#does anyone still remember kyary pamyu pamyu

[pizzpizzapizzo]

something something eyeballs on clothes

[vampfucker666]

yeah now that I think about it it's so weird but I really didn't get into music TOO much until I was in high school..? like I really just found 2 songs I liked and then listened to them for months

[usagingy]

Send me numbers..

Wait, these are actually hella cute questions.”

Source: bambwie

— 1. Who was the last person you held hands with? A friend from uni. There’s nothing romantic between us, was just for fun.

2. Are you outgoing or shy? Shy. As. Frick.

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? My niece. She’s precious!

4. Are you easy to get along with? I honestly don’t know. I guess so?

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? Pretty sure they would, yeah.

6. What kind of people are you attracted to? Usually people who are really easy to talk to and who are very kind and sweethearted (is that a word?)

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? HaHaHaHahaHAAHhahaAHAhaha!!... No

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? A good friend from high school. I just have platonic feelings for her, but I still miss her.

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Depends on how detailed the conversation is. If it’s not super detailed, then no, it doesn’t make me uncomfortable.

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Probably the friend from high school I mentioned in #8.

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? “I was just confused” (boring, I know)

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? 

Nine Point Eight - Mili

Candy Store - Heathers: The Musical

Here Comes A Thought - Steven Universe

Family Party - Kyary Pamyu Pamyu

Holding Out For A Hero - Bonnie Tyler

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? If they’re really gentle with it, then yes. But when people get rough with it then I hate it.

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? I guess so, I’m not sure tbh.

15. What good thing happened this summer? This “summer” only just started, so I can’t really say much, but I hung out with my brother and his friends.

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? I can’t answer this because I’ve never kissed anyone.

17. Do you think there is life on other planets? I don’t see why it couldn’t be possible. There are a lot of planets out there, so it would make sense if at least one sustained life on it.

18. Do you still talk to your first crush? Yeah, it’s cool, yo.

19. Do you like bubble baths? Ooh, I haven’t had one in so long, I can’t remember if I do.

20. Do you like your neighbors? I don’t even know my neighbors lmao

21. What are you bad habits? I procrastinate, I take too long to get ready, I am sometimes too open, I pry a bit too much, etc, etc.

22. Where would you like to travel? Germany, I guess, they have really good chocolate.

23. Do you have trust issues? Yep, trust issues with myself.

24. Favorite part of your daily routine? Going to bed.

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? Excluding more inappropriate areas, my upper body, specifically the front part.

26. What do you do when you wake up? Sit there for a while, ponder life, check my phone if it’s not dead, then get up and do the same thing while standing up.

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? I don’t really wish my skin was different, but if I had to choose one I’d say darker cuz I’m pale af.

28. Who are you most comfortable around? Hmmm, I guess I’d have to say I’m most comfortable around that one friend I mentioned in #8 again.

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? Considering I don’t have any ex’s, no, they have not.

30. Do you ever want to get married? Yepppppppp

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail? Currently it is possible; however, I’m getting my hair cut soon, so it probably won’t be long enough in a little while.

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? None of them. I’m ace.

33. Spell your name with your chin. I’m not even gonna try this right now.

34. Do you play sports? What sports? Nope, what’re sports?

35. Would you rather live without TV or music? Without TV; music is too precious.

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? Several times, yo. I don’t know how to talk to people about that kind of thing.

37. What do you say during awkward silences? Usually nothing. Jk, I will often ask how someone else is doing, but it goes back to awkward silence again really quickly.

38. Describe your dream girl/guy? I’m not sure I really have a super ideal fantasy for a dream guy/girl, but I guess I’ll go for it. Generally I’m attracted to guys who are really soft and kind, usually significantly taller than me, usually with little to no facial hair, and most frequently they have dark hair and dark eyes. Generally girls that I find attractive are around my height, not usually much shorter than me. Usually they have dark hair and dark eyes, are very sweet, but also can be very assertive and driven. For anyone, I’d like to have similar interests, of course, because that makes it easier to have conversations. Also, the main reason I’m attracted to people of certain heights is just because of how it feels to hug people of those heights. (Sorry, this was a long one)

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? GAMESTOP. Just game stores in general, and also the Pokémon stores in Japan.

