#but idk i’ll just have to make smtn else too

[b00bconnoisseur]

you make me feel less alone

Same when i joined i didn't really know anyone and then outta no where u remember u sent that ask? Ndns it said smtn like "show me your art or I'll shoot" and i was like "I'm sorry idk how to attach photos but please dont shoot!" And you said "thats ok just post it and tag me"

Idk if that's our first interaction but Ik it was one of the firsts and then we fir a while just liked and rb'd each other's posts n stuff like that and then on august 28th you texted me asking how to turn on asks jxnxb. Our v first messaging! I also remember at one point u said its funny how we were still interacting with eachothers blog while texting cause its like a secret we're messaging, no one suspects a thing or smtn lol

Dude remember when we were asking if each other has sibs and i was like yea i have 6 how abt you and you were like DUDE ME TOO. I think besides tøp that was one of the things we kinda had in common and bonded over shared experiences jsnxmxb

Ive made alot of frens since being here, and ive had some irl (i do have some but i dont talk to many often) but no doubt out of them youre my best bud. Like. Ive ever had. Like I've told you things first that i hadnt anyone else, ive told u embarrassing things, we've helped each other thru alot of stuff and idk if anyone else could've done that for me, i say this often but u dont hesitate abt giving the truth and what u think and u sorta take no shit which tbh??? I literally cant do really but you're not the best with emotional stuff so we kinda balance by helping each other

I could go on bro but basically i love you bro and ik i say it every day but its true youre the best fren ive ever had and i cant imagine what all wouldve happened in this past year and a half without you bro. Like i literally cant at all. I cant wait till we can be roomies! Idk when thatll be but I'll wait as long as you need till you feel ready bro ^^ *hugs*

[b00bconnoisseur]

From now on im gonna try and relax for a bit with drawing. Not as in taking a break, but as in not taking on the pressure of 4-8 hr pieces too much atm. Not that i hate it. It just makes me feel like im in a rut i cant escape. And its my own fault really.

I feel obligated to draw stuff for ppl alot tho i dont have to but i feel a dire need to do so. And drawing is always in the back of my head. Not for myself, or fun. But for other ppl. And i feel like that art i create for ppl is the only REAL art. Not a random doodle. A bored painting. I think of them as mini games that are non important as the main game. I feel like i have a deep selfplanted burden rutt i cant get rid of. And constant art block doesnt help lol. I almost rely on drawing smtn for someone because without it i feel like i shouldn't be drawing cause whatever else id draw is irrelevant.

But ive been trying to think differently. I have for a v long time now but no luck so here we go again lol. Idk if you guys have seen on my twitter (well ik a couple peeps have *cough* lora, sam *cough*) but ive been just sketching lately and ngl, it feels good. I can do it messy, scratchy, neat, however i want without worrying abt "finalizing it" (line work, shadding, highlighting, adding detailing, etc) and the thought relaxes me and helps me enjoy it. So if i post some sketches soon (im planning on it this week) thats why lol

I also got a new sketchbook recently! And i reallyyyyyyyy want to start in it BUT I'm like 75% thru the one i got on Christmas so im like U WILL FINISH A SKETCHBOOK AT LEAST ONCE IF ITS THE LAST THING I DO so yea im workin to do that (then when i do i wanna make a flipthru notebook tour on yt....again)

I dunno why i decided to put this rant here but i jus wanted to share this with u guys yknow?

Also if u dont get to everyones oc's im so sorry, I'll I'll try to as many as i can (and I'll try and NOT make it into a "have to" situation but a "want to" one.....if that makes sense?)