#but jesus christ must companies make the job search process so f*cking awful

[nickmillerscaulk]

i got a silly (devastating) little job rejection email today and i've been crying on and off all day bc i've been at this for nearly a year. i have yet to land a single interview. and i'm only in this situation bc i was part of a mass layoff at my last job. and at this point, it's so hard not to take it personally. i feel stuck and frustrated and alone in this. and my brain keeps going 'failure!!!!'

but this evening when my littlest sister (who is 27, not like, little-little) got home from work, she came into my room and gave me a long-ass hug and let me cry while she rubbed my back. and i'm not really a physical touch love language kind of girlie, but it meant so much to me bc she and i have really... not meshed well under the same roof throughout the pandemic. we used to be much closer, but our relationship has shifted and taken the brunt of our disagreements. and idk, i guess i appreciate her showing she cares despite (more often than not) feeling like she doesn't.