40. What do you want to do after high school? I’ve already graduated high school and I still don’t know what I want to do after high school. I’m going to uni, originally for computer engineering, but now for theatre and electronic media performance.

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? Not everyone, I guess. I think it’s more on a case by case basis, depending on the severity of the offense.

42. If you’re being extremely quiet what does it mean? Depends. Being quiet could mean that I’m uncomfortable (usually with strangers), comfortable (usually with close friends), thinking deeply about random shiznit, or just don’t know what to say.

43. Do you smile at strangers? Depends on how I’m feeling. I usually don’t look at other people because I don’t want them to think that I’m being creepy towards them.

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? Outer space; the bottom of the ocean is terrifying.

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? Usually the need for food, but sometimes the need for cleanliness.

46. What are you paranoid about? Way too many things to list here, so I’ll list a few. Abandonment, rejection, the feeling that there is a hole in my clothes, the feeling that people are watching and judging everything I do, the feeling that I’m going to unintentionally hurt people or things, etc.

47. Have you ever been high? Nope.

48. Have you ever been drunk? Nope.

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? Not that I can think of.

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? Brown with yellow letters.

51. Ever wished you were someone else? Too often, yes.

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? I’d like to get rid of my envy and jealousy.

53. Favourite makeup brand? Don’t have one.

54. Favourite store? Pokémon store.

55. Favourite blog? Don’t have one.

56. Favourite colour? YELLOW

57. Favourite food? Curry rice with creamy crab croquettes.

58. Last thing you ate? Beef curry rice.

59. First thing you ate this morning? Haven’t eaten yet, but it’ll probably be Life cereal.

60. Ever won a competition? For what? Won a couple Pokémon tournaments. One made me a gym leader for a League, another got me a New 3DS XL.

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? Nope.

62. Been arrested? For what? Nope.

63. Ever been in love? Yepppp

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? And this is where I’d put the story of my first kiss. IF I HAD ONE.

65. Are you hungry right now? Yessssss

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? Considering I don’t really have many tumblr friends (I think?) I like my real friends more.

67. Facebook or Twitter? Facebook

68. Twitter or Tumblr? Tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now? Nope

70. Names of your bestfriends? Jay, Natz, Xixi, Frances, Aleigha, Kirbs, Dani, Hunter, Marissa, (the list goes on and on, I can’t decide on just a few best friends)

71. Craving something? What? Takoyaki!

72. What colour are your towels? Brown

72. How many pillows do you sleep with? Two (2)

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? I used to, but since ya mentioned it, I might start doing it again.

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? At least 20, question mark???

75. Favourite animal? Tie between monkeys, foxes, and rabbits.

76. What colour is your underwear? Idk, it changes everyday.

77. Chocolate or Vanilla? Depends on the quality. Usually vanilla since too much chocolate gives me a stomach ache.

78. Favourite ice cream flavour? Strawberry banana, but since it’s really uncommon I usually settle for mint chocolate chip.

79. What colour shirt are you wearing? Yellow

80. What colour pants? Blue

81. Favourite tv show? Steven Universe

82. Favourite movie? Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? I haven’t seen either, I’m trash

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? Same as above

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? Same as above above

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Dory

87. First person you talked to today? Friend staying at my house

88. Last person you talked to today? Friend staying at my house

89. Name a person you hate? I don’t think I hate anyone, that’s a really strong word.

90. Name a person you love? Kaia (my niece)

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? Nope

92. In a fight with someone? Not right now, I think? If I am, I’ve forgotten.

93. How many sweatpants do you have? Quite a lot, but I don’t wear them.

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? Too many, probs over 15, but I only regularly wear two of them.

