#but it seems disingenuous and arrogant and simply…not true to posture myself as some kind of unrecognized or underappreciated talent LMAO | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

marxism-lelouchism · 5 months

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it feels bad and kind of attention-seeking to desperately need external validation to live and while i do genuinely treasure every kind word i've ever received, it also feels impossible for me to internalize any praise and actually believe it, leading me to again need more positive encouragement, which makes me feel not just attention-seeking but also like an ingrate to the people who have been supportive... i want to believe in the me that my friends believe in, but unfortunately there is a part of me that believes even more so that if i were really good enough then my work would speak for itself and i wouldnt need to ask for validation

#🌱#anyway I know there are plenty of reasons raging from luck to structural factors why some works don’t get the recognition that others do #but it seems disingenuous and arrogant and simply…not true to posture myself as some kind of unrecognized or underappreciated talent LMAO #it’s really not that serious anyway #the simpler answer is just that i need to keep working hard and getting better #regardless i do really treasure all the kind words ive ever gotten #each word made its way into my heart where it matters

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