#cloudyriffs

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I still can't believe you're gone babygirl. It's some horrible nightmare I can't seem to wake from. 2 weeks ago today that stupid fucking fentanyl took you from me and everyone else who loved you.. I love you, and I miss you beyond words, but im angry at you. I begged u for months so whatever drug u want but stop with the fentanyl before I have to watch u overdose on video chat 3000 miles away and there's nothing I can do... Usually I enjoy being right as most do but this is the time I wish I was wrong..maybe I jinxed it, maybe one small tiny insignificant thing i could have said, or done would have changed your course. Maybe had I been nicer that day you wouldn't have been upset and resorted to using fent again....you remember? That time on the farm in Langley? We were on video chat..you got fent for the first time? Two tiny hits outta that bowl you overdosed and I watched you turn grey? All.i remember is bawling, begging u not to leave me ...and by some ...I dunno something , u woke up and u pulled thru it without narcan..I'm angry you took the risk again and now you're gone..I'm im so fucking angry but....I miss you and I love you far beyond any amount of anger..I will forgive you. I hope you're peaceful and happy whereever you are ...I know you prolly won't see this ....I'm sure the afterlife doesn't have Tumblr. I love you cori

@envymourn @luvbog @june--cancer

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@envymourn this is open to interpretation...I miss you baby. 2 months since fentanyl took you from my life. None of it's getting easier..without drugs I barley sleep or eat. You're the only thing on my mind all the time . Fuck I miss you. I love you 🤟🤟

— Trista Mateer ,“I Still Forget We’re Not Even Friends”

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We haven't gone thru all this for nothing

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I wanna text her soooo bad! Why the fk u have to do this shit to me? Did I not take care of you? Was I not there every second of every day. Fuck this ..

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Whoa. Better watch that mouth young lady, before I fuck it!

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@envymourn even the smokest of the smoke doesn't take the pain away..RIP baby....I miss you so much

smoking the pain away haha

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Forehead kisses from behind while I'm deep inside of your wet, needy pussy... @iii-iv-xxii

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@iii-iv-xxii

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@iii-iv-xxii

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Waiting to see how long it takes

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Fucking you so hard you piss on my cock @yourjester

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So...here is a peek into part of my everyday life and the patience and effort I put into some one ... Otp.. she freaks out she can't figure out a particular thing...she cries and asks me for help..I told her I'm walking in the door, lemme sit my stuff down and Ill Google it ...her response is you don't know how I don't want your help....so I said ok. .then she proceeded to tell me if I wasn't going to help I could fuck off .. I'm at my end with this ...I dunno what to call it ... irrational, ..hell I dunno but I got hung up on ...on a Friday with a fat sack of shard and she leaves me alone to party by myself 😢

Anyone else ever come into situations like this? If so...how do/did you handle it?

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