95. Last movie you watched? Psycho-Pass: The Movie

96. Favourite actress? Emma Watson

97. Favourite actor? Does John Mulaney count?

98. Do you tan a lot? I straight up burn, so nope

99. Have any pets? Nope

100. How are you feeling? Neutral in general

101. Do you type fast? Depending on the situation.

102. Do you regret anything from your past? Toooooo muchhh

103. Can you spell well? Sometimes

104. Do you miss anyone from your past? Lotsa old friends.

105. Ever been to a bonfire party? Yeah, not really a fan of them.

106. Ever broken someone’s heart? I think maybe once or twice? I don’t know about many people liking me.

107. Have you ever been on a horse? Yeah, but it was when I was super young so I don’t remember what it was like.

108. What should you be doing? Probably applying for scholarships.

109. Is something irritating you right now? Only my intrusive thoughts, but that’s all the time.

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? Pretty much every time I’ve liked someone, yeah.

111. Do you have trust issues? I think this was answered already, but yes.

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? The last person I cried full out in front of was my mom, but I have had a couple tears run down my face when in the dorms at uni.

113. What was your childhood nickname? Gingerbread, Gingersnaps

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? Yep yep

115. Do you play the Wii? Yesssssss

116. Are you listening to music right now? No, but I should be.

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? Hell yeah

118. Do you like Chinese food? Hell yeah!

119. Favourite book? Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

120. Are you afraid of the dark? Yes, but only if I’m unfamiliar with the area.

121. Are you mean? I don’t know? Sometimes

122. Is cheating ever okay? Nope. Never. Absolutely not. If you cheat, I have big problems with you.

123. Can you keep white shoes clean? I probably couldn’t lol

124. Do you believe in love at first sight? Not really? But it depends. I’d say it’s possible upon the first meeting, but not by just seeing the person. I think truly falling in love with someone purely based on their appearance is rather shallow and difficult to do.

125. Do you believe in true love? Kinda? I don’t really believe that there’s one specific person that you’re destined to be with, but I do believe that people can develop a strong enough connection with each other that it could be considered true love.

126. Are you currently bored? Somewhat, but it’s rare for me to not be somewhat bored.

127. What makes you happy? Long hugs with people I care about, snuggles, some video games and anime, having deep conversations with friends.

128. Would you change your name? I don’t know what I’d change it to, so no.

129. What your zodiac sign? Libra

130. Do you like subway? Yeah

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? If I like them back, then try to make a relationship work out I guess. If not, I try my best to let them down gently and comfort them if possible.

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? I think this was answered before as well, but friend mentioned in #8.

133. Favourite lyrics right now? The entirety of Here Comes A Thought.

134. Can you count to one million? Yeah? I’m not sure what this question is supposed to mean.

135. Dumbest lie you ever told? “Yeah, I’ve done my homework *has homework on computer screen*”

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? Closed. Open feels too insecure.

137. How tall are you? 5′ 7″

138. Curly or Straight hair? Straight

139. Brunette or Blonde? Brunette(?) I don’t know what this is asking, but I find dark hair attractive.

140. Summer or Winter? Winterrrrrr. No bugs and no sunburn.

141. Night or Day? Night, it makes it feel like emotions are heightened.

142. Favourite month? Never thought about this, but I guess February.

143. Are you a vegetarian? Nah, I like chicken too much.

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? Milk chocolate. Dark chocolate is too rich and makes my stomach hurt. White chocolate has a flavor that I think does best at complimenting other things, like fruit. Individually I like milk best because it’s flavorful, but not too rich.

145. Tea or Coffee? Coffee, but only if it has a lot of sweetness mixed with the bitterness.

146. Was today a good day? Today has barely started, but it seems like it’ll be a decent day.

147. Mars or Snickers? Snickers

148. What’s your favourite quote? "My vibe is like, hey you could probably pour soup in my lap and I'll apologize to you." -- John Mulaney

149. Do you believe in ghosts? No? Idk, I don’t think about that stuff.

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? “The recommended dietary intake of potassium ranges from 500 mg to 700 mg per day for infants between 6 and 12 months.”

