WILL GET A PUNISHMENT”

and most of the time it’s wolf! ten

despite being a dork he’s still really observant, and is really serious when he needs to be

dark grey fur with a few streaks of black

really really active

dating you:

either teases you a lot, or is a total sweetheart

no in betweens honestly

but is always there to protect you

kinda overprotective and shows it

because he’d growl really loudly

and it’s scary because he hardly gets angry

but loves to chase you in his wolf form to freak you out and see you scream

but when he’s in human form he holds you in his arms a lot!!

which means lots and lots of hugs

Taeyong:

leader of the pack, really dependable and responsible

really serious at first

but after spending more them with the rest, he slowly opened up and got cheeky (like them)

actually smiles a lot

but when it comes to dealing with enemies or threats he can get really scary,, with those glares

light grey and white fur

takes care of the other wolfs a lot

dating you:

becomes a big softie too

especially cuddling up to you

and brushing his fur against your face/legs

and when he’s in human form he’s an actual sweetheart

doesn’t and won’t let anyone hurt you

not even a single bit

really really protective

Yuta:

sneakiest and most cunning one?

probably the one who sets up traps to catch enemies/threats

most aggressive one too?

is always joking around like wolf! johnny

except for when he’s with wolf! winwin

pastel grey fur

“don’t lie to yourselves, im the best in this pack”

dating you:

really bad pick up lines

“babe, it’s a full moon today, would you like to go FUR a walk together?”

“oh god why am i dating you”

“too late, you’re already mine”

probably bites you randomly (but lightly) because he wanted to ‘mark that you were his’

which you’re too tired to even scold him anymore because you’re so used to it

and he always gives that proud smile

“woah y/n what’s with that bite mark on your arm-” -a very clueless mark

but can also be very sweet

loves skinship a lot, both in human and wolf form

sticks to you no matter what

Kun:

quiet and observant too

doesn’t say much

but smiles a lot??

more like an angel tbh

but can be aggressive if asked to be

very light shade of grey with streaks of black

fast to react

runs quickly too

dating you:

still the sweetheart he is

occasionally searches through the woods to find flowers or plants to give you

lots of kisses in human form,

and lots of snuggling in wolf form,

especially when you hold him in your arms, his head on your shoulders

he loves it the most

always have a soft spot for you

Doyoung:

really sensitive

probably has a good eyesight too

or a good sense of hearing

quick to move and attack

bickers with wolf! taeyong & wolf! yuta the most

takes care of the younger ones

can actually run really fast but sometimes he’s too lazy to do so

really white fur and small sharp eyes

dating you:

doesn’t show it much but lowkey loves affection

loves it when you play with his fur

or when you hug him

but in human form he becomes a blushing mess

is always protecting you

his main priority is protecting you honestly

Ten:

really playful

and sometimes clueless too

which is why he always asks questions to the rest

and follows whatever they do

is really active

fast and quick

happy little bun

mixed of dark and grey fur

actually small in wolf form too

dating you

always teasing you

and makes you smile

really clingy and lots of skinship!!

“babe if we had children would they be werewolves too or would they be humans?”

gives you A LOT of kisses, everywhere

be it in human or wolf form,

he always leaves a mark on you

Jaehyun:

actually really smart and is always the one looking out for the enemies/threats

runs really really quickly

which is why he always races with johnny

probably the calmest amongst the pack

but when he’s aggressive it’s s c a r y

but most of the time he’s like a soft bun smiling so

except when he’s smirking it’s another story

really soft white and grey fur

in charge of taking care of the younger ones too

dating you:

really protective

is willing to take risks for you

in human form he always has his hands on you, and he’d give you that™ look

in wolf form, he loves growling to tease you but ends up jumping onto your legs for you to cuddle

which always scares you because he’s kinda huge in wolf form?

but still an absolute sweetheart who calls you so many sweet names

and doesnt forget to give you kisses everyday

WinWin:

another clueless one, but it’s so adorable??

is soft and quiet most of the time

but when things get serious he can get a bit aggressive and he gives that one glare that scares everyone

really observant and sensitive to his surroundings

listens to instructions really well

and he does he job well

but most of the time he’s actually really soft so!!

really light grey & soft, fluffy fur

dating you:

really loves skinship and affection

especially in wolf form

he loves it when you stroke his back

or when you pat his head

sweetest person ever??

