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quenthel · 1 year

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Maybe bc it's been a long time ago and old problems seem smaller but I'm having such a hard time w figuring out exactly if I want to transition or not. Like I'm not unhappy rn but I feel like I would be more happy as a transmasc Lesbian but also it's very scary to me....

#quenthel special #last week or so i saw somebody i follow here whos also hungarian talk abt starting t or being on t #and i kept telling myself that getting on t as a nb person was impossible w legislation but maybe not #but also im leaving and abroad laws are different #but my god i dont want ky family be weird abt it bc i would change then...#and im worried abt finding work already so as a trans immigrant that would be even harder...#the more i struggle w tgis the more respect n adoration i have for all trans ppl too bc this shit is so so scary...#idk if i will ever be brave enough to go for it at least not w a horde of ppl supporting me...#like im esp worried abt my family bc they mean a lot to me but being a masc dyke already is kind of pushing it i feel like #so maybe being a transmasc lesbian would be truly a step too far...#also what would my best friend think.... he understands how i feel abt my gender 100% but im still so worried #and it does not help im starting to be less comfortable being gendered as a woman by strangers but being called a man again would be bad too #also im worried that being on t would being back a medical issue i had and ill need surgery again bc thats so expensive...

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