#but i did dry-laugh-sob a lot during the meal fit for a king scene and during the tomshiv car scene. pivotal and lifechanging !

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have the other shivgirls been crying nonstop or is that just me. like have the other shivgirls not been able to think about shiv for 1 second without tears flowing from their eyes. i watched this show with some family members and was in absolute shock and as soon as i got in the car and headed back to my apartment i just started full on sobbing like a delayed effect because of her. i love shiv so much she's the character ever. shivgirls when her one moment of agency defined the entire ending of the show at the cost of herself. she was a killer but it was also a mercy kill and she killed herself in the process, but she was already dead anyways. agh.

AUGH anon we r holding hands !!!! i love tragedy and the fact that my favorite character had an (imo) unambigously tragic ending is absolutely decimating me. i keep thinking abt kendall saying "you're voting against yourself," and you get it she's literally a killer but it was a mercy kill !!! what a way to put it. it is so incredibly important to me that shiv uses her choice to oust kendall out of the cycle and take control of the ouroboros of family business bc it is a declaration of love and of power at once and it manages to fall short in both ways. kendall will to some extent always mourn the waystar ceo position and even though shiv is closer to the throne here the tradeoff was she is leashed to it permanently by marriage and by motherhood. i already said this but god i do love how central tenets of shivs character are her daily dose of self-administered poison at the sexual violence factory and her interpersonal manipulation of the softskills women's work and baby-sister pinky roles in order to legitimize her twin aspirations of logan's respect and power at any cost. like she WILL strive for equalization on the business side with tom try to pull the strings on ceo decisions groom her daughter to be the heir to the throne let the poison drip through bc its what helped HER get this far >:) its always been down to shiv imo bc shes the final kid, the prized doll who came to life. shivs decision cementing succession as a tragedy is sooo delicious the poison has rotted her teeth all the way through and no she isnt swallowing them. but the price has already been paid