#but my game couldn't take the strain and crashed lol

[swallowprettybird]

Love & Hate 🌹

Love: How do I live now?

Hate: Just remember to breathe .

i was inspired to make this post by @changingplumbob and her beautiful Deanne ❤️

I imagine it as an internal struggle between feelings and the pain of breaking up with Paris ❤️‍🩹

One part of her is broken, while the other tries to comfort her and start a new life 💌

[kreiitsuuuu]

hi idk if this is how u request lol but if you can, giyuu with a chronically ill reader?

💮 GIYUU TOMIOKA WITH A CHRONICALLY ILL GN! READER

💌 A/N:: hii yes! this is how you request, dms are okay as well! also, i didn't catch you state a gender so reader will be gender neutral again! quick note: i write for all genders! so feel free to request either you're male, female, trans, non binary, you name it! <3

☆ warnings: mentions of blood, and possible death

Giyuu Tomioka

Giyuu took a while to notice your overall condition.

Though, when he did catch wind of your illness, it was like a boulder came crashing down onto his face.

He had never considered the fact that you also had a disease that shortens your lifespan, just like Ubuyashiki-sama.

Truth be told, he's afraid of losing another loved one, again. If this was his lifetime faith, he'd rather lose himself at this point forward.

You were the flame the kept his dull and cold life going. If you were ever extinguished and lost from his grasps, there was no hope on igniting him once more.

The cells in your body slowly deteriorate and die as you grow and age, it's a genetically passed on disease your ancestors had all suffered through as well. And it seems like it's your turn to witness the disease for yourself.

You were a swordsman at the peak of your life when the Water Pillar had the chance on meet you. Nothing was holding you back from being the best at your game, well, nothing you had known at that time. He fell for you, and so did yourself — had fell for him.

Even though you did try to still be one with the Corps as you tried training, which didn't help your condition — it actually made it worse as your body grew frail every passing second, and moving takes up most of your energy. Hell, even sitting was already a chore!

Tomioka, of course, did not like this, and had already adviced you to rest and not strain your body furthermore.

But, your stubborn self, refuses to ' burden ' your lover.

" Y/n, please. You're only going to hurt yourself even more if you keep resisting.. " Tomioka sat by your futon, as his hands ran through your hair. He was still in his uniform, haori still on and all. The sun had already set for the day, and the cold evening breeze blew calmly into the presence of your home.

You only kept your gaze onto the floor as Giyuu sighed. Feeling a pair of arms pull you in a warm embrace, messy raven hair met your face as he rested his head on top of your shoulder. There, you sat on his lap, welcoming his whole being, melting in his touch.

In all honesty, you wished things were to stay like this. Spending time on mundane activities, and living life to the fullest. But both you and your lover knew, that faith had better plans for your lives.

" I'm sorry.. I just didn't want to put more weight into your shoulders, Giyuu.. you should be focusing on your missions rather than tending to my needs. I'm sure I'll be alright by myself. " The words that left your mouth had only made his embrace tighter, as Giyuu held your hands together with his. Intertwining your fingers together as his heart ached.

" Y/n, there is nothing you should be apologizing for. If you're thinking about being a burden just because of your condition — then do not. You're a great aspect into my life, and I would rather be by your side til the end of time.. " His words made your heart flutter, and ache painfully at the same time. For you, Giyuu absolutely deserves the world for all of the things he'd said and done for you. You couldn't even thank him properly, which made you feel bad.

Before you could open your mouth and respond back, fits of intense coughing came from you, as blood also came flying out with your saliva. Patting your back lightly, Giyuu reached out for a nearby towel and helped you wipe the crimson liquid off of your mouth and clothing. He also handed you a glass of water, in which you thanked him and drank.

" Are you alright now? " Blue eyes met your [E/C] ones, as his hands trailed off to cup your face. The rough texture of his fingers brushed onto your cheeks, as his face softened.

" Yes, thank you.. " Setting the cup of water down, your hand reached at his, as you returned a defeated smile to your lover. This really was a cruel faith to live with.

" Would you like to sleep now? I'll be here by your side until you wake up. Please, Y/n.. it pains me to see you suffer. " There it is again, his words were interlaced with worry and sadness. It made your eyes water, as tears threatened to pour.

" ..There there, it's alright.. I'm sorry. " Giyuu had pulled you into another hug, but this time, you had felt his arms tremble before you. He was scared of losing you, terrified at the thought of losing another important part of him. You couldn't hold your tears back, burying your head onto the crook of his neck, sobbing sadly as Tomioka held you close and dearly.

An hourglass was chained onto you, and there was nothing you could do to stop it's sand from falling down. It will only take a matter of time until your life is taken. Death looms, yet you absolutely refuse to leave your lover. Your everything.

It was inevitable to refuse. Nothing in your hands were capable enough to stop this unstoppable, and cruel predicament. But.. Giyuu promises to himself to make everyday a memorial one, and he'd cherish every single memory the two of you spent and will spend together.

" If I do ever lose you.. will you wait for me in the afterlife, darling? "

" Of course. "

The two of you shared a comfortable silence, as you had slowly succumbed to slumber from Giyuu's grasp.

" Good night, my love. "

💌 A/N:: i initially planned this to be fluff but... </3 I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED,,, IT TURNED INTO ANGST :'') maybe it's because i listening to homage while writing this...

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