#englant nt fic

[sara-helders]

All mine

Summary: The one where you and Ben “hate” each other.

Warnings: Smut. Requested: Yes. Words: 3.2k

Author’s note: I’m so sorry, this one shot is so long... I got this request from an anon and I instantly came up with the story. This is also the first one I write... Let me know what do you think about it, and you can also request me anything you want. I hope you all like it.

“We can’t continue doing this…”

“Why not?” He asked. “We both have so much fun and I see you happy.”

“I know… It’s the best sex I’ve ever had.”

“Then why do we have to stop?” He asked again.

“No one can know about this. About us.”

“I’m fine about keeping this a secret, but babe, I won’t last much longer. My sister already asked me why I was so happy the other day.”

“And what did you tell her?!” I asked him.

“I let her know that I started seeing someone, but calm down, babe. I haven’t said anything else.”

“Okay…”

“But why do you want to be so secretive about us? It’s been almost two months.”

“Yeah, but I don’t know… It’s just… It’s just sex… Our friends know that we don’t get along.”

“Babe, but we do now. So fucking much. And you know it's not just sex anymore.”

Mason was sanctioned and couldn’t play in this Premier League away match, so he stayed at home and invited me to his house to watch it with him. Being a huge football fan myself, he knew that I would never miss a Chelsea match. Me and Mason have been friends for a really long time because our parents knew each other from a very young age. Mase was almost two years younger than me, and I’ve always seen him as the little brother I’ve never had. I’ve always followed and supported Mason wherever he went. It was almost time for the game to start. The commentators went through the line-ups once again.

“You coming to Reece’s party on Friday, right?” Asked Mason.

“I don’t know, Mase. I have stuff to do.” I answered.

“Like what?”

“I don’t know…”

“Ben’s gonna be there.” When I heard his name… I literally felt butterflies in my stomach, but I needed to maintain my composure. “Hasn’t he told you about it?”

“Why would he tell me about it?”

“Because I know that now you two spent time together. Alone.”

“What the fuck, Mason?”

“The other day I checked the Find My Friends app and I saw that you were at Ben’s house with him, and it was midnight, y/n.” Shit, yeah… I was there. We were doing adult stuff.

“Are you stalking me now?!” I raised my voice.

“So it’s true!” Exclaimed Mason.

“What?! No! It’s not true, Mason!”

“Oh, my God… Fucking Chilly… I knew eventually this was going to happen.” He was laughing.

“Don’t stalk me, Mason.” And I was mad at him.

“I wasn’t stalking you. I was just making sure you were safe at home after the gig you went to.”

“Well, don’t do it.”

“Because then I unveil your secrets?” He winked at me and I rolled my eyes.

I arrived at the party with Alex, my best friend and flatmate, and greeted some of the people I knew. When I saw Ben smiling and standing next to Mason I felt that my legs stopped doing their function. Mason waved at me, making sure that I saw him. My eyes were locked on Ben, and Ben’s eyes were locked on me. Fuck. He looked so good. He was wearing a white t-shirt, light grey trousers and overshirt, and a pair of white Nike AirForces. This was the first time that I was around both Ben and Mason since my childhood best friend discovered what was happening between us. For the past few days I didn’t make any more comments about it, but my silence has been giving me away. I made some small talk with Mason and some of his teammates who were also there, Reece, Kepa, Ruben, Christian, Kai and Jorginho.

“Hello, y/n.” I froze at the sound of his voice.

“Hello, Ben.” I tried not to smile when I said his name. I also noticed he was getting closer to me and whispered something in my ear.

“You look so fucking hot in this dress. You’re gonna kill me, babe.” My heart started beating so fast. It was quite cold outside but to me it felt we were surpassing the 30ºC.

I was wearing a satin royal blue slip dress that went just above my knees. Of course I had Ben on my mind when I found and bought this dress just a few weeks ago. It was only for him. I knew he would love it. This shade of blue… This Chelsea blue reminded me of him for obvious reasons. We were at the back of the house, exactly at the top part of the garden so we had full vision of all the people. I distanced myself from the group and went to grab a drink.