does anything you call him to

a really big softie for you

Dreamies are still not fully developed werewolves yet so technically they’re half human still? (i dont think it matters but)

Mark:

another clueless one

but somehow still manages to become the leader of the younger pack??

which they always protest about ^

but listens to instructions really well and does a great job in completing tasks!!

an actual softie and sweetheart so he cant bring himself to hurt others

which is why he’s never aggressive

extremely soft snow white fur, a few streaks of dark grey on his back

dating you:

wants to be there for you whenever he can

loves cuddling with you, a lot

sticks close to you when he’s in wolf form

but in human form he’s an actual shy bean??

probably asks wolf! taeyong for advice

“what do i get her oh my god”

takes really good care of you

Renjun:

an angel?

really sweet and cant bring himself to hurt anyone else too

usually just helps the others if they need help

never really initiates

tries to be fierce and aggressive but is actually too nice to be

he cant even bring himself to hurt a bunny???

“wait!!! don’t cross yet, let this bunny hop past first”

is there to take care of wolf! chenle honestly

ash grey fur

dating you:

still the sweetheart he is

collects every flower he finds and gives it to you

and everyday it’s a different one

loves giving you small little pecks on the forehead

an actual sunshine honestly

Jeno:

is actually really agile and quick

also pays good attention to his surroundings

and wants to help the older wolves in the pack but doyoung wouldn’t allow in case he got hurt

so he spends his time playing with renjun & jaemin instead

is really polite and sweet?

slightly white fur, a few streaks of black

has really small but cute eyes?

eyesmile too!!!

dating you:

loves bringing you out to walks in the woods and forest

where he can freely be in wolf form

and your heart would flutter when you see him jumping and running around excitedly playing with the leaves

also loves hugging you in his arms a lot,,

snuggles close to you to keep himself warm

Haechan:

always joking around

“being a werewolf is tiring, why can’t i just be a normal human being”

when in fact, he loves being a werewolf THE MOST

always really actice and causing trouble

and gets a hearing from either taeyong or doyoung

but he’s too cute to stay mad at so they forgive him in the end

but he’s quick to think and can come up with many ideas

really faint grey fur with white streaks on his back

dating you:

probably chases you around for fun, or lets you chase after him

lots of laughter

loves it when you tickle him or pat his back/head

and he always gets revenge when he’s in human form, attacking you with tickles and big tight hugs

“damn you must be blessed to be dating someone unique like me”

Jaemin:

another dork here

won’t stop laughing or smiling

or thinking of pranks to pull on mark

actually really laidback and doesn’t do much

but when he needs to he gets things done quickly and well

always sticks with jeno

black fur with streaks of grey

dating you

really clingy

must be by your side 24/7 if not he’d start pouting or growling

like yuta, also says really bad pick up lines

“i usually do the hunting, but today you captured my heart”

“god jaemin you dont even do the hunting”

“shut up and go along with it”

Chenle:

as expected, the loudest of them all

can probably be heard laughing or howling from far away

but despite countless reminders from the older ones, he doesn’t listen

next second later he’s laughing again

loves disturbing/annoying the rest

but is actually really smart and can help a lot

only that he just wants to play

mixture of white and grey fur

dating you:

endless chattering and talking

even when he’s in wolf form he makes a lot of noises

and is super active

wants to pick flowers and stones for you to keep/collect

loves lying on your lap, your hand playing with his fur

an actual ball of happiness too who makes your day brighter

Jisung:

likes to act like he’s very matured but in fact, gets scared over the slightest things

which chenle always teases him about

is quiet but tries his best to help out

good runner and can catch onto/learn new things easily

but the older ones are too afraid he might get hurt to let him do anything

really soft grey fur

youngest but bigger than most?

dating you:

awkward shy bean

but always makes you laugh and smile with his silliness

loves resting his head on you

“i still can’t believe you’re dating me”

probably drags chenle out to help get things for you

sometimes really affectionate, even in human form

his favourite thing to do is giving you a big hug

[asksansweredpdf]

flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself? i feel like it was teenage rebel - chameleon circuit hahaha

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know? well, i often do tarot spreads for this. but i guess i would ask - you know. i’m not sure

daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life? literally just surviving it all

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise? maybe a few work ones, or the time not long ago i was put in a group assignment for uni. we all decided to meet up after our group presentation for drinks and hang out and i had a really fun time making new friends and hanging out with people

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living? oh man i would have WAY less anxiety about everything. knowing that nothing i do will matter in a year would be so freeing and liberating. i’d probably get a new job and actually get my motorbike license and go for rides 

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things? i don’t have a bucket list but i’ll try to think of 3 things i’d like to do before i die -

this has been in my drafts for days and i honestly can’t think of a thing. 