[winnwinn-moved]

heaven on earth

doyoung - fluff - 3258

    ah summer vacation. the ideal time for swimming, for surfing, for soaking up the sun. summer vacation means no rules, no worries, no problems. summer vacation is supposed to be the absolute best part of the year. and so far, summer vacation has been going pretty okay. so maybe it’s been more than okay, it’s been pretty amazing because you’re spending almost every single day with your best friend (and crush), doyoung. and you’ll soon be spending every single day with him down at the beach. yes, the beach, with the crystal clear waves, and oh so warm sand, and the best ice cream on the face of the planet. a few weeks ago, doyoung has casually mentioned that he and a couple friends (taeil and yuta to be exact) where heading down to the beach for a week of rest and relaxation.

    it sounds nice, in theory.

    really, it does.

    but then the car ride started.

    taeil’s little red corolla seemed really nice at first. it was enough space for the four of you to feel comfortable, yet close enough that you could still talk to everyone and reach over to the radio to change yuta’s kyary kyary pamyu mixtape. the trunk also has enough room to hold of your luggage too. the air conditioning works, the motor runs smoothly, and fate just so has it that you and doyoung are the two sitting in the back row. oh, and sharing a blanket. a fuzzy red blanket that doyoung draped over your legs three minutes into the ride because he saw you were shivering.

    the first three hours of the car ride passed by quickly. most of the driving was through cities and on major roads, so there was always plenty to see. the numerous road signs provided you and doyoung at least an hour of fun, and you discovered that doyoung is much better at the alphabet game than you could ever hope to be. the billboards, ranging from “real christians obey god” to “savannah’s gentleman club” and your possible favorite “real human hair wigs”, had you and doyoung cackling for hours while taeil and yuta glanced back, whispering about how cute you two are. even when there weren’t signs to entertain the two of you, doyoung seemingly could talk for hours and hours and hours, and you realized that this could actually be kind of… fun.

    but then you left the familiarity of the city and entered the great open country. for miles, all you can see is corn. and more corn. and the occasional water tower. you wonder where the hell taeil is driving you guys, and you’re starting to think he doesn’t know where he is either. your suspicions are soon confirmed when yuta yells “oh wait the map was upside down this whole time!”. doyoung has lost interest in his rambles about outer space (a topic you rather liked to hear about), and has instead decided to stare out the window blankly. you don’t want to bother him from his daydreams, despite the growing urge to say something stupid just to hear his voice, but you don’t. you decide to listen to taeil and yuta bicker instead, because that’s at least more entertaining than the corn.

    you sigh loudly. doyoung glances over at you, though you remain unaware of this, too busy messing with your shoelaces to notice his soft smile. yuta notices however, and winks at doyoung at least a million times before turning back around to try and figure out the map. doyoung blushes hard and swats at the back of yuta’s head, which gets your attention, and now you’re interested in why doyoung seems so upset. but when you ask, he only gets more red and crosses his arms over his chest, telling you that yuta doesn’t know how to keep his nose in his own business.

    “now now kids, you need to behave.” taeil yawns. “or else i’m gonna leave you on the side of the road.”

    the infinite loop of pon pon pon makes his offer tempting, but it’s getting dark, and the last thing you need is to be abandoned in a corn field. doyoung is apparently ready to take that risk though, and he whacks yuta’s head one last time before returning to his thoughts. you laugh a bit at this, and start to laugh harder when yuta whines about being mistreated.

    “you always defend doyoung.” yuta complains. “i bet he could bury me in the sand this week and leave me to drown and you would swoon over how creative he is.”