“A fucking Red Bull?” Someone asked behind me, and I already knew who it was.

“Yes, Benjamin. No alcohol tonight. Plus, you also drink one before every match.”

“Because I need energy.”

“Well, same tonight.”

“Oh, yeah... And why would you need energy tonight?” He was teasing me and getting closer to me. I couldn't resist much longer... He winked at me.

“Ben, no. Ben...”

“Just do one shot with me.”

“Okay, but just one.” I smiled at him and Ben approached the table with all the drinks, grabbed two small glasses and poured the liquid.

“Here.” He said giving me one of the two glasses of alcohol.

“Thanks, Ben.”

“You know, y/n… I missed you these days.” Confessed Ben.

“Ben, it’s been four days since the last time.”

“Y/n! Y/n! Come have some fun!” I turned around and saw Alex grabbing my arm and pulling me to the bottom part of the garden where most of the people were dancing to the music.

I mimicked the people and also danced to the music, trying to keep my mind off from Ben. I didn’t want to think about him, but I just couldn’t stop. An hour passed and I was having fun with Alex and two other girls we just met. At some point this guy approached me and started talking to me. He was kind of average, but his outfit was cool so I kept on with our conversation. I’m pretty sure he told me his name, but I didn’t catch it due to the loud music. Minutes passed and I was still thinking about Ben. While talking to this guy I couldn’t help it, but I kept scanning the crowd, trying to find Ben. But Ben wasn’t nowhere to be found. Where the hell was he? Was he trying to find me? Was he having fun with someone else? Why wasn’t he by my side? Fuck, y/n! Stop! Focus on this random guy.

“So what do you think?” I came back to reality and I literally had no idea about what he was asking me.

“What?! Sorry, I can’t hear you with the loud music.” I tried to make up an excuse.

“Let’s go there.”

He pointed to a spot with just a few people around and I followed him there. I discovered that we had a very similar music taste, and this attracted me to him a little bit more. But he wasn’t Ben. We kept talking about music and concerts that we’ve both been to when I suddenly noticed an arm being wrapped around my shoulders.

“Hey man, what the fuck?! You talking to my girlfriend?” I knew that voice so well…

“Sorry, man. I didn’t know she was your girl. Relax.”

“Ben, what are you doing?” I said angrily looking into his ocean blue eyes, but then when I turned around to see the guy I was getting to know, he was already gone. I was kind of enjoying talking to him even though I didn’t even know his name. But Ben has been ignoring me the whole night and I wasn’t going to wait for him…

“That guy is bad news.”

“And you are good news?”

“Yes.” He came closer to me and whispered in my ear. “I know you enjoyed what happened on Monday night.” I felt my whole body shiver remembering all the stuff we did that night at his house. I still don’t know how I managed to get up from his bed and drive back to my house because my legs hurt like hell. I could still feel them a bit sore.

“That can’t happen again.”

“I know you want more. You always come back for more.” He said while putting his arms around my waist and slowly pushed me closer to him. I couldn’t do anything else rather than looking at his stunning blue eyes.

“Because I like it.” I said quietly but he picked up every word despite of all the noise and music at the party.

“‘It’?”

“Yes.”

“Or ‘me’?”

“Very funny, Benjamin.” I looked past Ben and noticed some of our friends, including Mason, starring at us from a distance. Fucking Mason... He was grinning like a little kid on Christmas. I felt so embarrassed... He’s never seen me this close to his teammate and friend. My eyes focused again on Ben’s precious face. “Why don’t we go somewhere quiet and away from everyone?”

He didn’t have to think twice about my proposal. Ben slightly moved his body and still with one of his arms around my waist we started walking together to somewhere quiet – if that even existed because one of Drake’s songs was blasting on the speakers. It was a bit cold outside, but I was feeling the heat while being this close to Ben. I was dying to kiss him again, like we did on that Monday night and many more nights before that one. But no, I can’t kiss him because every time we kissed, we ended up having sex. And I wasn’t going to have sex with him in a garden, Reece’s garden.