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood? nope

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person? honestly i can’t remember. oh! i think maybe 6 months ago i got high and started over thinking and got sad and started crying. my roommate walked past because i forgot i had the door open and hugged me and then left after a bit

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them. ideally, it’d be a close friend. but i dont have those. so maybe if i could go back in time and stargaze with an old friend. otherwise, my current friend hj is cool! actually, i’d love to get high and stargaze with him.

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them? i have before. but no, i wouldn’t now. i’m not like that anymore

lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you? it was 4 months ago, with my old best friend’s ex-boyfriend (i think they broke up? i dont talk to either of them anymore). i used to be close to him anyway, like we were also best friends. and we used to be roommates.

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom? i’d love to look my mother in the eyes and say “i’ll never forgive you” but. it doesn’t feel right as much as i mean it. i guess i’d like to say it to both my parents. but i have to pick one person. .... i guess i would get my old best friend who i havent spoken to in 6 years and say “i’m sorry. i missed you for years. i’ll always love you” or something equally dramatic

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes? i have them and i love them. they’re so beautiful

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally. i’m picking a few because fuck the police “being human is a condition that requires a little anaesthesia” was from the bohrap movie. relatable mood. reminds me of my mother which makes me uncomfortable “fall down 7 times, stand up 8. higher, further, faster” from captain marvel. i’ve been through soooo much fucking shit in my life. and i feel like it just keeps coming (well. the shit keeps coming and it don’t stop coming and it dont stop coming and it dont stop coming and it dont stop coming) and sometimes i wonder what the point of it all is. like what’s the point of trying to be happy when i’m just going to be let down again. and so it’s encouraging to change perspective from that to, we get up higher, further, faster

“my skin has gone from porcelain, to ivory, to steel” - sansa stark  it ties in with the captain marvel one. in that shit just keeps happening. and i feel the same way. i used to be so free and naive and i’m not that person anymore. i guess it makes me feel less alone. 

oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far? “

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars? buy a house for myself, buy a few investment properties so that i know i’m always secure financially. put a couple million in the bank. buy houses for my friends and family, donate the rest

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way? yes and yes. i feel like i’m really understanding, and so i forgive people when it’s understandable. but once it’s past a certain point, i’m not at all forgiving. i hold grudges too. i like being this way

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self. “hey kid. happy birthday! well, this is where things start to get really hard. you’re going to go through a lot even though you think you won’t. people are going to leave you and treat you despicably and betray you. almost everyone you love will completely screw you over. you will have no one to count on except yourself. i’m not saying this to scare you. but i want you to know that even when you feel like it’s too much to handle, you’re so much stronger than you’ll even realise. you have so much turmoil ahead of you, but i love you so much. you’ll come out the other end with anxiety and so scarred. but you’ll survive it. all of it. you’ll survive. there’s no lesson or greater purpose. i’m not going to tell you that it all happens for a reason, because it doesn’t. just trust that you have what’s in you to face anything. once day this will all feel like a bad dream and you’ll start to feel like yourself again. best of luck. ps there is no god”

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel? punk

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain. love them both. they’re hot and cool

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not? nah, i only wear make up to work. and that’s because i work in sales. part of getting people to like you is being attractive. make up makes you more attractive. when people like you, you have more influence over them and you make more sales

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way. runaway by pink. that song just. what a mood. and family portrait. i relate to both of those songs so much. even when i was going through shit, i had that song that i could sing and even though things were never okay, they made it bearable

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them. be kind to each other?

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel. 1st was a pink concert i went to when i was 15! we were super poor so this was a major deal. i waited in line for ages and my back started hurting real bad. but as soon as she got on stage everything went away. it was electrifying and she performed my favourite song. and i had eyeliner on which i cried off because she was my idol and it was amazing. her dancers were also super hot and i re-affirmed my bisexuality because i was like. wow. yes 2nd was lana & borns. my sister made me go with her to see lana del rey who i dont really give a shit about. she’s cool but im not like a major fan. borns however, i adore with every fibre of my being. borns was the opening act which was cute. i was one of the only ones in the crowd who knew him and everyone behind me was like gasping and talking about how cute he is. which also re-affirmed my sexuality. up until that point i thought that maybe i was a lesbian because i didn’t tend to find men too attractive. but borns? nope, i knew i was bi. then lana came on. it was okay. i knew a fair amount of the songs and apparently pissed everyone off by singing? i just thought that’s what you did at concerts dsjgdslkr but i had fun.