    “oh come on, i’m not that biased.” you retort, but you feel your face heating up, and know it must be obvious because the smirk on yuta’s face is so wide your half tempted to ask taeil to pretty please slap it off. “you’re just delusional.”

    “oh come on, you know you’re soft for doyoung.” taeil laughs. “you don’t need to hide it. everyone knows. except maybe doyoung, maybe he doesn’t know. we should ask him.”

    “you know i can hear you.” doyoung says slowly. he doesn’t look away from the window, and you’re worried that maybe he’s mad now. “stop teasing them.”

    “wow, doyoung, the hero we never knew anyone needed.” yuta rolls his eyes but winks at him.

    doyoung groans and pulls his tangled earbuds from his backpack. with a dramatic glare at both taeil and yuta, he puts the earbuds in his phone, then proceeds to drown them out with his music. taeil and yuta start to laugh at his reaction, and it’s obvious that doyoung is now turning up his music, so loud in fact that you can start to hear muffled lyrics pour out from the earbuds. you can’t help but smile slightly; it’s one of your favorite songs. doyoung knows this, how could he not? why would he even pick the song in the first place?

    he pulls the left earbud from his ear, handing it over. you give him a confused look, but you soon put it in, your cheeks tinting pink. yuta spins right around and there on his face once again is that wicked cheshire cat smile that makes you blush even more. doyoung does his best to ignore yuta’s grin, but soon, he too is blushing, and now even taeil has taken his eyes off the road to give you two a knowing smile.

    “it’s not like that!” doyoung’s voice sounds desperate. “i’m tired of listening to your weeb trash, and i know they are too. that’s all!”

    “okay, first of all, the persona three soundtrack is critically acclaimed, i hope burn my dread is played at my funeral, it’s not even web trash, because i am not a weeb-” yuta cuts himself short. “besides… you could have just asked to change the station. you didn’t need to share all romantic like this, but nooo, you just have to be smooth.”

    “boyfriend material.” taeil calls from the front. “ten out of ten would date.”

    “taeil you have a girlfriend.”

    “oh you’re right…”

    this of course only makes you blush harder, because even though it’s obvious to everyone in the world that you and doyoung are wildly in love, neither of you have actually done the whole confessing part yet. granted, yuta has confessed on your behalf at least a million times, and mark and donghyuck have trapped you in a group chat where they spam you pictures of doyoung doing anything (not like you’re complaining). you and doyoung have danced around the idea of an actual relationship for months now, but something is stopping the both of you, something unknown, something unnamed. countless times you’ve had to stop yourself from pulling doyoung down by the collar and crashing your lips onto his, and countless times more you’ve had to shut your big mouth from screaming “i love you” at the top of your lungs. things are hard when you’re suddenly smitten. accidental touches are no longer accidental, innocent staring is now something more, i miss you texts are not a good night, but a cry for attention and love.

    you and doyoung could practically be dating with all the time you spend with each other. he is in your fact, your best friend before anything else. doyoung’s apartment (the one he shares with sicheng) has an entire closet dedicated to your belongings, because as time passed, doyoung realized your tees and jeans were becoming more and more and his need for a coat closet becoming less and less. your favorite snacks (though often stolen by sicheng) are always stocked up in the fridge, and your favorite movies and television box sets are always piled high near the dinky television in the living room. you have a key to the apartment, tucked away safely on your lanyard, and even when doyoung isn’t there, you find yourself huddled on the worn futon, reading one of the books he picked up from the library earlier in the week. sicheng teasingly complains you two should just kick him out already, and now that you think of that, you or doyoung have never really said anything to challenge that. it’s not like you dislike sicheng, that’s humanly impossible, but the idea of living with doyoung… that’s heavenly.

    you shake your head. now isn’t the time to plan your future out, not when taeil and yuta are watching your every move to catch a crack in your apathetic facade. you cross your arms over your chest, and then suddenly remembering your outfit, take a peek down at your shirt only to realize it’s not really yours- it’s doyoung’s.

