#but my brain is like : ummm you have reached maximum capacity go have a shot of whiskey

[mintyobscurity]

Babes~

Hi hello it me. I just wanted to say a few things... there’s been a lot of stuff happening in my personal life that’s left me drained emotionally and physically. Some days it’s hard and I wanna give up and other days I’m as happy as a napping cat; content. I’ve been stressed out to the max, my anxiety has never been worse, and this is all triggering my depression which makes everything 10x worse. I’ve had lack of motivation for everything: for going outside (literally haven’t left the house in 2 1/2 weeks help I need toiletries) I have had 0 inspiration to art and as an artist, that’s such an awful feeling. I can’t write, draw, paint - I’m struggling. I have 0 energy for simple tasks and I’m in pain a lot so I hardly get out of bed. With having 0 energy, I can’t even have a decent cry. I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I can’t life basically and it’s so damn frustrating. Life has been kicking me while I’m down so often that it’s harder to get back up each time. I feel so alone and scared, worried and anxious, ugly and fat... Now saying that, I also don’t have any friends out of the internet. Not one person I can turn to.

But I am so lucky because I have all my online friends. I know it’s not the same as someone in real life but so many of you have done things none of my past “friends” would even dream of doing. I have so many of you, you all make me feel loved and important in your own ways and if it weren’t for you guys... I wouldn’t be here. You’re all angels and I love every single one of you. I cannot put my gratitude into words, nor my feelings and I’m a “writer”. This journey would be so much worse without you. I am so lucky to know all of you, even if I’ve never met any of you, maybe one day I can meet some of you. If I didn’t have tumblr, I wouldn’t have met any of you beautiful angels! You’ve all done so much for me while I’ve been dealing with so much, and if I could ever repay you I feel like it wouldn’t be enough. You’re so important to me, all of you are, making me feel uplifted and cared for. Thank you, so damn much. You mean so much to me as well and if you ever need me, you know where to find me. If not here, then there’s Twitter, KKT, IG, Snapchat (I don’t have FB though). I’m so lucky to have each and every one of you as a friend 🖤 you make my troubles disappear, even if for a short while. I cannot say thank you enough. I love you all 🌹💋

@joohoneyicetea @jeonghanniee @serenzippity @broccoli-channie-soup @baekhyunbitz @kihoseok @minhyukstealer @wonseoks @dirtyretrowrites @hyuunwoo @binnie-binnie-bambam @dejoovu @kixkyun @chvngkyum @stellarkyun @dontjudgemebymykpoptrash @shownu4l @collateralyouandi @myleejooheon @daeribaek and Mattie🍇 and to all the anons who’ve sent me sweet messages. Thank you♥️