#but niji didn't exist at that point

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(1/2 because this got… long and tumblr wouldn't let me send this. There is a second part to this i’m so sorry. if this ask is duplicated multiple times in your askbox i am SO sorry btw) While yes Sanji losing to a talking raccoon is hilarious and very in character, I am of the personal belief that Rocket Raccoon should NOT be winning and I'll tell you why.

(OBLIGATORY SPOILER WARNING FOR SANJI'S BACKSTORY HERE) First of all, while yes Rocket was subjected to genetic experiments and torture and he lost the friends he'd dreamed of escaping with, and that IS indeed very tragic (not to mention everything else the guy went through and had to deal with), Sanji was ALSO subjected to genetic experiments to the point he was deemed a failure practically the exact moment he was born by his own FAMILY. My man was beaten within an inch of his life in the name of "training" daily from the age of four because his sperm donor was angry the genetic experiments that were supposed to make Sanji an emotionless superhuman weapon failed, not to mention he let Sanji's three other brothers who were "successful experiments" wail on him because it was "Sanji's fault for being weak". AND ALSO! Sanji's name basically means "three". His oldest sister is Reiju, "zero", his oldest brother is Ichiji, "one", and then Niji, "two", and then right after Sanji is Yonji, "four". He and his siblings were and are just numbers to their sperm donor. THAT IS REALLY FUCKED UP. Sanji's mom died because she took a pill to make sure that her children wouldn't be emotionless weapons, and it only worked for Sanji, and she ended up dying because of the repercussions to her health. Sanji tried cooking meals for her to make her feel better while she was alive, and while they were Really Not Great she still ate them and told Sanji she wouldn't eat unless it was meals from him and she INSPIRED him to be the brilliant cook that he is today. And then she died and Judge - Sanji's "father" - decided enough was enough and threw him in a dungeon, told everyone he died, and locked a metal mask around Sanji's face because he didn't want anyone even so much as KNOWING he existed. At the age of EIGHT. Do you know how much that fucks up a kid that young, being locked away and FORGOTTEN about all because of how they were born??? DO YOU????? BECAUSE IT FUCKS THEM UP A LOT, OKAY He's then locked away in a dungeon for six months and develops a severe phobia of bugs because of the CONDITIONS HE'S KEPT IN, and is also STILL REGULARLY BEATEN BY HIS BROTHERS BECAUSE, OH YEAH, JUDGE GAVE THEM THE KEY TO HIS CELL FOR THIS SPECIFIC REASON. AND HE'S WEAKER THAN THEM SO EVEN THOUGH HE TRIES HE CAN'T DEFEND HIMSELF. And eventually Reiju, bless her heart, can't stand watching this anymore and breaks him out and onto a ship. And then Judge proceeds to FIND OUT ABOUT THIS and DISOWNS HIM and tells him to never come back. And yeah this is objectively a good thing but also WHO DISOWNS THEIR EIGHT YEAR OLD CHILD FOR SIMPLY BEING BORN- Oh wait yeah this is Judge we're talking about of course he'd do this. And we find out about all this EIGHT HUNDRED CHAPTERS INTO THE STORY, ON TOP OF HIS ALREADY TRAGIC BACKSTORY SO IT'S TRAGIC BACKSTORY X2

[Propaganda]

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Personal Rant about the current situation

I fucking hate it here. Not Depressed Nousagi remarking that the inclusion of Millie's and Enna's info in the document from Selen's lawyer might be hinting towards them being the bullies.

Obviously, I don't know Millie in person. And it's probably better that way to be completely real for a second.

But I only have four oshis - Zentreya, Vesper, Fulgur and Millie and Millie is my kamioshi.

Vesper graduated/presumably didn't sign another contract with Cover (that's fine he's still active online so idc), Fulgur and Millie are in Niji (which currently is the equivalent of having a fucking bomb chained to your damn foot) and Zen... Zen is the only one doing okay apart from probably being really sad and shaken by Yunii's upcoming graduation.

I just... I have trouble imagining Millie bullying anyone. From all that I have seen of her, she's such a kind and well-meaning person. I get the impression that she'd rather saw off her own arm than consciously hurt anyone else. A little bit unhinged sometimes and definitely in need of a good therapist, yes, but aren't we all?

Imagining Enna or Finana bullying someone? I hate to say it but not outside the realm of possibilities. But Millie? Please say sike.