    no wonder everyone thinks you’re together.

    you look out the window, only to find the sun has sunk low in the sky, and in its place is a host of stars. you smile softly, then yawn. you’ve been driving for more than half the day, and you’re sure everyone, especially taeil, is exhausted. besides, it’s evident that you’ve lost your way. nothing seems more tempting right now than finding a tiny motel and passing out on a mattress rather than the car seat. it would be nice to stretch your legs out, walk around a little bit, shower and clean all the travel funk from your skin. and hotels have breakfast in the morning, and anything could be the imitation sausage biscuit you stomached from mcdonald’s earlier today.

    it’s as your mind has been read, your prayers answered, because doyoung says, “hey, let’s stop for the night, before taeil gets us lost in the middle of nowhere. i saw a road sign, there’s a hotel on the next exit.”

    “i think we’re all tired anyhow.” you add, tugging at your blanket.

    “of course you would agree with him.” yuta winks over at you.

    “you just yawned like two seconds ago.” doyoung glares. “so be quiet.”

    “no, i agree too. i can’t keep my eyes open.” taeil puts the blinker on. “here’s to hoping they have a room.”

    as you guys pull into the hotel parking lot, you start to wonder if you’ll be spending the night in the car. every parking space is filled with a car or truck (and occasional motorcycle). taeil circles the lot once, twice, and three times before glumly deciding that all hope is lost, the waffle house across the street is your only option, but then doyoung points wildly over to a back corner that somehow all of you overlooked, and there it is, the only free parking space in the lot. taeil whips in immediately, then parks the car and turns it off. you scramble to get out of the car, but in the process, yank not only your, but doyoung’s earbud out. he looks over at you, and upon seeing your sheepish smile, breaks into a grin as well.

    “come on love birds, i’m tired.” yuta laughs.

    after unloading your necessary luggage from the trunk, the four of your head inside to check up on room availability. yuta is the one to venture to the front counter and consult the scowling employee, and yuta is the one to come back with two room keys in hand. he tosses on to doyoung, and keeps the other in his hand. he’s whistling. why is he whistling? yuta doesn’t whistle, why is he-

    and then, with the most devious smirk a man can muster, he wraps his arm around taeil’s shoulder, pulling him in close. “hello roomie.”

    “oh no you don’t” you and doyoung shout in unison.

    yuta shrugs and taeil mimics him. before you and doyoung can clobber them, the two of them sprint down the hallway, the nasty desk manager yelling after them.

    doyoung gulps. you shove your hands into your pockets. for what seems like an eternity, the two of you remain silent, refusing to do so much as look each other. you can feel your hands go clammy, your cheeks heat up, an army of butterflies swarm your stomach. you bite down on the inside of your cheek to stop yourself from blurting out something stupid, though that seems unlikely to happen thanks to the frog now stuck in your throat. you cough, and sputter, and as soon as you find the courage to speak, doyoung tries to talk as well. now you two are back to stage one, and things are even more awkward than before.

    finally, he whispers, “there’s probably two beds.”

    “o-of course there are.” you nod.

    doyoung grabs his luggage. he then proceeds to reach for yours, but you do as well, and now his hand is atop of yours and he won’t move it- why won’t he move it?!

    he gently pulls your bag from your hands, then slings it over his shoulder. he pushes his suitcase in front of him. you can do nothing but follow along silently, cursing god for allowing something so wrong, no, something so absolutely wonderful to happen to you of all people. you swallow the lump in your throat, walking so close behind doyoung you step the heel of his shoe. he turns to fix it, except you’re there, standing mere inches away, and his most immediate thought is to lean down and kiss you long and hard, but the hotel hallway hardly seems appropriate for that, so instead he mumbles an embarrassed sorry. sorry for staring. sorry for thinking outside his place. sorry for crossing the boundary. sorry for not making it known.

    doyoung stops in front of the elevator, then presses the button. you two wait, the awkward silence threatening to engulf you two, but thankfully the door dings loudly and slides open. doyoung lets you go first, then follows behind with the luggage, finding an interest in the key card. he then presses the second floor button, and the elevator doors close before it lurches upwards with a violent groan. you wince and without thinking, doyoung rests his hand on your shoulder supportively, but then he realizes what he’s done and he pulls away at once, stammering out an apology.

