#day started terribly bc i must've had a nightmare
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#journal eb#today's thoughts#day started terribly bc i must've had a nightmare#felt incredibly vulnerable and had to force myself out of bed#the days keep passing and nothing happens#i don't do anything#sometimes i think i have to choose between having emotions and getting things done#like i have to choose if i want to keep my room clean and study for exams or if i want to feel things#i can't have both#i just feel stressed out but like all the stress is under a blanket#and now and then i accidentally lift it up and then it hits me full force#but it's always there just not as present#idk what to do#i wish i could talk to someone who would listen and actually push me to help myself#whenever i reveal the tiniest sliver of all the bullshit that's going on in my life all ppl do is frown and look at me with pity and move on#things are bad but most of the time i'm numb to it#i hate being alone i hate being so independent i did this to myself#i hate that vulnerability pains me and makes me so uncomfortable i'd rather die than experience it#i'm so fucking repressed i still feel like i'm seventeen and my world has just crumbled and no one can know#i don't know#i don't fucking know#i don't feel good
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