I speak from personal experience that it's so easy to slip into becoming a bully once you're being bullied yourself... and judging from Millie talking about her childhood and experiences in school she definitely didn't get off the hook without any damages and scars, but I choose to believe that she's better than me in that regard. And if it turns out to be wrong, well then it's my fault for being a fucking dumbass and assuming things about people on the internet.

I don't even know what she would gain from bullying Selen. Favor with management? What's the point. Ethyria is the unloved and sidelined middle child of the family and Niji doesn't give a damn. LazuLight is the first wave, Obsydia had Selen, Ethyria... Exists... And then immediately there's the cash cow of the English branch, Luxiem.

Luxiem is the favorite child, LazuLight the first one so they get a little more attention and before Selen got terminated Obsydia had her going for them. As for Ethyria... Nina never compared to Selen in earnings, Reimu is left to rot in a ditch, Enna is used for song promotions and the likes because she has a good voice and it's convenient and Millie tries to make the best out of her situation.

And I personally think her defending the company is for one based on her relative inexperience in the corporate vtubing scene (she was an indie before. Niji is the only corpo she's experienced so she doesn't really have anything to compare it to besides shitty minimum wage retail jobs), her choosing to believe in the best in everyone and her frustrating lack of self-esteem (which can lead to allowing others to walk all over you). She does deserve to be supported and get opportunities just like anyone in Luxiem, hell like anyone in Hololive or VShojo. She's a talented entertainer and streamer and I wish her nothing but the best.

At the end of it all, she's entitled to her own opinion and I respect that, even if I don't think her truth is the end all be all and don't agree. But if management isn't outright pounding her into the ground every three to five business days as they did with so many other livers I'm glad. I doubt all managers in Niji are assholes. Some just try to make the best of a very fucked situation. But the fact that some livers get the bare fucking minimum when the bar is the ground and Riku "Yacht" Tazumi brought a damn excavator, doesn't mean that it's okay or god forbid, good. You should do better. You need to do better. No talent deserves this treatment.

At this point everything just feels like one menhera tattling on the other - Yes, news youtubers and even myself included. Depressed Nousagi isn't really hiding the fact that he's mentally ill. I'm not going to sugarcoat this, my mental health is down the drain as well and I'm living with the consequences. This entire situation is so messed up.

Please don't harrass any of the livers. Bullying and threats aren't going to get us anywhere and in the end all of them are at the mercy of the company in regards to what they can or can't do. And everyone's situation is different. Maybe Niji is the first time they ever had this much money or a semi-stable income at all. Maybe the only other option besides Niji when it comes to getting a job is a fucking gig at Target, Starbucks or Hollister. Or social security. Maybe graduation isn't an option because being out of a job might mean the immediate loss of home, access to insurance or vital medical care and mental health care or not being able to support family and/or pets anymore.

I wish every liver the best and hope that everyone gets the help they need. And most of all, I wish for Niji to fucking rethink and improve their marketing, overall internal structure and business decisions. For the love of God.

[mischievous-misdirection]

(@pxison - Yonji) - "Do you ever miss home?" The question comes out of nowhere while he chooses to spend time out of his day with Yorin. With his wife. And pinching his brows at how ridiculous his question sounded considering she could make visits or at least call when Germa strayed too far.

"Like more than usual?" He doesn't voice a lasting question he's had on his mind but he has most certainly thought of it more on certain stressful days.

Do you hate it here with me in Germa?

Breakfast with Yonji was often quiet besides rare pleasantries and even rarer times when she decides to feed him. The question leaves her blinking in sudden confusion. He never pried before … " Yes." Honesty was always best with these sorts of questions, figures there's no point in lying to him either. "I miss the scenery second to my family." She shrugs, gaze lingering on her fresh nails. Germa was such a cold place devoid of most everything they found familiar and charming. Besides Niji's outburst and the constant drone of training and weapons testing there was no joy, no music or laughter. The royal family didn't live together so much as exist in the same general vicinity as one another. Yorin wasn't sure any of them spent time together outside of work or rowdy shared sex.

It was sad.

Yorin's thankful for their library's and the small garden they managed to carve out, even if most of the area was for the mother spore. She could still plant flowers, pretty and sweet things to remember more colorful places.

"No more than usual." Soft hand moves to cup his cheek, thumb idly stroking the spot. "It's different but we all get used to things, strangers become familiar." Yonji was changing, even if he didn't see it but they'd both come so far from their first volatile encounter.

"Do you like being married?"