    “it’s f-fine.” curse your nerves.

    curse your luck. curse your situation. curse your stupid crush on doyoung. and curse doyoung above all. curse his stupidly handsome bunny smile, and his stupidly angelic voice, and his stupidly selfless love and drive for others, and his stupidly kind and idealistic heart that always finds the good in others, and, and-

    the doors slide open once more, and you hurry outside, relieved to be out of the suffocating elevator, doyoung soon pulls ahead of you, leading you down the hall to your room. taeil and yuta are nowhere to be found, and you can’t help but wonder if they’re waiting to ambush the two of you and laugh about their little scheme. the halls are dreadfully silent though, and you’re convinced that you can hear your heart slamming against your chest.

    “two fourteen.” doyoung says almost to himself.

    he slips the key card in the door, then pushes it open.

    you almost faint,

    there in the middle of the room, is the bed. yes, the bed, as in, there’s only one. one right in the dead middle, sheets so white that you can’t help but stare at it. or maybe because you realize that neither you or doyoung want to catch any sort of bug that lives in a hotel carpet, which means that the bed, yes, the one bed, will have to be shared, shared by the two of you. for the entire night. wonderful. absolutely perfect. ideal even.

`    you flee to the bathroom, bag in hand. the first thing you need to do is regain your composure. slowly, you change into your pajamas, wash your face, and prepare for the long night ahead. you don’t want to leave the safety of the bathroom however, and you don’t plan to either, but there’s a faint knocking on the door, and reality reminds you that you’re sharing a room. with doyoung. and that he also has to get ready.

    you gather your things, then slip out of the bathroom. doyoung has apparently called his side of the bed; it’s obvious by the pillow is moved and the comforter is shifted slightly. cautiously, you make your way over to bed. you mentally debate whether or not you should try to set up some sort of cot on the floor with your clothes, but the stronger part of you eventually wins out and you slowly climb into bed. immediately, your tense muscles relax and you remember that you have been in the car for hours now, and even if you’re sleeping with your crush, it’s worth it for a good night’s sleep.

    right?

    clearly, your need for sleep outweighs your fear of the unknown, and within moments, you have drifted into a deep sleep. doyoung comes from the bathroom only to find you snoring softly, your head buried under the sheets. he smiles gently, then turns off the light. he then slips into bed beside you, careful to never invade your space. for safe measure, he puts a pillow between the two of you, then closes his eyes.

    you can’t remember where you are when you awaken the next morning.  the sunlight shines in from the window to your right, and the beams dance across the sheets and cause you to smile. outside, there’s the faint song of a bird, and the occasional honk of a car, but it’s nice. you’re warm, pleasantly comfortable, so you keep your eyes closed and snuggle closer to doyoung.

    wait.

    what?!

    you open your eyes and push yourself up a few inches. however, your movement is limited by doyoung’s arms around your waist. his grip is tight, but not painfully so, just enough to make you feel… secure. still, you want to move, just a little bit, so you wriggle just enough to roll over so you’re facing doyoung instead of spooning. despite your movement, doyoung is still sleeping, his eyes shut peacefully and his lips parted slightly. his hair sticks up in every direction, and he snores lightly. your face is so close to his that your noses are brushing in a sweet eskimo kiss, and you think you must be dreaming, yes, dreaming, because this is heaven. your own personal heaven on earth. you smile and close your eyes.

    you move your head slightly, pressing a lazy kiss to his jaw before mumbling, “i love you.”

    and doyoung sleeps on, but you don’t need his words to know that he feels the same exact way.