#but NOW...... ironically I feel like their backstory is more tragic bc they're in this 'normal' world where people all around them | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

byanyan · 11 months

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me two years ago: byan has always been a little bastard. awful nasty child who intentionally used their big doe eyes to manipulate people

me now: byan used to be a soft baby who just wanted love and acceptance, who slowly became hardened and selfish in order to survive when they realized they'd never get what they needed

#'two years ago' I say like I wasn't still holding onto some of these headcanons at the beginning of this year #tbf a lot of the shift has come directly from translating them from their original setting into a more realistic modern one #original byan's setting was a lot more doom and gloom and a lot more pessimism and cruelty consistent across everyone within it #they grew up fully on the streets and taking care of themself so they learned from a VERY young age how to get what they wanted/needed #and felt no qualms bc like. literally everyone was just trying to survive however they could #so they kinda had to be nasty from the start #but NOW...... ironically I feel like their backstory is more tragic bc they're in this 'normal' world where people all around them #have things better than they do. people around them have everything they want and need and they just have to watch longingly #all while being told that lives like those of most of the kids around them are the norm #THEY'RE the outsider. THEY'RE the one who's not normal.#so growing up they actually try SO HARD to be what people want them to be while also trying to fight to be who they are #and it's just. never good enough. THEY'RE never good enough.#it really changes the entire vibe of the character (':#hi good morning don't mind me I'm just emotional over byan's development as a character over the last two and a half years #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

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