“You were so jealous when I was talking to that guy.” I said to Ben once we were finally away from everyone. We split and I crossed my arms on my chest.

“No.” He responded.

“Yes, Benji. It was cute though seeing you jealous.”

“I wasn’t jealous. I just don’t like that guy.”

“Why? You don’t even know him.”

“You also don’t know him.”

“But I was trying to and then you came and scared the guy away.”

“I’m not even sorry.”

“Benjamin James Chilwell, being intimidated by a random guy and getting jealous…”

“Maybe a little…” He finally confessed and I let out a small smile.

“A little?” I needed to tease him.

“He doesn’t deserve you.”

“And do you know what I deserve and what I don’t, Chilwell?”

“Fuck, y/n.” He sighed and run a hand through his hair. “You don’t understand how fucking stunning you look tonight with this blue dress on. You’re driving me fucking crazy, babe. And I’m the only one who can take this dress off of you tonight.”

I was starting to feel some wetness between my legs… He was in front of me and I just couldn’t stop starring at him… at his face, at his body. He was fully dressed, but my mind went back to last Monday, the last time I had him naked on top of me, and inside of me.

“What are you staring at?” Ben asked and I came back to reality.

“You, of course. But I wish we weren’t here, right now.” I responded while he was taking some steps closer to me. Fuck. I was trying to play it hard, but I was too weak…

“Me too, babe.”

“But we can’t go, Benji… Our friends will notice.”

“And? You don’t work tomorrow and I have the day off, so let’s go to my place now.”

“Fuck, okay… Let me go find Alex and tell her that I won’t be returning home with her.” I got so close to him and gave him a kiss on his cheek.

“I’ll go tell Mason that I have to leave. Let’s meet at the front door. I can’t fucking wait to have you all by myself.”

“Benjamin, you already have me all by yourself.”

We separated but I had the need to be close to him again. I walked through all the people who were at this party trying to find my best friend Alex. The only person who knew about my real feelings towards Ben was Alex, so she understood when I told her that I was leaving. When I gave her a hug and told her to have fun she responded with “You too, but use protection.” I tried to hide and make sure Mason didn’t see me go to the front door to wait for Ben. When I made it to the front of the house Ben was already there.

“Come on, let’s go.” He said and grabbed my left hand with his right one. We left the house and walked to his bright yellow Lamborghini that was parked two streets away from Reece’s.

“You know, I can open the door myself.”

“Let me be a gentleman now because I won’t be one later, y/n.”

I didn’t know what to say because I could only feel my whole body shiver. We both got inside of the car and I put on my seat belt, ready for Ben to start the Lambo. I was checking the time on my iPhone when I noticed that Ben unbuckled my seat belt. I didn’t understand why he just did that, so my eyes instantly travelled to his. I didn’t have any time to react because his lips found mine so quickly. This kiss… I fucking needed it so much. We needed to release the tension between us, but I thought we were gonna wait until we got to his house. It was a desperate but very passionate kiss, with both of us moaning consistently. He was grabbing my face, not letting me go, and I had my arms around his neck, not letting him go either. I needed more. I fucking needed more. So I started moving from my seat to on top of him. I could feel the steering wheel on my back, but the kiss hadn’t stopped for any second. Ben’s hands travelled through all my body. When they arrived to my legs, my dress was already a little bit higher up due to my current position, and he intentionally moved it a little bit higher. Fuck. I could feel it. I was so wet right now. I needed him to stick at least one of his fingers inside of me.

“Ben, please. I fucking need you right now.” I moaned and broke the kiss. But he never stopped kissing me because his lips travelled from my lips to my neck.

“You’re so fucking hot, baby.”

“Ben, Ben, Ben.” I noticed that his hands were under my dress and I shivered again. His hands grabbed my undies and pushed them down. And then I felt how one of his fingers was on my pussy touching me.

“Holy shit, y/n. You’re so fucking wet.”

“I know, Benji. It’s all your fault.”