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say? i would love to get a letter from an old best friend of mine saying sorry & that we should catch up. i feel like i havent had a friendship as full of connection as the one we’ve had. it’s been years and i still dont have anyone that could possibly replace her. but i worry that if we ever did try to re-kindle things it just wouldnt work out. which would lead me to ask myself if there was ever going to be anyone else who i’ll have that connection with. but it’d be nice at least

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised? i don’t have a desk! i had one for about 3 months and it was organised. i was always too poor to afford a desk and it just wasnt a priority when i used my bed

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine? go upstairs, lay in bed, read .... words, stay up until my eyes are closing for me. sleep

old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know? my parents opinion literally means nothing to me. i wouldn’t care what they do/don’t know. i guess id prefer if they didnt know about the drugs because my mum did them a lot and it led to her being abusive. so they’d be suuuper judgy and probably take them off me and shit. but once im moved out, i dont really care. they wont be able to do much about it

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why? i’d love to have a shaved thing. my hair’s already short. but my dad’s homophobic and doesnt want me to get it short. i dont give enough of a shit about it to argue with him so i leave it. but if i could, having a cool shaved thing would be nice

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do? i dont think i even have 5 friends, and if i do, we certainly don’t have fun together. i’d just go by myself. i’m lots of fun to be around when it’s just me

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them. i wish for a job that has stable income, consistent hours, a kind staff, and is something that i’m not constantly fucking up. - i wish for this because i feel like getting up every day to do something that doesn’t give me panic attacks (that i might even be able to enjoy) is such a dream. and if it gives a stable amount of money and hours, i’d be able to plan things and have a life instead of worrying about them calling me at literally any given moment and asking me to work. which means i’d either have to work or stammer out an excuse on the spot & have the managers be mad at me i wish for a living space that i can afford & is either by myself or with people who aren’t terrible. or with people who can’t fuck me over if they get mad at me. this would step 2 of being happy for me. having a job that doesn’t make me anxious = job that could make me happy. living space that is secure and mine and that no one can take away = reduction of anxiety and security = potentially being happy.  i guess i’d use the 3rd wish on having a car or motorbike. being able to get around without relying on anyone or public transport would be nice. i can go to places whenever it suits me and i’d be independent. i can just decide to go to an art gallery without it having to be a major planning thing or something that would take 2 hours to get to and from. it’d be very liberating 

painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up. omg! last halloween. i borrowed an old friend’s witch costume. it was this cute corseted dress with a mini skirt & suspenders that attach to stockings. i bought a matching wand and witches hat. i looked super cute

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high? i havent done terrible things under the influence hey. i mostly just have fun and keep to myself.

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars? i dunno man. one million dollars is a lot of money. surely any of my usual morals would fly out the window. murder would become questionable. like it’s $1 million. i guess maybe not murder because if i went to jail then i wouldnt be able to spend the $1m. mass murder of like children and innocent people i probably wouldnt do. even if i got away with it

storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why? 1 song would be maybe americans - janelle monae. it’s a tune and you can listen to it for any mood really 1 person? i’ve purposefully gotten rid of any person i would want to only see for the rest of my life. not in a murder way, i just cut ties with them

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love. many a time. it’s a really nice thing! not just romantically. but for me, i just suddenly can’t stop thinking about them. like every spare second i have i’m wondering what they’re doing, thinking about our inside jokes, planning what i’ll say next, wondering what to wear to impress them next, planning how i’m going to work this funny story i want to tell them, etc. and i won’t be able to stop smiling whenever they’re around. the worst giveaway for me is when i can feel myself excessively talking to other people about them. and i can’t stop.  it gives me something to think about that makes me happy. something that makes me happy to distract from usually the shitter things.

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair? i am a girl and i have really really short hair. i rock it. i also rock black nail polish

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone? i hate coffee. so i usually order a white hot chocolate with cream and marshmallows. i’d trust anyone to order it for me. as long as they didn’t screw up and get me the white chocolate mocha, which has happened a few times 

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now? alcohol. music! probbaly music before alcohol. i love music. cigarettes. and my phone