#but i dont really like the whole music thing w bards it feels... theater kid-y? idk volo ruined bards for me lol hes so fucking annoying | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

cocotine · 2 months

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i barely have any sense of self anymore beyond like. being lazy/tired and not wanting to do things.

i know the self is an intangible and abstract concept but im trying to decide what class i would be in bg3 (this is a really stupid reason to have an existential crisis i know) and i can't settle on anything bc i don't really know who i am or what im like anymore beyond my shortcomings and weaknesses. which sounds stupid but it's upsetting when something that's supposed to be a fun hobby becomes a source of despair because i can't stop ruminating and i can't enjoy the game bc im thinking of how inadequate i am. maybe this is why people play as characters that aren't themselves BUT I NEED TO SELF INSERT i need to. idk

#it keeps coming down to storm sorcerer bc i was born right before a big ice storm irl and im always cold and i get static shocks rly often #and i have very strong emotions and a bad temper sometimes that kind of works with like. storm theme #and i can't see myself learning to fight/kill without necessity or studying spells since wizardry is kind of like the science of that world #but then im like well wtf makes me think id be so special to be born with a magic gifts. im nobody #and a couple of friends said they'd see me as a bard and i do want some healing/support spells #but i dont really like the whole music thing w bards it feels... theater kid-y? idk volo ruined bards for me lol hes so fucking annoying #as well as the bard dialogue options from my current playthrough. they're all kind of lame #ranger is out bc spells are wisdom based and i dont wanna pick a Favoured Enemy my favoured enemy is no enemy thanks #i did a quiz and it gave me rogue but idk. i guess i can see myself sneaking around and i do a lot of sneaking around ingame but idk #im going for charisma and dex/int as my main stats yes i KNOW i should invest in constitution but it is simply not accurate for me #maybe ill do. 8 sorc 4 rogue....or something....i kind of just want bonus action dash from rogue and a crossbow for non-magic dmg #i really don't think im smooth enough to be a rogue though #my only sense of self is all the ways in which im inadequate lmao #blabber

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