“I’m so hard right now, y/n.” His finger was moving, and when he found my clit he didn’t stop rubbing it. I was already so fucking close, I could feel it. I put my arms around his neck and also tried to hold myself with the headrest of his car seat.

“I’m so fucking close, Ben.” My legs started to shake even more and suddenly I had a bad time breathing. “Oh, Ben… Ben! Ben!” And that’s when I orgasmed.

“Fucking hell, babe. I wasn’t expecting this now.”

“Holy shit, Ben. That felt so fucking good.”

“I need to fucking be inside of you. Let’s go to my house now.”

“Benji…” I looked at the back seats.

“No, babe.” He understood what I meant. “As much as I would like to do it right here, right now. I need to fuck you like you deserve and on my bed, again.”

“Okay, but drive safely.”

I put my undies back up and kissed Ben on the lips before sitting back on the passenger seat and fixing my dress. I could still feel my pussy burn. And holy shit, he only used one finger. Ben turned on the engine and started to drive. Reece’s house was only 15 minutes away from Ben’s but it felt like 50 minutes. I was dying to get off this car and arrive at Ben’s place. While driving, Ben put his left hand on my right thigh. He was caressing my thigh like he didn’t want to miss a second without touching me, like he didn’t want me to open the car door, jump and disappear. But he didn’t have to worry. I didn’t want to go. I wanted to spend as much time as possible with him. We both wanted the same.

We arrived at Ben’s around 1.30am and we both stepped outside the car so fast. We got inside the house and as soon as he closed the door, he grabbed me and started to kiss me again, but not before whispering in my ear “Fucking finally.” We went to the first floor of his house and straight to his bedroom. I knew exactly where it was. We couldn’t keep our hands off each other and he didn’t stop giving me small kisses. I could feel his bulge and it turned me on. We got to his bedroom and didn’t turn on the lights because the light that was coming from outside was enough for us.

He layered me carefully on his bed and started to kiss me more passionately. I wanted to finally rip off his clothes so badly. He took off his overshirt, I grabbed his t-shirt and pulled it over his head, with Ben helping me to do it faster. He then unbuttoned his jeans and took them off while I stared at him. My dress was not covering my underwear anymore, not that it mattered to me but I wanted it gone. I unzipped it from the side and Ben helped me to take it off.

“How many rounds do you think you can handle tonight?” Ben whispered in my ear.

“I don’t know, Benji. I hope a lot.” I kissed his lips and he smiled instantly.

That’s been the best sex of my life. I lost count of how many rounds we went through and all the things we did to each other. I could still feel my pussy beating to the fast pace of my heart, and my legs felt so sore after being open for so long. We were both on his bed, fully naked and tangled with each other. I could feel and hear his heart beating, it was slowly getting to a normal pace. He had one arm around me and was caressing me with his hand. He also placed some kisses on my head. I wished I could stay like this forever.

“You know, it really turned me on when you called me your girlfriend tonight at the party.” I confessed.

“If you want I can call you my girlfriend permanently.” I smiled at his comment and gave him a small kiss on his cheek. “And you can call me your boyfriend permanently.”

“I think we have a deal here, Chilwell.”

“But after some time I’ll have to call you my fiancé and later my wife, Mrs. Chilwell.”

“Benjamin! Not so fast!”

[bellinghamount]

water fear | ben chilwell

based on this photo bc was the only thing i thought when i saw it

summary: you and ben are taking a vacation, and he is trying to get over your fear of water

word count: 1077

warnings: nothing, just fluff 🥰

"Are you going to come, or am I going to have to come and get you?" Ben asked. He was riding on a jet ski, looking at you, who were standing on the end of the pier next to him. You were wearing only a green bikini and a life jacket, which you clung to as if your life depended on it. And looking at all that water, it did.

You and Ben had managed to take a vacation together, and his idea was to go to a paradise, Calanque d'En Vau in France had been chosen. It was a very beautiful place. A gorge of great cliffs three hundred meters high formed the famous Calanques, bathed by the waters of the Mediterranean Sea and forming small protected beaches. To reach the beach required a short ride on a jet ski or boat.

