#damningness

[thevampirediariesdiary]

okay but even in season one, there were hints that the stelena relationship was a stopgap measure, something Elena did to feel normal and alive, but that it wasn’t actually healthy for her in the long-term. there’s “I know I can’t lose the way I feel about you”, obviously - there’s telling him she loves him and sleeping with him so he won’t leave - there’s the retroactive damningness of “I don’t want to be a vampire, I never wanted to be one”.  but also, lurking just outside the text are the soundtrack choices: their first kiss is to a song about a relationship you just can’t escape from even though it’s keeping you down. and the first time they sleep together is to a song about harming yourself to get some relief from feeling numb and alone.

whereas on the other hand: delena’s first kiss, depending on which one you count, was to a song about choosing restraint so as not to harm the beloved, or a song about holding onto what you want and letting go of all the unanswered prayers.  and the first time they sleep together is to a song which repeats again and again “settle down with me”, and “I’m in love now”.

this genuinely isn’t hate, I’m just saying: when you interpret the show...the perfect high school romance was always something Elena was going to have to grow beyond.  there is no s1 idyllic stelena era.