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soldier-poet-king · 20 days

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Like. I know I should not be peeved that a FAMILY DEATH is probably going to mean I can't go on my long weekend roadtrip with my uni friends (funeral is likely to be on Friday, when we were scheduled to leave) like that is THE MOST petty of me ik. But also....fuck I was gonna have a fun time long weekend with friends for the first time since BEFORE covid....

I should absolutely be more upset abt death maybe but we ALL knew this was coming except for his mother, and he had suffered for so long, and we were not emotionally close, though ofc big immigrant families very attached at the hip

#the duality of fran #like my mother said oh dont come to the funeral if its then #but SO YOU KNOW HOW JUDGED ID BE IF I SKIPPED THE FUNERAL #to....checks notes ..GO ON VACATION????#like. my first cousin once removed who has had severe developmental disabilities his whole life #took a serious downturn the last few rears #could no longer eat #walk ok his own. gesture. none of what he used to do #and then it just keot getting worse. hes been in and out of hospital so much #literally we all knew it was coming except my aunt #its a mercy even if it is tragic #but im a horrible selfish bitch and its like. my vacation. my freedom #TO GO TO A FUNERAL. AND DEAL WITH INSANE FAMILY DRAMA #like is it even going to be about pete or is it going to be about extended family infighting. yknow #also i just hate funerals i am not comforting #my comfort is silent touch and cooking

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