Ben, with his adventurous instincts, decided that you could go there on a jet ski, instead of going by boat as most tourists chose. It sounded like fun, the problem was that you couldn't swim, and were afraid of any lake, pool or sea that was more than a meter deep. Ben knew this well, so he put on his personal list: 'make Y/N lose his fear of water', as one of his goals on that trip.

You looked at him, he seemed so at ease riding that jet ski, wearing only blue shorts and the life jacket on his upper body.

"I can't do that, Benji, I'm sorry."

"Oh, Y/N, you promised me you would try."

You looked at the sea again, the crystal clear water seemed to be a very nice invitation for all the tourists. Really, it was all very beautiful and, at the same time, frightening. You shook your head in denial, but giving up was not a word in Benjamin James Chilwell's vocabulary.

"Come on, it's a jet ski, you won't even have to get in the water."

"What if you lose control, and we fall in? I could drown in there!" Ben rolled his eyes at your drama.

"First," he let go of one of the jet ski controls to show you number one, "it's easier to have a cold day in hell than for me to lose control of this thing, and second," he showed you number two. "you're not going to drown, honey, you're wearing a life jacket."

"Life jackets can come off, love."

"I'm not going to let you drown. Come on, you haven't even been in the hotel kiddie pool since we arrived. Getting wet is good in this heat." You watched him run his hand across his forehead, little beads of sweat beginning to form, and when Ben said 'heat' you seemed to feel all the effects of the sun. Your hair was starting to stick to the back of your neck and a nice dip might be nice, but your fear still screamed louder.

"Here, you see." You said, dipping your foot into the water and balancing as hard as you could to keep from falling in. "My foot is wet, isn't that enough?"

"No, it's not, now hurry up!" He said, extending a hand toward you. You knew Ben wasn't going to give up, you hesitated a bit, but eventually took his hand without any animation. "One foot at a time."

He instructed, you used your other hand to lean on him as you climbed on the jet ski. The waves were rocking the thing so hard that it took a few minutes before you finally got behind Ben on the jet ski. You hugged him as tightly as you could and closed your eyes to control your breathing, trying to get used to the water vehicle.

"You can't be that afraid." He laughed, and you rolled your eyes, resting your head on his shoulder.

"Ben, go slow!" You warned before he moved, and he placed his hand on your thigh and stroked there.

"Relax, baby." He said before turning on and starting to speed up. Water was splashing all over your leg and something, in the back of your mind, told you to trust your boyfriend. He must have known what he was doing piloting that thing. But the high speed was keeping you from opening your eyes.

"Benjamin! You're trying to kill me!" You shouted, trying to overcome the roar of the engine. He just laughed.

"Stop tensing up, love, just feel the wind."

You tried to do as he said and took three breaths before you opened your eyes. This place was really a paradise. Ben looked happy, and seeing him happy and enjoying himself made you feel the same way.

It took a while, but you finally realized that you were really safe there with Ben. The rest of the way to the beach, you still held him, but a little less tightly. Tour guides indicated the places Ben should follow, and soon you reached the beach. Ben parked with the other jet skis and then helped you down from the vehicle.

"See, you didn't die." He joked, stroking your cheek. You pulled his hand away, and it went to your waist as you held his neck. You ran your fingers across his forehead, brushing away the strands of hair that were messy from the seeing.

"Yeah." You said before bringing your lips together on his, he knew it was a form of thanks. The ride had been nice, and you knew that if he hadn't insisted you wouldn't have gone.

"So now let's go for a swim!" He said determinedly, pulling you by the hand. You still hesitated a little. "There are lifeguards everywhere, Y/N, and we won't sink because of the life jackets."

"Are you going to hold me the whole time?"

"I will." He turned toward her and deposited a kiss on her nose. Ben looked around, focusing on a group of children playing on the shore. "But if you want, I can also ask those little kids to borrow their arm floats."

He pointed in that direction and laughed. You made a frown and slapped his hand lightly.

"You're an idiot, you know that, Benjamin?"

"I love you too, my fearful girl."