#counselor mythos rambles

[toomanybandstocare]

guys i have a date tonight 😚

at least i think it is

we’re getting dinner and he planned it all

[2manybands2care]

didn’t expect to be panic shopping for a mouse so i can set this side blog up easier ://

[toomanybandstocare]

im sorry…but everytime i see Rex with his big doe eyes all nervous “im just for the general…general” my heart HURTS i just want to kiss him silly and leave lipstick marks all over his neck and face and watch the blush crawl up his neck and dust his cheeks 🥺😭

[toomanybandstocare]

guess who took their first day since starting work and now cant tell if theur stomach hurts from the nausea or anxiety of not letting my boss know correctly

…hehe im tired and i think my stomach is actually a sailor knot

[toomanybandstocare]

…. i dont think anyone will be able to celebrate my birthday with me this year :,)

and it hurts

a lot

even though i should be used to it

it hurts especially when im helping plan my dad’s big milestone birthday party that’s a whole event because we want he to feel goo about the age milestone he’s hitting when he’s been so nervous about it. it hurts because his birthday is just a few days after mine

it hurts because he’s already thinking of what to do for my mum’s birthday next year (because we already have her’s planned this year which is just a couple pf days after his) for her big afe milestone.

is too much to ask for two friends to spend the day (maybe the weekend!) to celebrate with me? i understand work and school orientation are things and being adults means less free time, but it still hurts.

especially after being told in high school to tell my friends to not get me presents or that im too old to do anything big to celebrate my birthday. but in college it’s suddenly important and exciting to celebrate my birthday again but the pandemic restricted so many things and my friends + i were working over the summers

it’s to the point where i genuinely forget i have a birthday let alone it worth being celebrated

[toomanybandstocare]

professor! dr. malcolm falling for a colleague's kid....

goes over to dinner one night at the invitation of his colleague to be blown away by intelligent and witty reader...

sneaking around on campus under the nose of colleague bc both of them love the thrill of it...

coffee dates at the local cafes and lunch in his office. long telephone calls at night when he's at a conference and parent complains about the bill. going to underground rock shows on the weekends.

i have thoughts and mayhaps a fic??? would anyone be interested?

[toomanybandstocare]

i have a date tonight 👀🤷

[toomanybandstocare]

i wish i was more outgoing and myself when i first meet people. im so tired of warming up to people and it taking monthes before i feel relaxed or myself around them.

like i wish i could just send a message in the server and chat to people without being so nervous about it. i want to make friends on here and talk to people. but im so afraid of sending asks or bithering people.

but im just so tired of feeling like the odd one out everytime i try to put myself out there. until it clicks and i feel comfortable around people. it’s so fucking tiring and im just at the point where i just want to stop trying all together but i know i’ll only be sad if i do.

[toomanybandstocare]

guys- i got meet matt, ashley, and james this weekend 🥺😭 and hayden 🥲 inner child feeling so happy and loved rn

[toomanybandstocare]

got to see return of the jedi tonight!!!! ugh i'm so happy- it's my favorite out of the og trilogy (but empire strikes back is wasily tied)

but this scene?????

hit HARD for some reason now. and i can't stop thinking about it

(snagged the gif from lovely @thefact0rygirl)

[toomanybandstocare]

…hehe

i got funko pops and books today

PLUS it’s a summer thunderstorm???

what did i do to deserve such an amazing day to wrap up the long weekend

[toomanybandstocare]

in a turn of events - trying to celebrate irl goes miserably

but on a positive note i found a really cute top and flowy pants, plus i stopped by a favorite chocolate and ice cream store i dont get to go to that often, so just trying to make the most of things :} i treated myself to a lil box of truffles and some birthday cake ice cream

[toomanybandstocare]

i am **this** close to losing my shit and sobbing

just fucking tell me what you want the first time so i can actually task it out to be done right the first time instead of hearing little pieces over time that delays our send out date

[toomanybandstocare]

im going to implode hehe if one more thing piles up at work

but! in good news / something to look forward to - i go on my ski vacation next week :3 so itll be nice to disconnect and decompress

think i will bring my notebook and write something - been feeling recharged enough to start working on something or pick up a WIP

[toomanybandstocare]

LMAO there’s a creepy drunk at the bar im at with friends

he was haressing our waitress and then us

no we locked him out

jesus christ what a kick off to the weekend

[toomanybandstocare]

i would like to crawl into bed…and cry…and wrap myself up in my soft conforter and flannel sheets…and drift into that nice in between sleepiness and consciousness…but alas…i must work